We are all jolly well going to smack the rat this month and grow a baby and we'll brook no argument. And probably eat some cake too.

Ladies, I have the cake recipe I promised. Do I just copy and paste it here, or is there a way I can attach it? I am so technophobic I can't fin the recipe online so have typed it out!

Oh Generic this is amazing news. I. Cannot. Wait

I think that's quite sensible actually Generic. You are actually late according to your usualy cycles so a pee stick should be correct either way tomorrow morning. The mentalling you'd do waiting for another day to pass is horrible.

I'll be logging on first thing to congratulate you I'm sure. Non-stop brooking going on here.

Hurray for generic testing tomorrow morning! Everything crossed for you my lovely.

have that's really positive news, you must be feeling really happy. Looking forward to having you brooking on here with us!

stasi I know how you feel about loosing confidence with your health, even though I am lucky and have not had serious health problems. It's hard to keep the faith that everything will turn out ok sometimes. Glad you're feeling more positive today.

Have that is great news! I'm glad you both feel more relaxed and I will be brooking no argument for a January BFP and a baby by next Christmas (aaaw!)

Munkii totally understandable that you would feel wobbly. It takes time to feel better but it's good to see you back and brooking no argument.

Thank you Scream and Muscial!

I am cracking up here - I have totally convinced myself I must be pregnant, but I am also very nervous about the chance that I may not be and am having a dodgy cycle. I've decided to bring forward the testing to tomorrow morning as I'd rather just know one way or the other now! Thank you to everyone that has listened to my ramblings over the past few days!

Have, that's fabulous news! :D

Generic, so excited for you - roll on Wednesday! :D

Stasi, glad you're feeling more positive :) We all have down days - ttc is such a rollercoaster..

raspberry, you're not being unreasonable, that's weird! I am getting a bit annoyed at a pregnant friends' constant statuses - I'm sure I've whined about it before - two recent ones include one going on about how much she wants a baby shower, and another counting down to her next scan! Aaaah....

Biscuit wise.. I've never been entirely convinced with regard to the hobnob. Chocolate digestives all the way :D

Hi Have! Glad to hear your good news, sounds like everything's set for a NY BFP!

Also keeping my fingers crossed for Generic on Wed! You have nerves of steel to wait that long before confirming the inevitable! I'll be checking back in for your good news on Wed morn!

Stasi it was so interesting to read your comments on adoption. I've always been the same actually, I want to have biological children first (it's important to DH) but I'm really hoping by DC 3 and possibly even 4 we'll be able to adopt. DH is on board in principle, but we'll see how it goes! I think I'd want to wait until my own children are old enough to be fully involved in our decision though, and also fully supportive of their new siblings. I think I'd be aiming for a 4 or 5 year age gap.

Great news Have

Cuddles for Stasi

Thanks all for your lovely words and welcome. Feeling wobbly but I know I will be OK!

Thanks bicci. How are you?

Oh Have that is great news Am going to be brooking like crazy for you x

That sounds like good news Have - hope they get him all balanced ASAP xx

Mmm hobnobs. Been for the hubby's appointment. It's pretty good news...I think. Bit vague....the anxiety has probably caused the initial infertility, the increased anxiety resulted in him needing meds. The meds may have caused problems with his swimmers! Plan is to stop the meds and scan his brain to see if he's got one, ha! and see which is causing it. Either way he thinks it's treatable and once his hormones are back in the normal range I'll be upduffed. The meds will be withdrawn by Christmas so I'll be brooking again in the new year
We've both relaxed massively.

That has brightened my day no end Whim

Though I do love a chocolate hobnob...

lmao! Did it ever work?? :o

I had a friend at uni who, when trying to pull women, used to pretend he was a biscuit inventor, and that the hobnob was his greatest work. Haven't been able to look them in the eye since.

I just found some ginger nuts in the work kitchen. I'll add them to the plate, and sneak a couple for me.

I should have offered the biscuits around! I didn't get around to doing any baking this weekend, was knitting a jumper for DH instead, so will have to make shop bought biccies look posh - put them on a plate!

I have plated a selection of bourbon cremes, hob nobs and chocolate (dark and milk) digestives. Tea, coffee and milk also on offer.

Good for you Stasi! I will brook no argument for good results today.

Thanks everyone. I'm not actually feeling that bad today, I think things had just reached a point where I had to let it out. I've found I've lost the confidence in my health since being so ill before. I no longer tend to think "Everything will be fine" or "That won't happen to me".

However, I really am ok, and I'll wait and get my blood results today and report back the numbers. I think I'm pretty good at dealing with what life throws at me, and if that's waiting longer, IVF, egg donation, surrogacy or adoption - they're all options! I will not be without hope!!

Now, time for tea and a choccy biscuit.

Stasi I'm sorry to hear you're finding it hard. Please don't be despondent - it takes a long time for some people and that doesn't mean there is anything wrong. Hopefully the tests will reassure you, and if something is going on, at least you will know and something will be done to fix it. FWIW when I conceived DD my periods were almost non-existent - I only needed a pantyliner for 2-3 days and that was it. I don't think a light flow is necessarily a problem.

Solars here's hoping the clomid does the job this month and enjoy the SWI.

Sweetie I think the blubbing is definitely a symptom - I keep bursting into tears too but it could be the stress of waiting to test

Maybe get home to bed and tell your boss to sod off!

Thanks Sweetie and Solars. I am very good with my water, Have already guzzled over a litre so far today. Think I just need some sleep to finally shift it.

I also cried my eyes out during Children in Need. Proper sobbing in the Maybe household

Am brooking for you Sweetie

Good luck with the SWI Solars

Chin up stasi. These things can take time. It's a tough enough time without you being hard on yourself too.

All sounds very positive Generic am brooking very hard for you and all the other lovely ladies too of course

Poor Maybe hope the headache goes soon, seems like the amount of tablets should shake it off. I would love the spiced cake recipe too as DH hates dried fruit so this sounds ideal.

Whim good luck for the viva on Friday.

I am expecting AF before the end of the week, if no show I will be testing Saturday and I have a boozy lunch with the ladies planned and would prefer to know before consuming copious amounts of champagne and cocktails.

I am not having any symptoms so to speak does bawling my eyes out through Children in Need count as a symptom? so don't think it was our month.