Angels and Rainbows - The beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. But it can provide colour and hope.

shakey wow that's so close and a bit sucky that you'll be out for the birth. Will DH be able to be there even if you are under the general?

blue I agree day one is always aweful even if your not ttc, men don't understand. I had the same with DH but he now understands that saying that kind of stuff to me only makes me more stressed. Its also stressy for you because your cycles are changing. Sometimes we have to take it on the chin and get on with it, but have a cry first and a rant about it.

Arh Blue it is shitty. No words of wisdom but sending you much love xxxx

oh blue
My mantra was always that CD1 was a shitty day and CD2 would feel better. It's ok to be gutted and drink . I think stress can delay or stop ovulation, but you're fairly sure you are ovulating so I wouldn't worry about being too stressed IYSWIM. fan is right, something like a 1 in 4 chance of conceiving even if timing etc is all fine, egg and swimmers present. Seems mad doesn't it. I remember thinking "with x million of you in there, how can you MISS the bloody egg??!!"
big hugs xx

had a really big emotional breakdown yesterday. DH thinks I am way too stressed to be able to conceive, he says I'm too focussed on it and should try to relax more. I just don't know how...

wow so much has happenned!

cheese congratulations on baby Ella what a lovely name and hope you are both doing well.

blue sorry AF got you again grrrr.

wtw going back to work is hard and glad your work is being so good with you.

miasmum fx for you today that you get the BFP you deserve.

fan also good luck with your testing next week, what a fantastic valentines pressie that would be.

I had my growth scan and consulatant appt last week, baby is growing fine but the amount of comments from midwives and consultant to how big the baby feels makes me think i am going to have a whopper. she is still breech and because of previous c section they wont try to turn her i am booked in for c section on 23rd feb as they wont do it before i am 39 weeks grrrrr.
yesterday saw the aneasatist (spelling is rubbish) and because i have a metal rod in my back and a curve of the spine i have to have a general so gutted i will be asleep when they deliver her. just hoping all this scrubbing floors will make her move but she seems quite happy to dig her head in my ribs

wtw today must have been challenging on a level I cannot imagine...

thanks for the good wishes, not sure it is my month, although I will still be upset if it's not. Finding out blood test results tomorrow.

wtw I know its shocking I don't know what I would do with out you guys. I really hope she can talk her DH round.

Wtw, for making it through Day 1. It's amazing how quickly you'll settle back in, though. I'm so sorry you had to go through all your old emails like that and found some upsetting ones. How long were you off for? I was off for 18 weeks including the annual leave I took before Thea was born, so nearly 6 weeks before she arrived and 12 afterwards. Then I managed about 3 weeks on phased return before getting signed off for a further 6 weeks. I did just slot back into place very swiftly - probably the fact I work for local government where things change very slowly helped there.

Miasmum, FX for you!

wtw meant to say, that must have so difficult to read. Well done for getting through the day. Are you full time or is it a phased return?

wtw I pm'd her and she told me her DH had put a filter on the computer so she can't see or access mumsnet or netmums. I'm appalled really, DH can't believe it. I have tried to encourage her to talk to him tonight to tell him how she needs this support network. Apparently he doesn't want their personal business on the forum.

Anyway, I'm so sorry blue I guess you just have to carry on, I read there's only a 24% chance each month and that's only if the sperm reaches the egg. I know it depressing. I think swi every other day is the best way to go rather than every day. Make sure your taking your vitamins that DH is taking his (zinc and vit c) also no hot baths etc. I'm sure you do all this already. We just have to keep trying hun, that's all we can do. It sucks, it sucks big time. As I said once before wouldn't it be nice if we came on heat like dogs or our pee changed colour when we were fertile!

How are you pg ladies doing?

cheese how's ella I hope she's behaving herself and getting stronger, maybe she's already home with you.

Waves to all.

all! sometimes I think is it ever going to happen? :( Of the 6 days I had Highs and Peaks on CBFM we dtd 4 days out of 6 with last peak day twice that day, but didn't day after... I don't know what more we could do than try to SWI every single day...

wtw well done for getting through today and reading those emails! ((hugs)) x

Mias hopefully it's a BFP for you soon! I will start CD1 tomorrow... which makes this a 30 day cycle.

blue sorry to hear that. think I might be the same, AF due on Thurs, and while temps and stats look good in theory, don't feel pg at all. So trying not to get excited.

too, ciwi and razz hold in there ladies!! we are here for you, thinking of you, and admiring you.

blizy / fan / blue also seen that FB post. Not sure how to help...

Blue xxxx sorry xxxx

Oh boo, Blue.

Blue- for you.

Fan- I seen that earlier, I would be lost without mn, it is my sole support network well apart from Dh.

I'm so sorry its AF blue.

thank for that fan it's ridiculous that he has done that!

it is AF I really thought we had managed it this month... don't know whether I should go back to temping or not...

Someone's DH has blocked them from accessing MN? I would give DH his head to play with if he did any such thing! Hope your friend is okay - sounds like there's some back story there.

blue I've just sent u a facebook message, its about a fellow mumsnetter whose dh had put a filter on their computer so she can't access mumsnet. I think she made me a friend through you, I've just been messaging her to say if she needs some support to message me anytime she likes. Can't believe her DH has done this to her.

Too, razz and ciwi- I can't imagine how you must be feeling hugs to you all.

Fan- in ok'ish thanks. I had a lovely weekend. I met with a lady from the feb ante/postnatal thread. It was fab!

it's very annoying when symptoms are the same for AF and pregnancy indeed.
I have some brownish discharge on pantyliner, and a little on wiping but no red blood...
Told DH that if I'm not pregnant now, he will have to perform on every single day I have a high and peak reading
But we will have to wait and see whether this turns out to be proper AF or not...
thanks for all the hugs... it helps that other people are thinking about me :)