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Hi angel x posts. Dh got me a card and is cooking tonight but I didn't get him one, he said he didn't want one. Tbh I am more bothered about spending time together than cards. Happy valentines day x

fan glad you are feeling better, like the others have said earlier, cycle day 1 is always the worst.
too I must be 2 weeks ahead of you then, I am 36 weeks on Friday. I didnt see the consultant today but saw his reg so a bit cross at that as it was my last appointment. The reg wouldn't budge from 38 weeks and even said 39 when I first went in. I got really upset and said you can't just add a week on like that, a week is a lifetime to me right now. In the end we agreed on the 29th feb so 2 weeks tomorrow. I feel ok about it now it has sunk in but is wasn't happy at first. I suppose it's the best thing for the baby, it's just me that will be going mental. On the plus side, my blood pressure is better and the protein is no worse at 1+. just going to focus on one day at a time now, I have managed 35 weeks, surely I can cope with another 2. When will you get your date? Are you having a section or being induced?

Happy valentines day all. Ant's at a footie match so we re not bothering today. ( though he took me for a meal at the weekend) he was very good bought me a card & sweets but I didn t get him anything!!! He didn r get me a Xmas card & normally my birthday cards are late as to him cards aren't important.so I ve adopted the same philosophy & it's been nice not to have to bother!!! Also after 13 years together we re past this now!!!!
Love to all xxx

Fan, glad you're feeling happier today. Did you have a nice Valentine's Day? DH and I skived off work early, bought beef Wellington ingredients and chocolate brownie pudding and are currently in bed watching the Big Bang Theory with cups of tea.

Ciwi, Fridays are the day I reach a new week too. 34 this time, hurray! How did the consultant appt go? Do you have a date now?

How is everyone else?

Hey I hope your love ones have appreciated you this valentines if you mark this day.

I'm feeling very upbeat today, really want to get stuff sorted and get stuff done! Always like this day 2 or 3 of AF.

Hi everyone,
fan I am so sorry it's not your month, it's really not fair. I am glad your oh has made you feel a bit better. You will get there and like your dh said, your baby will be all the more special for it x
wtw my sis is due anytime now, it is nice to have someone to share things with x
too we are certainly getting there, I am happy every Friday when I get I week further on. Am doing ok, got the big consultant appointment tomorrow, he promised me that we would discuss a date at this one fx.

Im at home with my DH, he always makes me feel a lot better, he bought me some yellow tulips (ophelia's flower).

he said we are going to get there and we shall love this next baby so much because of the journey we have been through, and we dont know how long that journey will take but we are going to give it a good crack this month.

Bless him I do love him loads.

angel My Sis is due 23rd of July! Looking forward to it... she hasn't asked me yet, but I think I will be a godmother :)

spilt I know, they are so tiny and so perfect at 17 weeks! I had a look at her pictures the other day when my MIL had asked for her funeral booklet, as she wants to use it and share it with other people (she is training to become a priest)

fan so sorry! I hope you feel better soon tomorrow! CD1 is crap :( ((hugs))

Too not long now! :)

I'm doing ok! working today and Friday this week, having the other days off to spend some quality time with DD and DH! Well DH only has Thursday off and I do need to tidy up our office still...

Fan- I'm glad you are having the afternoon to yourself.

Too- thank you, of course I remember. At the time I just wanted to help you, we were both stuck in the horrible dark days of new grief. I just couldn't believe how common and prolific stillbirth is.

I'm glad you had a good weekend. The end is in sight for you, just 3 weeks to get through my friend. I know you can do it and Thea is looking out for you and bean. X

Oh Fan, I'm so sorry. I was thinking of you all weekend and really hoping this was going to be it for you. Take care of yourself today. I'm glad you've taken the afternoon off. I would get into bed with a giant bar of chocolate and a mug of tea and just withdraw from the world a bit. In fact, I would have a lot of some , but you don't drink, do you?

Blizy, thinking of you too, especially as Zoe's dates get closer. I've kind of followed you through the year - do you remember how you very kindly PMed me when I first posted about Thea's death? You've been a huge support (as has everyone else!). I hope DH gets back in time this weekend!

I'm getting on okay - had Dad, stepmother and their 3 kids staying at the weekend, which occupied my mind nicely. I made it through another weekend! I am ridiculously proud of this. I'm now in my third last week at work, hurray! 33+3 today. Only 3 weeks and 4 days to go until D Day. After Friday I think it will start to seem so short, when it is less than 3 weeks away. I'm getting a lot of Braxton Hicks now, just to keep me on my toes. Ciwi, how are you getting on? 35 weeks is my next milestone.

Thank you ladies, I'm at work but I'm taking the afternoon off, can't stand these fake people today.
DH goes to work to early so didn't see him this morning, had to tell him by txt.

blizy totally understand how you feel about feb being zoes month.

Oh fan that is shit! I hope you are ok and get through cd1, it's always the worst. Hugs for you. X
I am ok'ish, just a bit weepy. I am having lots of flashbacks though and keep thinking if this time last year.

Spilt- Zoe died on the 26th and was born on the 28th feb. her due date was the 20th.

I think i am due to ov the end if the week and Dh will back on fri night, I hope I have my dates right. Although I don't think I will
Be too upset if this isn't the month as Feb will always be Zoe's month. I hope that makes sense.

Anyway, I hope everyone is well and had a good day. More hugs for you fan. X

Fan so sorry xxx

fan I'm so sorry xx

blue gosh yes I know just what you mean. On my antenatal thread with Freya one of the other women was a few weeks ahead and she got all excited at being x weeks and I so nearly blurted out "aaaw I know just what your baby looks like now, because Bobbie was that size". Then thought aargh no, the last thing she will want to hear is me saying her live baby looks like my dead one. So hard to remember sometimes!

wtw completely understand your feelings about your SILs baby and dates. I would feel just the same.

blizy what date is Zoe's birthday?

So sorry fan, it really is so very unfair. Hope you were able to have a good cuddle with dh.

Oh fan... nothing I can say except I am so sorry. It sounds silly, but I sort of felt that because you were being so controlled and good that it would be your time this month. Very silly, given that we all know too well that life doesn't work like that. The only thing I can say is that your sadness and disappointment is shared... And there is next month to work towards. I felt exactly like you last week with AF - but feeling a little more positive now. Go with the feelings, let them out and most of all, be gentle on yourself - do some things you enjoy, whether it is walking, eating, reading, shopping, whatever... We are here too. xx

Why is it so good damn hard, 18 months trying to get Ophelia and it ends so badly, and now 10 months and nothing! It sucks, and it doesn't seam fair at all, I'm trying so hard and nothing is happening.
I'm sorry girls I'm trying to be positive but its not really working, I'm trying to get ready for work and that's not working either.

How's it going blizy it must be hard what with the year anniversary coming up and your DH working so hard away. Been thinking of you a lot this weekend.

The witch has raised her ugly head this morning! Bitch!

Whatever congrats to your SIL xx

Razz that's lovely about your son!!!
I m good ... Certainly is a relief Ants working again also as I ve had enough of him being at home now!! He's beginning to do my head in!!! We always work better with limited time together only!!!
Blue my sister would have been about 18 weeks now if she hadn t miscarried. Your sister must be due roughly same time my Sis was due ??? 11 th July.
Hope Fan is ok?xx

razz No chance of time off . Hope the house sells soon, and at bump kicks!

whatever fab news about sil, although I can understand your anxiety surrounding her pregnancy and due date.

Hi blue hope you are ok?

fan How are you doing?

wtw that's lovely about you SIL! It's indeed nice having children close in age!

My sister is 17 weeks tomorrow and I keep thinking that I know exactly how big her little one is, as Sterre was the size of a 17 week old baby...
I just pray that everything will go smoothly for her!

Fan thinking of you! Hope the ugly witch is staying away! x

Hello all, hope the weekend has been good to you.
angel fantastic news about Ants job, you must feel so relieved, I no I would.
ciwi really hope that you get the delivery date that you want this week.
blizy working away other halfs is such a pain when ttc. If you no your cycle really well is dh booking some time off around THE time a possibility?? I planned my dh return visit to coincide with potential ovulation for this pregnancy!!
fan all the luck in the world being sent your way for hopeful testing in the morning
spilt we are selling our house at the moment and I hate it. Having to keep show home conditions all of the time just in case is a killer!!! Hope you get some good feed back from your viewings.

I went baby shopping with my mum on friday (not even the snow could stop me) and spent way more than I should of. Lost myself in the whole bubble of excitement for the day which was great. Sat on the sofa today with ds who had his hand on my tummy when baby decided to give the biggest kick ever, ds leaped across the room with shock which had us all laughing.