By no way means of detracting from the very good news on this thread of late I feel I need to explain my absence for the past week.
List gate floored me to be honest, I was deeply hurt that people could think that I am in anyway insensitive or did something to intentionally cause hurt and pain. After three years of being here I thought you knew me well enough to realise this wouldnt be the my intention. I care for you all so much.
I see that strawberry hasn't returned and I feel both guilty and upset that I could of pissed her off so much and caused so much upset that she doesn't want to come back 
The list aside I was also saddened that 4ever thought that I had intentionally ignored her heart felt post and hadn't responded. This wasn't the case, I jumped on the biscuits and just typed what was in my head. 4ever this really isn't a dig at you by the way, I just need to explain myself. I found it really hard to reply to that post you had written, for some reason ( probably in my head!) whatever I write doesn't seem genuine enough, probably because I'm sat in the position that you too should be in. If that makes any kind of sense? 
I am feeling so so guilty being pregnant, I haven't shared so much with you all for fear of offending or upsetting anyone. I feel guilty that I'm on my way to the 'perfect' family, one boy, one girl and having only suffered one mc. My life must seem so perfect to those that are suffering.
I am probably suffering from pregnancy paranoia or something but I find myself watching my p's and q's so much more often.
Gosh this is all very crap, and probably doesn't make a whole lot of sense but I hope you can try to see what I'm saying?
Sorry for any offence caused.....