Angels and Rainbows - The beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. But it can provide colour and hope.

Oh too, the same as you to be honest. It is not good. I feel positive on the one hand that I have managed to get this far but then I have my melt down, 7.5 weeks to go, what if something happens?? That thought and reasoning is never going to leave us Im afraid because something awful already happened less than a year ago for most of us. The 4d scan has helped me for the moment as my little man looked perfect. The mention of a lot of fluid keeps nipping into the back of my mind even though the lovely lady scanning said it was not a lets worry level.......wish she had said nothing!! Poor cheese has had a dreadful time but there is a part of me that would so welcome a 34 week delivery. I guess we just dont trust our bodies as much as technology. Hold my hand whenever you need.
I will say without a doubt that I can never go through a pregnancy again, just couldnt face living with this constant knot and worry inside. I will be 100% satisfied with my lot I promise, so please God, listen.

Cheese, hope things are going really well for you and Baby Ella today.

I am trying to motivate myself to do something, anything, towards tidying up/preparing for next week. I need to do some washing or I'll run out of clothes mid-week, and Dad, stepmum and my 3 little half-siblings are coming down on Friday so the house needs to be clean and tidy. I really can't be bothered, though. Part of the lethargy may well be caused by having had a breakdown this morning because Bean wasn't moving much - I got the Doppler out and even hearing her heartbeat didn't help matters that much. Cried all over DH and cancelled meeting friends for lunch as a result. She is now moving normally again, and she has turned a bit to be spine to spine, which might have something to do with not feeling so many kicks. Do you think I can just spend the next 4 weeks and 5 days in hospital being monitored? I suppose this is normal as I get to the last few weeks - I know that Angel went in fairly often in those last weeks, and Cheese too (although for other reasons like low sugar levels as well). I just feel like I've lost my nerve and I can't stand the responsibility - what if I fck up and she dies? Ciwi and Razz*, how are you coping?

Congrats cheese, that's great news and a lovely name too xx

Wowee!!!!!!
Fab news huge congrats to u all. Scarlett took good care of her little sister. Told you you'd be fine all that worry & stress will ease away now. Lovely fab news. Welcome to the " rainbow snug" Ella xxx
Love to you all. Xxxxx

Wonderful news cheese so, so very happy for you and your family. You finally made it.......welcome to the world Ella. What a fantastic weight for 34 weeks, amazing

Oh I'm so happy, a little rainbow has entered the world it gives me so much hope for the future.

Oooh fantastic!!! Congratulations cheese, WELL DONE my love, you got there, sanity and all . I'm sure Scarlett is very proud of her little sister and her very brave mummy xx
Gorgeous name, fab weight for 34 weeks. Can't wait to hear the birth story.

Lots of love to you all xxxxx

cheese CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so happy that she is here safe. And what a beautiful name.

Love to you and all the family!

Im so excited for you.

(the only time im not checking the thread every half hour! damn)

I am in shock - I thought it was all off for the time being! So pleased for you. Also slightly . I can't wait 5 more weeks!

Good choice of name!! Ellas are strong little girls so she will be fine! Much love and congratulations x

Oh Cheese, congratulations! That's marvellous! Also tearing up. 6lbs is a great weight at 34 weeks. Much love to you both.

Cheese- so happy for you both, I'm tearing up here! Hope you and little Ella are well, huge hugs to you both and floaty hugs to big sister Scarlett. X

Baby Ella was born at 11.36 am weighing 6 pounds! She's in special care but doing well! Xx

Hello everyone
too you poor thing, the scares these rainbow babies bring with them. So glad that bean is still ok and cooking inside of you safely.
fan, it sounds like you have had a really lovely day with dh. I must admit that the one good thing about not having a job at the moment is that I get to have dh all to myself while the dc are at school. I have become a converted rugby fan in the last two years since ds has been playing....love it!!
angel I agree, parents can be such a pain in the backside and quite often engage their mouth before their brains!! I mean really, as if Ant would not bother looking for a job!!
wtwso sorry for the sickness, I have well and truly been there. I am a lot sicker for a lot longer when carrying boys

Had my 4d scan today which was lovely. The quality wasnt fab as baby is breech and my placenta is anterior so in the way......typical!! The lady was lovely and only charged me for a normal scan. Baby boy is estimated to be 3lb at the moment with a prediction of being around 6lb5 when born. He looks just like ds1 and Thomas which has made me really smile.
Viewing on house seemed to go well but you never can tell. have two more booked for tomorrow so hopefully agent will give me some feedback then.

Hope things are still ok cheese.

Fan, getting married in Finland sounds marvellous. It must have been so beautiful. FX you are too.

Wtw, I'm planning to stop work on 2 March at 36 weeks, but my boss called this afternoon and said perhaps I should consider stopping now. I said I wanted the time for after Bean was born, and he said perhaps I could get signed off instead. It's v tempting! I'm not sure how much paid sick leave I've got left, though - I've used up a lot already this year. Poor you feeling so ill - hope it passes quickly.

Razz, hope the viewers like the house!

Cheese, thinking of you - hope all is well and you're getting some sleep.

Razz how did the viewing go?

wtw if it is a boy you will buck the treand of this thread, you'll be the only one whose angel is a different gender to their rainbow baby.

DH and I have had a lovely pre-anniversary day, walked into town, had lunch out and now we are going to snuggle on the sofa and watch a movie on the movie channel, just watching Paper Moon. Love that movie.
Tomorrow is a day of Rugby, love it, the calcutta cup (DH is Scottish and obs Im english so we shall be on opposite sides of the room, cheering on our team. Also we really hope its going to snow, just like our wedding in Finland. This cold weather is really bringing back the memories. Cant beleive its been three years, kind of sad that Fi isnt here, but hopefully all these good vibes will bring us our rainbow. I was also thinking to day that I would be due this month if I hadnt of miscarried in the summer.

FX I am this month.

My goodness, I cant believe I have missed what has been going on with poor cheese. Sending you all of my love. Not long to wait for her arrival now Im sure. Bet you had a right mixture of emotions thinking she was coming and then having it all stop.
Will catch up with the rest of the posts later as have a viewing on my house so need to shove things in cupboards and spray polish!!!

Cheese glad your bean is ok? Xx

cheese as long as your happy and LO is happy and the doc's are happy then I guess it all good. I really thought you had had her. Oh well she's better off being cooked a bit more.

Oh cheese, it certainly is a roller coaster! I hope your little stays put until there is room for her. Although fingers crossed she won't need to spend any time in special care. Thinking of you and Dh.

It's certainly been a rollercoaster. My sugars seem a little higher which is good, might be lower due to me being ill not sure. The gel is less likely to now I think as its been about 14/15 hours. Getting tightenings but not painful as such. Hoping they go away as I don't want her put at risk by being transferred

Cheese, how disappointing! Still, I suppose if miniGherkin is happy in you then it's the best place for her. How are your sugar levels now? FX all goes well - will the gel maybe start you off anyway, or has it not worked?