Ah - thanks Pop and Munkiii; talking here makes a big difference.
17 months is hard going Munkiii and I know it was harder because of MC problems. Hope you have lots of fun with SWI now though. I think you are a strong, brave girl. I always wonder what it is that suddenly makes a PG take after 17 months not 17 weeks (for some people)....
I have to be tougher about the whole thing, but I'm also getting on and it's more a question of whether it's better to stop pushing so hard and accept that we are a small but perfectly formed family with 1DC and nothing wrong with that either. Pregnancy and childbirth seem more daunting at 40 than they did at 37 anyway...
DP is lovely but there's not a lot he can do to console. I am trying not to be the mess I was last month.
Pop: I have just phoned private clinic to book tests for early next week (though even they didn't seem to quite manage it and are ringing back). I had my d21 progesterone done 10 days ago, but GP didn't ever respond. He said he doesn't respond unless there's a problem but I'm not particularly reassured by his approach. So will go private. DP says he will book with GP for SA - they should at least give him that as I expect they will be bowled over to see a man 'turn himself in' rather than be dragged in by a Mrs.
Anyway Pop get on with working up your PG symptoms - I just know you're diffed. And well done for Tescos ambush (in your condition too). Sounds good that fishy-rice.
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