TTC after a Miscarriage - Dear Santa, beanies for crimbo, please!!

Dont know if this is appropriate to say, its still very fresh for me at the mo, but do you ever feel ok. I dont think i ever will, even though i can walk about and do stuff, just feel a little ache in my heart all day long. Can smile and talk to others and say im ok, but even as i am typing now on my own the tears are blurring my vision and i just want to curl up and sob. Still so confused and people keep telling me to give it time b4 we start trying again. But they dont understand, that even if we got pregnant again straight away and had a healthy baby, there would still be a part of me that feels sad for what we have lost. Im sorry rambling and crying at same time, dont know whats come over me. sorry .

well tbh, i feel ok at the mo, it prob hit me later but at the moment i'm just wishing it was over to get back on the horse (so to speak)

can't help worrying, we all know how you must feel, and know that you're probably not okay.

Im ok didds,

my stomachs not hurting as much, we're gonna have a quiet night in with a couple of glasses of wine tonight.

Seriously girls, I'm fine. DOnt worry

how you feeling mums?

sorry, had lunch and had to put all the xmas cards in to envelops! ALL 130 of them, I dont want one its very unpersonal. They've all got photocopied signatures in it. YUK!

mumsxmaswish - where are you come back, bet you're scoffing your lunch. come back and talk to us we can help you.

Thanks garland. I do order from the internet just a bit wary of ebay, dont know why.

just before i log off g4p good luck at chemist and with infection but u can get cheap condoms from eBay (obv not used - eeeeeeeeww) for your fun and baby dancing. can u tell i've just lost my eBay virginity?

no what you mean garland, i only told parents, best mate and my boss this time, but must admit when it all started to go wrong, they were fab. But next time think were gonna keep it quiet, will be hard though.
But were not ttc yet anyway, had to go to chemist to get some dressings for my iky stich and bought some condoms too. I hate the things but seeing as ive stopped bleeding and the antibiotics are kicking in, didnt want to miss out on having a little fun

well girls i'm off now, expecting dh home with car so i can take dd2 to nursery (last day) and will be furiously wrapping until i pick the girls up, will speak then.
Forgot to say ASH i cat-ed u. didn't want u to think i wasn't thinking about u

mums - just seen your messages, so sorry mate, hope you can find comfort from us.
How are you feeling?

saying that the weather's just gone cloudy!
i'm excited too but don't wanna get me hopes up! If i'm not then we've got some explaining to do to every1 when they find out we've bought a 8 seater car on tue

Oh im so excited for you carly and garland, great weather here in the midlands too.

Didn't mean it to sound like u were lying HC just we've got unbeleivably good weather here for it being Dec!
Went to loo and was desperate to test but only cd26 of cd? cycle so stopped myself!

Hi HC, yeah it's ok weather in shrops too

HC where are you? im in wales and albeit a little windy have clear blu skies and glorious sunshine

mums-so sorry hun-take it easy and try and rest. ((xx))

Hanger-hope it is nothing too serious-not like you to lay low. ((xx))

carlychristmas and mygarland-come on you 2-hoping for BFP's for both of you this weekend. ((xx))

XACK-hope you are doing OK hun. ((xx))

Hugs to everyone else on this wet, windy and miserable day.

((xx))

this is only the 2nd which is why i'm not worrying. If it was 4th/5th/6th I'd be asking for every test under the sun. Until then, I'm just getting on with it.

Although wish this bit was over all ready, getting crampy now. Gonna get myself some pills, and a cup of t i think.

ASH
Hope you are ok.
Please email me if you want to chat in private. Am worried about u

Mums am so sorry. I know how you feel. Dh is always upset but worries more about what I am going thru and feels as though it's his fault only because he has got me pregnant and then I suffer the m/c.
You really do remind me of the way I deal with it. I have noticed that after a whileit's almost as though I expect it and therefore just get on with it. The frustration of waiting and trying again upsets me more than the m/c.

Mums hope u don't mind me asking, but how many consequetive m/c have you had?

well if u don't test 2day carly then i'll try to wait til sun (cd28) but if u don't do it 2day then i will do it 2moro.
hi xack hows u 2day?
mxw send my regards to dp cos men sometimes feel left out, take care the both of u

XACK how are you feeling hun any better?

Morning all.
Mums- sorry to hear.

Good luck any testers and here's to a happier New year for all xxxxxxxxx

Morning all.
Mums- sorry to hear.

Good luck any testers and here's to a happier New year for all xxxxxxxxx