Emmsys weebling onwards and upwards into summer.

Eeeeeekkkk!!!!! How fantastic!!

Right, deep breath - don't worry about how dark the lines are, tests vary and you may have implanted later than you thought.

Hope the lab will give you a slot - I'm not sure exactly what the immunotherapy treatment is but have you tried other clinics? I'm thinking particularly of ARGC, cos my sister has had some sort of immune treatment with them. She's on holiday at the moment so I can't ask her what it was. Might be worth going on fertilityfriends.co.uk and asking on there if there is anywhere else in London who does it.

Isn't it weird that me and BQ are vacating the big pants bench and we have 2 new bfps to replace us

yes, at least i think so 5 tests yesterday and today, but all very very faint lines, despite being due on today...

Weebling hugely already, previous tests were always dark even when early testing? Also, we need more immunotherapy treatment by 6wks to stop me miscarrying again, but called the portland (only place that does it) and spoke to the scatty one of his 2 secretarys, the other good one is off for 8wks typically, and the scatty one said the lab dont have any dates I explained the other secretary had already told me the lab were hard to deal with but she would plead my cause when I fell pregnant again, so the scatty one said shed speak to the consultant and the lab and get back to me in a couple of days... Why is nothing simple? Incidentally Monkey totally empathise with your situation, why is it the bureaucracy can have such disregard for the way it affects our lives, and future lives, makes me so angry.. Here is a huge belated hug to you..

Im sorry for the me post, and like Barbie I feel a bit guilty that its happened for us before the very deserving Moon Monkey and not forgetting Jools too...
Sorry to be rambling on! Still dont truly believe its definate cos of dodgy test lines.. Need to go dig out my cyclogest and aspirin, and buy some folic acid!

4ever - does that mean what I think it means?????

Move your bum up a bit please Barbie?!?!

26th June, they will try to attempt a scan...i think more to see that the pregnancy is viable and its in the right place. I think Doc was only joking about seeing two but bloods tripling can be a sign of multiple babies or molar

My stomach is bloated so much, i cant do up my shorts i think a combination of not being able to take ibs meds and everything else is making me look about 4 months...eek!

I didn't have bloods done with the DTs barbie so I don't know. My ms was worse with them than it was with Oscar and I had a sixth sense before the scan that it would be twins, even stopped looking at single buggies and started looking at twin ones In hindsight, i should have taken out twin insurance. It would be soooo exciting if it were twins

louey did your hcg levels triple with the dt's????

Oh and waves to cupcake and vjay - have a very fuzzy brain this morning.

Oh monkey that's just rubbish, both about the IUI and having to wait to do the next one I'm so cross on your behalf. I hope DH gave you lots of hugs last night xxx

moon hope the pain has gone. I really want to try Zumba but in the comfort of my living room so I don't have an audience to watch my uncoordinated attempts.....

bq hang in there....

barbie poor Dolly (again) and I'm sorry you have had such a rough night. Hope you get some answers soon x

b*er, fk, st, crp, monkey I am so very, very sorry and angry on your behalf. Life is indeed a bitch, why oh why is this happening to you? My first though was guilt for having this (hopefully) tiny little life start inside me when you deserve it so very much. Is there any way that something can be done? Can somebody else sign the paperwork? Can you not just go ahead and follow up with insurance later? Is there another clinic that will take you on and start things for you now? I hate with a passion all this legal mumbo jumbo, health insurance is a bloody nightmare. Do you need my barbiemobile? The petrol tank is full.....

Right if there is nothing that they can do, lets try to focus on the positives...a long, hot summer sipping magners in the garden, with no worries about getting a hangover, you can take painkillers to fight off the nasty hangover the next day.....you wont have to worry about being in the sun, you will run faster when flying the kite with your gorgeous ds, you get to enjoy Charlie all by himself for one last, indulgent summer, because IVF is going to work come september and next summer you will be all occupied with your new born. Did that help any?

bq not long now love, the last few weeks are a pita, but the end in nigh!

moon ouch, i hope the pain is completely gone and you are back zumba-ring very soon. I did that a few weeks ago, i had no idea what the heck it was....OH MY GOD

ps moon sorry you were in pain today but glad it's worn off now. I'm of you doing zumba!

bq massive hugs going out to you; it is crap waiting. I remember all the attempted sweeps and being told my cervix was too high; it is so disheartening. Will keep everything crossed that he arrives with no intervention. Keep us posted, we're all thinking of you x

monkey that is so crap that a stupid piece of paper has to put your life on hold for yet more long weeks. I wish there was something more we could do :(
I know you're not looking for platitudes but I just have to say you really are one of the loveliest people I've ever 'met' and I just can't wait until we're all cooing over pics of your ds and your new baby - because that IS going to happen. And when it does, all this waiting won't seem like it was as long as it feels now. I'm so sorry this cycle hasn't worked :( Go get all those tears out and dampen your dh's shoulder. Then fly a kite with your ds. We love you x

Hello all just a quick post from me sorry no personals but just to let you know still no sign of baby had attempted sweep today but they could not manage as cervix still too high !!
Induction booked for middle of next week if no sign keep your fingers crossed her arrives before then !!

Love to you all x x x

Hugs from me too monkey life is crap sometimes isnt it, and vjay is right, tears are better out than in. I dont know what to say really but I am thinking of you lots xxx

barbie at your dh thinking I was dtd whilst thinking of you all! Was in a lot of pain today, but its wearing off now. Gutted I had to miss my zumba class, I love it, but can hardly stand up right let alone dance. Next steps - wont know yet til end of July when have a follow up appointment with the consultant. And not sure about being strong, but its genuine, and you welling up surely means hormones awry huh

to all the girls and wonders where bqs prince is....

So sorry but this is going to be a me post, I really need to vent... Found out this afternoon that this last cycle of IUI hasn't worked. Then she tells me that I can't go straight onto my next (and final) cycle of IUI because they're upping the drugs, and so I need to get paperwork filled out and accepted by my health insurance, which normally takes about three weeks.
The lab closes over the summer, which means I won't be able to do the IUI until August, and I have my intake appt for the 1st Aug, which they will now have to change because I can't do the intake appt before they have seen that the 4th cycle of IUI has failed.
At your intake appt you register for the IVF, the first date as of now being a start date of 10th Sept. Obviously, that date is going to change as more people register, so by the time I should have registered it probably would've been mid/end sept. Goodness knows what it's going to be now. I just can't believe that one measly bit of paperwork that could have been done weeks ago is going to add more time onto this. I feel so fed up. I feel like my life is on hold waiting for something that might never happen, and I feel awful that this is the case. Today has been terrible, and I have spent most of the afternoon crying.

Sorry to just post about me, but I really feel sh*t and don't know what to do, not that I can do anything anyway of course...

Must go as dh is back xxx

louey I am mega impressed at your long and personal post. You're supermum! Sooo glad Oscar is putting on weight. And yes please get some pics up here when you have a second! How are the dt taking to big brother-dom? Hope they're being angels for you!
I was going to work on a Sat cos I work(ed) in a shop...am just doing odd Saturdays for them over the summer to cover staff leave. Quite enjoyed it on sat, literally nothing had changed so was like I'd never been away!

barbie I like the sound of twin-watch sorry you're feeling weebly (I put wobbly first but that makes it sound like you're feeling overweight )

Hm, just seen ds do his little gorilla crawl (up on his feet) to the end of the garden (I tend to leave the back sliding door open on nice days and he comes in and out!) ...better go rescue him I think before his clothes get covered in soil again!!

doh...write not right...and god knows how many other error's too...

Hello

moon dh was reading over my shoulder yesterday and made the face when you said you were thinking about us with your legs akimbo..he thought you and dp were doing the deed and all you were thinking about was us
I'm glad things are finally getting done for you, you have a plan so you can only go forth from this day forward. How are you feeling now, has the pain gone? What is the next step? You made me well up with your post about me, thank you, it takes a strong person to be happy for someone else when you so desperately want it yourself.

buddha nice to have you back! Don't be come and join me!

Louey fabby news that oscar is gaining weight, long may he continue to do so and long may the bloody midwives be off your back...oh and thanks to you i have just spent 1.10 gbp on a chocolate orange bar! Not even a whole orange, just a measly 5 pieces...grrrr

Right i would so love to right more but dinner is almost done, i hope it doesnt taste like fairy liquid like everything else seems to be

Wobbling due to no symptoms, cramping, and generally worried about everything...i forgot how terribly lonely and isolating the first trimester came be.

Oh and my bloods tripled we are on twin watch at scan in two weeks or molar pregnancy watch...i know which id rather it be..

Dh is keeping me sane, he keeps saying that 1 in 3 end in mc....so this is my 3rd pregnancy and i have had 1 mc, so this one will be a good one. Bless him, if only things were that simple eh?

Right of to munch some food, love to all xxx

Hello,

I'm going to try and attempt a proper catch up while I can. Need to express but the window cleaner is currently here and I don't fancy giving him a show. DH did suggest we might get a discount though....

moon so glad it went ok and hope you are feeling a bit better today. Really good that its clear, one more thing to tick off the list. Now you need to persuade DP to SWI this cycle in case the dye has shifted something in your tubes.

vjay I'm sorry about cjay's godmother and your step grandmother, I hope you're ok. Tis a lot to deal with (((((((HUGS)))))))))

monkey am about your trip to see TT. I was a bit gutted when I found out that they were touring at around the same time that Oscar was due. Hopefully next time they tour I will get to go. How is the 2ww going? Good that you have a plan, even if it is one you don't really want to do.

cupcake just had a peek at your pictures and isn't Jude just a bundle of scrummy toddler-dom. Fab pic of him pushing the trolley! It sounds as though he will be walking very soon. The cake is gorgeous, I can't do decorating so it looks lovely to me. Bet it tasted scrummy too. Why were you going into work on a saturday?

LBM eek at 4.30 am, not fun. I read your post last week about your day with DD1 and DS1 not going to plan and felt your pain. I think us working mums put a lot of pressure on ourselves to try and make the days we have with our LOs really special. I know I really look forward to my Fridays with I&L and they are always often really grotty after a busy tiring week and I get the brunt of the bad behaviour. It sounded like your two were tired too. I'm very pleased that you had a nice weekend this weekend with them, and slightly panicking about having all 3 by myself!

BQ thinking of you, hope you are managing to have a rest and are avoiding all those annoying people asking you if you've had it yet.

QA how are you doing? Is your 20wk scan coming up soon?

neeko hope you are surviving the report writing...I hadn't realised that your DD1 is off to school as well in August. It sounds as though you and blue are much more organised than me, although we don't start until September. I've got a meeting this afternoon at Isaac's school and then one at Luke's in a couple of weeks. Don't even know what hours they are going to be doing yet as they stagger them for a few weeks.

buddha how are you?? Lovely to see you posting when you can.

4ever OMG how grown up does Summer look, and so tall. Fab pictures, thank you for uploading them

Well done Moon

Reports almost done Monkey Had a dream last night that you had a BFP and it was pink!

Barbie Weeble away. We'll keep you outtheasylum sane.

Have to dash but big waves to everyone else, especially Curly and Buddha who I missed yesterday