With angel babies in the sky, some of us expecting rainbow babies, others still ttc and definitely swi!!

Cheese, that sounds horrible. Dreams can be so unnerving. Hang in there, lovey!

Angel, thinking of you for tomorrow.

Dachs, will miss you - all the best! If you ever feel like popping back in the welcome mat is always out.

Blue, yay for the new house - how exciting! It sounds lovely.

Have been having v busy weekend - shopping yesterday and friends round, then drove to Blair Drummond safari park today. Knackered! Still, was fun and filled the time in nicely. I'm not quite sure how DH and I will get through the next 10 days or so. Off to watch Downton Abbey now. Xxx

Will be thinking of dachs hope she's ok

Had a horrible dream last night. I dreamt I was in a shower somewhere, and two midwives came to listen to the baby so they out me on a monitor. Heard the heartbeat and they wanted to do some tests when suddenly we couldn't hear it anymore. I got more and more panicky and one of them was calling a dr but was saying something about a section being the only choice and I just remember feeling absolutely distraught and asking what if something had happened. I cried and said I didn't care about a section but that I couldn't go through losing a baby again, it all felt so real. I remember thinking I was 32 weeks and that the baby had a good chance outside of me. Then I woke up crying.

Had to get the doppler out then and found the heartbeat which was a relief. If it had been a weekday when the mdau is open I'd have gone in I think as I felt so awful. I'm starting to get scared of using the doppler now just in case we can't find anything. I think I'll might just stop using it soon as I'd rather go in if there was a problem. I dunno, that dream has really un nerved me.

Thanks Razz & mama xxx

Love to Dach -take good care of yourself xxxx
Angel- my thoughts are with you at this time of mixed emotions and i cant imagine how you and your family are feeling.xxx
hectic time for me soo sorry for the lack of posting here!
im moving and have limited access to internet, so until i an get on here just popping in!

Morning.
angel my thoughts will be with you and dh, what a mixed bag of emotions you will be feeling, it looked so different for us all a year ago. Look after yourself as best you can.
too sorry I missed your birthday but even more sorry that it was so shawdowed for you, still have everything crossed.
cheese your consultant sounds lovely, mine is also and it really does help in a big way.
blue fab news about the house, I love moving (really), hope all goes to plan.
Hi green I had only just been thinking about where dachs had gone on Friday, hope all remains well with her and she gets by in the best way for her.
mel I thought this week was testing, me and my siv brain!!
Good luck for this week ciwi.
Its raining here and I have now got to go and watch my son perform on the rugby pitch.......oh the joys of his dad working away

Well you keep enjoying yourself

Yep, I'll echo that, you'll be missed Dachs. Hope everything goes ok for you and we'll all be here when you need us xx
Blue so excited for you and the new house (hopefully). When are you testing? I'm testing next Sat unless the witch shows up!
Watching X factor just now, have had micro popcorn and revels so am happy. Hubby is out watching the football with the boys so have the house to myself. Sometimes that's bliss. Got my pastel portrait of ruby framed today and it looks fab. Only problem is I kind of cry everytime I look at it just now. Hope that changes x

apologies for the above post I was posting from my phone. supposed to say from mumsnet for a while.
Dachs I hope you will be back soon, take care of yourself. xxxxxx

Hi girls just had an email from dachs she says she's sorry she hasn't posted for a while but she's just overwhelmed with the whole pg and work she's going to take a break from minute for a while. I told her would miss her and that we are always here for a chat or a rant at.

Thanks guys xxx love to you all too xxx

Lots of love to you Angel xxx

Angel massive (hugs), it'll be a hard few days for you I'm sure. I'll be thinking of you and Georgie. A year seems a long time usually doesn't it but in this it doesn't at all, to me it still feels like yesterday. So many different emotions for you xxx

Blue sounds fab. Hope you hear very soon that you ve got it.xxx
Cheese shame you re not feeling any better. Yes, I finished work yesterday. Section is 10 days time. However, this weekend is all Georgie, a year agai today we had just returned from the hospital after being told she had died. So, a very emotional few days now . Just can t believe it's a year since she died/ born. In the depths of our grief I was advised time never stands still , it is transient. However, for a long time it did stand still all I remember was the utter depths of despair & grief. The weather was awful; dark, cold & snowy for a long time which suited our feelings but now all of a sudden there was light again & now we re here a year later without even knowing , really, how we got here.
So surreal. I m trying not to focus on that truely awful weekend & celebrate our Georgie.
It's good for me ( but unfortunate for you lot) that you know completely where I m coming from. This time last year our lives changed forever. Xxxx

Blue that's wonderful! Really glad you've decided to go for it, sounds perfect :o

Stuck in this weekend as ds2 is still in his cast and not allowed to walk on it, back on Wednesday to see if it's healed, fingers crossed; and dd1 is getting over being ill too so it's a film and games/snacks etc day. My head is hurting yet again, really fed up of it now and even taking paracetamol makes no difference at all. Hope everyone's ok xx

Moomin welcome, but sorry to see you here :(

Too happy birthday for yesterday, I'm not surprised you didn't enjoy it :( It's my birthday in Nov, on the 11 month anniversary of SCarlett's birth. How long will your amnio results take to come back once you have it?

Blue Did you make a decision about the house? It does sound like a good idea to me :) Those stones look lovely :)

Angel So you've started mat leave now? How many weeks do you have left now?

jane oh that's awful, I would have been very upset too.

green Pamper day would be good if I could hehe! Hope you're having a good week off, lots of relaxing :)

shakey I hope your scans go well, it will be terribly anxious for you but hopefully you'll feel a little better once they're over. Are you going to find out the sex?

ciwi The dream you had sounds awful :( probably is your worries expressing in the dream though. (hugs)

august I don't think you're spoiling Jacob's memory at all, when Scarlett died we needed to try again right away and that wasn't to replace her but because there was a need and a longing for another baby. There was a huge gap in our lives and it just didn't feel right at all, it still doesn't and never will but deciding to try again was the right thing to do for us. As it was it took us about 6 months to conceive.

razz It does take a while to find the heartbeat sometimes and it's always lower down than I think it will be. If you do want to try again then I'd suggest taking it slowly and moving it very slowly around and low down, angling the doppler differently rather than moving it completely each time too.

Too belated happy birthday. Look at it this will be your worst birthday all being well next year will be totally different. My 40 th was last December 6 weeks after we lost Georgie. My family made a huge effort and we booked a last minute trip to Bruges so we could all be together. It was totally surreal. All i was aware if that this year could only be better..many hugs to you.
Cheese glad today was good xx
Love to all xx

Happy Birthday Too, hope you've cheered up a bit
DS2 is 5 tomorrow... can't believe it. So much to do!
x

cheese your hospital team all sound lovely, glad they are not concerned about your bloods, didn't think they would be, I am sure they will stay fine x
too happy birthday (though I know it's not that happy without thea) It's my birthday next week, 2 days after Ciaran's, I am not looking forward to it but it can't be worse than last year. I am sure your little bean will be fine but it's not nice having the amnio hanging over your head, I hope it's done as soon as possible for you x

Cheese, X posts - yay for good consultant visit!