isn't it annoying? vol.2

ok, so i'm definitely out. AF really walloped me today and I feel wiped out.
Have fallen out with my mum big time, makes life difficult because DS really loves them - I can't remove them from his life but I don't want them in mine
other grown ups in my social circle acting like kids in the sodding playground and it's all crap and I just don't effing need it right now.

I am sooooooo not in a good mood.

Rolloyou are right, you can't choose your parents. Hope the stress is something you can deal with ok? Has the spotting stopped?

Ooh that's tentatively (took 5 attempt to spell that!) exciting. Spotting is not af!! Keep us posted. Nope parents are interesting variable indeed! In dh's case I think he'd swap his mother (she's so loopy he's never introduced us, been married early 3 years). In my case, can't choose your step mother!
feel free to offload here if you need to. have a MN and a big (unMN) hug from.me.

well.....actually....i had some brown spotting this morning. and nothing since, which is unusual for me. so i have no idea what is going on....

and now right when i don't need it i've had stress dumped on me from a great height. all i will say is you can't choose you parents. more's the pity....

queen that sucks. Sorry to hear she got you. I'm recovering from the uti but have been in bed most of the day with a migraine. Feeling quite despondent about ttc this month to be honest.

Sorry to hear that rollo, I'm still waiting on her, I'm now about 25 dpo!!

That's me out for another month.......

ninja enjoy the wedding, throw caution to the wind!

Think the antibiotics are kicking in already. That combined with a lovely 11 hours kip have left me feeling much.better :)
biscuits and rollo how are you feeling?

aw big hugs all round as I think you all need them.
rollo I know what you mean about suffocating. At the moment I am getting a lot of 'mummy will you play with me' all the time and sometimes it would just be nice to be able to have a shower without being interrupted 15 times to tell me a cat is in the back garden or that hes built a ramp for his cars. sometimes there is a fine line between endearing and annoying!
have hope the ab's kick in and you feel better soon. Please don't feel to desperate, you need to be healthy first and foremost.
biscuits a big fat hot water bottle for you by the sounds of it. Hope af stays away.
we're off to a wedding tomorrow so might not be back for a day or two. Hope you all feel better soon x

Evening all, Have hope the ABs kick in soon xx

AF now 2 days late but still only 12 dpo so potentially 1-3 days before she shows anyway. Boobs have been sore this month (not a symptom I've spotted in the prev months so was feeling a bit hopeful but period pains which have been there 2 days have ramped up a level this afternoon so considerably less hopeful now

Due to start Clomid but genuinely getting fed up with ttc and wondering if it worth all the hassle just for a string of knock backs

Oh bless you both :( it's so tough isn't it? I'm feeling crappy today as well. GP suspects uti (not massively surprised after the trauma I've had in the fanjo area in last few days!) But I'm in pain, feel rough and so frustrated especially since I'm seeing ewcm and there's no way he's coming near me while I feel like this. Just hoping body decides to delay ovulation til I'm feeling better! Anyway move GP said 'maybe this will be the month' and I started crying but I'm so desparing at the prospect of missing fertile.window :( oh dear.

Oh bless you both :( it's so tough isn't it? I'm feeling crappy today as well. GP suspects uti (not massively surprised after the trauma I've had in the fanjo area in last few days!) But I'm in pain, feel rough and so frustrated especially since I'm seeing ewcm and there's no way he's coming near me while I

oh biscuits have an unmnetty ((hug)) back.

It is so hard when they want you to play with them all day. Because DS is only here 4 days a week I try very hard to make sure I have no committments/housework etc those days so I can give him attention, but it's not good for him to have our attention constantly. He has to learn to play by himself too, and that we have some jobs which need to be done.

DS is nearly 6 and still follows me to the toilet - in fact, all round the house 'because I love you mummy and want to be with you ALL the time' which is endearing and beautiful but also damn suffocating.

You can correct the wrong autocorrects yourself with that one. My phone is convinced I'n is a word.....

Play not okay - autocorrect.

Example of being I'n my way - insists I'n staying to watch mr go to the toilet (can't complain as not potty trained yet) and then trying to pull my knickers up while I'm still wiping (and obv trying to carry out knicker check 1848472738482).

Just give me some space!!!!

queen I think I know a little bit how you feel. We have DS and I like you just wanted to be a mum. I also feel like I'm floundering - as if I am half way through a mission and I can't complete it.

DS is also being 'testing' and I feel bad for not giving him a sibling. I also feel a bit depressed and had been thinking about counselling. I feel like I am being short tempered with DS because I'm stressed about ttc and that makes him okay up more. He just won't do anything at all on his own at the moment and then I get snappy with him because I can't get anything done.

It's all horrible and has taken over my life

Just wanted to say that I really wanted to give you a hug queen xxx

ninja just the general selfishness they tend to display - you know, fine when they're doing what they want to but awful when they have to break from that to do what we want to.
Though as an example - he blamed me for the rain that meant we had to leave the beach

He also directly disobeyed an order, three minutes after it was given. And it was important too, not just a 'don't touch those biscuits' kind of order. I got very, very cross with him.

He is lonely, he told me that directly. He's noticing that other people have siblings to play with. I can't do anything about it. I do try to socialise him as much as poss, but everyone else with kids is so damn busy all the time

AF due Sunday, I woke at 6am and couldn't sleep so stupidly did a test and of course BFN. Increasingly this whole thing is starting to affect me daily now, I can feel myself starting to become depressed and that's usually a winter thing for me. Being a mum is all I've ever really wanted to do, and suddenly it seems a very real possibility that my part-time parenting of DS will be my lot and it's like having the rug pulled from under me. If i can't have another child what the effing hell am I going to do with my life? I feel like i'm floundering - there is nothing else I have any desire to fill my days with. And even the things I did enjoy hold no pleasure for me any more
Sorry to offload, I have no-one else who I can be honest with about how i feel. I'm tired of the NHS waiting game, and that will only get worse. I think that i'm getting very, very close to stepping away from the TTC completely and having some counselling because this is all having such a negative effect on my life.

Hello rollo sorry to hear about your son. What has he been doing? Do you think its a phase or could he be worried about something?
Liking the symptoms. Sore boobs is a good sign.
Not much to report here, just a random vivid dream about musical instruments needing to be sorted and tidied! Who knows what that was about?

Congrats Princess, how lovely to come back from holiday to such lovely news

Holiday was um - ok. DS behaviour really not good, just don't know what's got into him lately.

I'm trying so hard not to get my hopes up here girls, but my nipples are sore - really, really sore. Not felt this bad since I was pg with DS, but i've had the tender boobies before and AF still came so I'm trying not to get too excited because i'll feel crushed when Af arrives....

Congrats Princess xx

good for you princess I wish you good luck and good health for the rest of your pregnancy and beyond. Is this your first?

hey everybody,
how are you all?
well i had confirmation of the bfp on monday from the doctor and have my first midwife app next week.still all feels very surreal.
thank you to you all for your support over the past 2months and i wish you all luck on your journeys xxxxxxxxxxx

Glad it is done Have. Fingers crossed for a big dose of irony re the unnecessary tests and a lovely birthday BFP.

Thanks ninja! Well I'm back. It was very comfortable, apparently because my cervix is small. The radiologist had a push it in more than for most so I'm spotting now. Everything looks fine apparently, no pco, no blockages. DH is very worried that its all his fault. I'm saying positive. This will be the month! Ironic going for these tests for no reason and my.bfp for my birthday. :)