Moo, some advice from an experienced omg-there's-a-faint-line-not-really-there-but-i'm-sure-i-can-see-something-er, I had seen faint greyish lines too, but when I actually came to get my BFP, the IC sticks came up with a definite pink line, like my OV IC's, so I knew that all the ones I'd done before were complete castles in the sky.
On the plus side, last month I had sore boobs, and I never get those, also had nausea, but AF came a little early. The next month we did it. Maybe your body is seriously thinking about it now! FX.
Lil I don't know that I actually managed to relax, as I ov'd midway through doing the bedroom, but at that point the floor was sanded (biggest headache), and I'd painted the ceiling and all the walls, was just spot painting by that point, and at the point of getting ready to do the last step of finishing the floor. The rational part of me says that because the worst of it was out of the way and I knew I would definitely get it done by Christmas, I must have relaxed and stopped beating myself up about it. The irrational crazy part of me says it was karmic return for doing what I said I would do. I weirdly still feel like if I hadn't got my overdue smear done and the bedroom, it wouldn't have happened.
When I'm getting rid of stuff sometimes, rather than eBay the decent stuff, I'll take it to the charity shop as an offering to the charity shop fairy- I figured if I gave good stuff, it would improve my chances of finding good things when I went in.
I guess karma is the closest thing I have to a religion, I honestly believe that if you do good things, good things will happen. I've done bad stiff before and been bit on the arse for it, so this is how I roll now. I'm not saying that if I want a particular item to go on sale, I go and do some pruning, lol! I don't think it works like that.
But I'm going to continue doing what I feel is the right thing, whether tidying, putting up lights to make DH happy, or pruning the trees, in the hope that my little blob will be allowed to be ok as a result.
I didn't want to bang on about symptoms, it's not fair on you, but thought you might find my boobs funny (everyone else does, arf). I was adamant mine couldn't get any bigger, I already have udders... but not the half-filled balloons of cottage cheese have seemingly been partially topped up with water when I wasn't looking. If I thought it was bad getting them squished by DH before, I was wrong!
I keep thinking it isn't real. Was in mothercare yesterday, and baby aisle of asda while my brain screamed at me for being a fraud because I wasn't allowed in there.
My MiL wants to come and stay in early Jan with her foreign boyfriend (!), was hoping it would only be a few days, but she's said 5/6. Can't say no without giving away the reason, and we want to tell her face to face... mainly because if we'd told her over the phone at Christmas, there were 15 people there with her we didn't want knowing, and she's impossible at keeping secrets. Lol!
Oh wow, I've written an essay. Sorry!
Well, glad you all had a good festive season, sorry to those who have found it difficult, but I'm sure you'll all be getting first-class upgrades in the new year.
Much love!