TTC after miscarriage - A New Start to a New Year x x x

Morning ladies...

CH - So sorry to be reading your posts and that you are having a right time at the moment. I hope you take time to chill and recoup. Of course vent your frustrations out thats what we are here for. You are always there giving your support and advice and don't forget that you need some too so don't withold asking for help/support or venting. Can you go the drs and just get further investigations? HK said it well...and agree get stuck into your college course and put the ttc on the backburner..we can get so involved with ttc that it gets too much. lots of {{{{hugs}}}} to you xx

Jane sorry to here your post and good luck with the breast scan.

HK - How you feeling today? Sorry to hear about your lump too good luck for Thursday hope you get sorted soon.

Carly - well done on the course what are you studying?

love and {{{hugs}}} to those that need it xxxx

Morning ladies

Coathanger-feel free to let it all out-do not keep it bottled up! Sending you lots of hugs my sweet ((((((xxxxxx))))))

HellKat-((((((xxxxxx)))))) to you to.

G4-hope DH gets his job ((xx))

jane-how are you doing? ((xx))

Krackers-have you done another test? ((xx))

carly, Charlee and Carameli-hope you get your BFP's ((xx))

Good news about Slinkstah

By the way, did that personality test. I am depressed etc and am Hitler!!!!!?????!!!!! So watch out girls!

Off to make some soup.

Love to everyone else

Take care

xxx

CH- am gutted for you babe especially as you had a folicle the other day on your scan, although this does mean you must be ovulating so thats good news.
you must be so fed up with bleeding for so long have you had tests to check if your hormones are ok- must be a hormone imbalance
maybe you have got estrogen dominance which is aparently quite common and caused by the food we eat and its plastic packaging amongst other things, i remember reading about it a while ago and being quite shocked. maybe you should try natural progesterone cream. i don't know enough to tell you about it but you may want to reseacrh it your self if you haven't before
also maybe you should go and see a herbalist too and see what they can give you to balance hormones.
don't give up, it will happen
(((((hugs)))))

HK hope the pain isn't too bad, well i actually really hope your pain is from constipation instead of mc, i hope you know one way or the other soon as waiting must be awful

I think my coping mechanism st the moment is to tell myself that I won't have anymore. Kind of a worst scenario kind of thing. Anyway, I have 3 beautiful boys already so perhaps I should count my blessings and move on.

Back in a bit all, off to get the shopping done.
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ch, what have the Drs said about it. Please don't give up hope. I wish I could say more but I don't know enough about things like this. But sending you lots of (((((HUGS)))))

And stop apologising hun. You've every reason to be feeling crappy. xxxxx

{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}} babe, you have'nt got a sad little life, far from it! You're having a crap time atm, and while it feels like this now, it won't be forever. Your body may have readjusted itself to having a big bleed every month, it does'nt mean you can't get pg. At least you know you can now ov (which is fab) and as long as your dh has at least one little swimmer, and your fertile, there's hope. There's always hope. Life deals crappy, unfair blows darling, but we have to be strong, dust ourselves off and say "Sod it, I can do this". Put the ttc lark at the back of your mind, throw yourself into college work and sure enough it will happen when you least expect it.
No matter how bad things get sweetheart, keep thinking there's so many people out there far worse than we are. Love & hugs my lovely xxxxxxx

I'm sorry if I am coming across as a bit narky, but I am so upset about this. I really though thismonth was a good one. What with seeing I was about to OV and beig told everything was okay in there. I can't express on here just how I feel about all this. I really, really don't think I can keep this up every month. I will never get my baby and I can't deal with that right now - I'm not in the right frame of mind, I'm not sleeping, I have other things on my mind too and it is all getting on top of me.

Ladies you have a mission coz I am gonna need some serious cheering up next weekend

But HK, mate, how much more clearing out has it got to do! This will be the third month of this and the scan said I was clear. I think i am just broken and quite honestly I think I want the whole lot taken away. Being realistic, there is no way I will ever have another baby. DH doesn't want it and he quite obviously can provide it. So I'm just wasting energy and crying tears every month for something that will never happen. Honest, I think I have got to start telling my self I don't want anymore children and get on with my sad little life

CH: just read your last msg, you poor thing. I agree with Hellkat, it might be your system clearing itself out.
Hope you find some answers.

Have to dash, have a good morning everyone. I am off to soft play centre and lots of chocolate.

Hi,

only around for a little this morning, going to soft play with dd and to drink lots of tea and coffee with a friend.

CH: hope you are feeling a bit better today.

Jane: hope you are feeling better about the lump. I had a similar thing. Lived with a small one for a couple of years and ended up getting it removed as I was just too stressed. but it was perfectly fine, cannot remember what they called it.

(((((((hugs)))))) to all who need one here...
In a rush this morning, not having a good one either. My temps are dropping, af due Sunday. doesn't help that dh got really upset and starting to get stressed about our dd not being an only child. He is also stressed about his age(41 in a few weeks) arrrrggggg not what I need!!!
and the fact that his job might mean him being on a project away from home soon( although spending a few nights to bd in a posh hotel with him doesn't sound that awful to me
but arrrgggg, he even thought I did not seem to upset this morning when I took my temperature.

sorry to go on just really need to get it out of my system.....

Oh sweety. It might just mean your body is preparing itself. Having a total clean out to make sure its perfect for when the time comes. here's hoping it eases xxxxxxx

Okay very quick and to the point coz gotta get kids to school.

Bleeding again - a weekafter I stopped last month!!! This means I have had a 24 day cycle and I bleed for 16 days of that. P**ssed off doesn't cover it. The scan I had on Friday showed nothing in my womb - no lining - it was clear. So it looks like my body doesn't allow any lining to build up, just sheds it. So what hope have I got of my body holding onto a baby.

It is, very bracing this morning. Frost everywhere. Now we need snow

Jane they're fabulous. They said any problems (more lumps, any worries etc) ring the breast clinic instead of my gp (as long as it's within 6 mths or I'd have to go back to the Dr). I found them very thorough. Mind you, all aspects of that hospital have been brilliant, so we've been really lucky. Not sure what they'll do on Thursday, probably another scan etc. When's your appointment?
I can't remember how old Slink's little one is, she could be 4. My brains' crappy.

Ch- Hope you're feeling chirpier today my love xxxxxxxxxxx

How are they treating you now hellkat? I had a hard marble one first time round but luckily it didn't change and they said it was fat necrosis(sp?). Is that slink who had a 4 year old ish dd? Shes been trying for ages thats great news.

CH I did one of those personalityy test that was on here before Xmas and it basically I was a really horrible person. Quite depressing

Thanks all, you've been amazing.
Spent the day sleeping, popping pills etc. (and scoffing M&M's) .
Still no bleeding but when the pain kicks in it's worse than before. Getting fed up now because I wish it would hurry up. Even if there's a chance I'm still pg, there's no way would it be a healthy pg with these pains (nurse agreed with me) so wishing for a big whoosh (so to speak), then try to get back to normal.
Jane- I've got my 2nd appointment in 6 mths at the breast clinic next week. My first was'nt a lump as such, more like thickened tissue, and they were fab. Did an ultrasound and a wide core biopsy, they checked me out thoroughly because there's alot of cancer on both sides of my family. (got the results in 48hrs, all clear). This time around though, it started off as a hard, marble sized lump (only noticed it because my arm and chest were aching). Since November its grown so so much it now fills 2 3rds of my boob, has changed the shape of it too. So try not to worry. At least you're aware of it and getting it checked out. Best of luck with it, let us know how you get on. How are you feeling otherwise?

Hope everyone's doing well. Our old graduate Slink is expecting a..............boy!!!!!!!!!!! Great news.

well of to read in bed, see you soon

Hi charlee, hope your ok. Maybe it was an implantation bleed????
Ive had a little bit of blood in pant 2day, but is so light in colur and flow, hope its af in a way, so i know im ok after hope, but also secretly hope im pregnant already, even though its very unlikely. But im ok whatever, if it is at least i can start tracking my cycle properly.

Hi girls!
Af's due today nothing as yet except that bleed about 4 days ago dont know what that was about any ideas anyone?
Not hoping for alot though this month i have been so grouchy over the last few days so probably pmt setting in. Ive had a few crampy type pains but nothing major they keep coming and i think here it is then they go again.

anyway im rambling! unfortunatley even if i was pg i HAVE to fly in 12 days time, so that will probably induce another m/c anyway.

Will see what happens.

All the best, keep smiling

Charlee xox

right start off with giving all those in need a massive hug so if anyone wants to join in please do (((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))
cd 26 for me today and still nothing in symptoms wise for either but
have had my coursework back in college and my tutor said he couldnt see why i couldn't get full marks yeay!!!!!!
anyway hope all of you are ok xxxx

Oh No! It didn't copy over! Basically I am 62% paranoid, 74% borderline, 62% histrionic, and 62% dependant! I am a freak!