Just MC and ready to try again? Pack your cake, wine and tightie whities and join us for more ranting, weeping and most of all laughing! All welcome! (Part 16)

Manda just a quickie but yes the GP will give you your thyroid results over the phone but make sure they give you the actual numbers not just tell you they are 'within normal range'. Also last time the receptionist gave me them over the phone she said my TSH was 0.5 when it was actually 0.05 so again make sure they give you all the numbers they have :)

Ah, blue so with no conclusive signs, you're right back to WTF! Which, in a way, is good... no doubt you were thinking those cramps were A Sign which must have been distracting, so hopefully you can get through your deadline a liiiiittle easier now.

Well, fertility friend has given me crosshairs today (for those of you who use it, you'll know that means it thinks it knows the day I O'd...) but I'm truly not convinced, especially as the '1dpo' temp I was severely sleep depried so it's not accurate at all. And, oh, the irony - IF I have O'd as it thinks I have, on CD14, then we SWI'd on CD10, 12, 13, 14 and 15. Couldn't BE more perfect timing, really, considering yesterday in an overly emotional wobble I 'decided' I don't want to ttc. I say 'decided' as who knows what I really mean? Not me. I seem to be all over the place. I think the suggestion of counselling is a good one but really don't want to pay silly money and suspect I'd have to wait ages through the gp. Hmm. Maybe I just plod along for the rest of this supposed tww (really not convinced I O'd with these temps/lack of sore nips at 1dpo) and see what the outcome is.

Speaking of GP that reminds me - would they tell me my thyroid blood test result over the phone if I call?

summer xpost...sorry you've also got the same job questions!! Such a pain in the midst of all the TTC anxiety!

whatsoever comforting to read your post and see I'm not the only one! A colleague moved companies earlier this year and if I wanted to I could probably make the move there too but it would still be doing the same job...just a different place and a longer commute...it could make all the difference but I'm not so sure. I've been doing a distance learning course to explore something I could start as a business and run from home that would work with (hopefully) future childcare but it won't pay nearly enough at the moment so still a bit about what to do so just plodding through here...was really looking forward to the break from December for a full re-evaluation of it all but hey ho...need to wait and see! I think I may need to set a deadline too though!

whatso and marathon i am in the same situ too! I was supposed to be going on mat leave over August Bank Holiday and was looking forward to my year off. We too have given a deadline of christmas and if i am not preggy then we might stop TTC and look at other job options etc

i am metalling over here in the mosh pit yes yes i am 7DPO and have a sore right boob and am getting AF type cramps (which is too early for AF). Now i had all this last month so am not metalling too much

Blue I read your post and thought it was me talking!

I really don't like my job anymore and was banking on the year off from December. Now not having that is making me really miserable but as we are TTC I don't want to leave as if I left and then got a BFP I would have no maternity pay with a new employer.

We given ourselves a deadline of December. If I'm not up the duff by then, I will look for another job as I can't put it off forever.

marathon hope you're having a good holiday? Am holding off until the weekend before I POAS...if AF not here by then I'll give it a whirl and see...have a project deadline on Friday so hopefully that will keep me suitably distracted for the next few days speaking of which I should get back to work...was really looking forward to a break from this place from Dec so the MC really mucked that up which means I'm still stuck here until who knows when and don't feel I should move jobs as where I am is far too convenient for home and I know everyone and would feel bad taking a new job and then asking for mat leave it that all happened...oh dear...note to self...stop thinking about work and just get on with it!

Hello ladies, got 5 mins of peace... and breathe...

Welcome mrsnes! This is great bunch as the others have said. Do you have any DCs already? Have you had any tests to investigate all the mcs?

IQ hope you're feeling better? What a nightmare you're having. Is your scan on Sat? I bet that's playing on your mind.

summer get a fry up sharpish!

blue when will you POAS?

No news here, no symptoms so starting to worry. Off to the mosh pit to metal a bit more...

Hello to everyone I've missed where's missg gone??

IQ so glad to hear that she doesn't think it's ectopic...and that she was nice and encouraging too! Hope the pills kick in soon and the back thing doesn't turn out to be anything more serious...did you sleep ok last night? Are you in work today or resting and taking it easy?

I checked back through my TTC diary from the start of the year and it would seem that there was a pattern of me getting cramps on and off for a week before AF came (which I had forgotten about as this only started when I came off the pill late last year) I then checked and this also happened the month I did get a bfp so as usual there is still no sign eitherway! At least I can tell myself that the cramps I have are 'normal' which I suppose is a good thing!

How's everyone else this morning? Nearly half way though the week already Anyone in need of a caffeinated and decaf available!!

crossed posts eve glad you are feeling better today, maybe the thrush had something to do with it? and maybe the medication has cleared it for you. ah well - onwards and upwards

IQ glad everything is ok - i just read that like a rollercoaster as i havent been on since yesterday. Hopefully it is 'just' sciatica (sp?) and you can get some rest. Sounds like a lovely GP though

welcome mrsnesbit so sorry to hear you are going through this again, 6 times is harsh, but yes we are a welcoming bunch.

went round to my friends last night, 8 of us drinking and i feel baaaaad, in a way i hope i am not PG as i have prob given bean an alcohol addiction already

It ate my reply again!!!! Just a quick on as I wanted to answer Manda post. Firstly though

IQ - so glad you are ok. What a lovely thing for the doctor to say. Hope you are getting lots of rest and taking it easy.

Mrs Nesbit - sorry that you have join this thread, I hope that you have lots of good people around you for support at this difficult time. Look after yourself.

Manda - you are not alone in the way you are feeling. I am the same. Wondering if we should both ttc. Although v sad I just can't get away from the feeling i wanted that baby we lost. I really did not think we would get pg being older and on the pill etc. I am sure in time these feelings will fade. You stay strong and look after yourself.

Well as for me, I am feeling much better today. so that was all a bit strange have decide it is one of several things. I still have an infection (although no pain today). I am about to have the mother of all periods. Or it is something else going on. My off the wall idea is it might be implantation pain - have been hanging round here to much :-) So I will just wait and see.

Hope everyone is ok. Sorry not to mention everyone need to do some work! Have a good day it is nearly the weekend.

Panic over (until tomorrow when I start metalling about something else)

Been to see out of hours Dr who was very nice and understanding about my post MC current pg concerns. She asked me whether I "felt pg".....kind of looked at her and said "not really sure what pg feels like - so far I've had chest pain, insomnia, freaky dreams and now this back problem". She looked at me and said "mmmm this baby does seem to be putting you through it a bit - it will all be worth it in the end". Bless her for keeping my spirits up, currently feel like an OAP!!!

She doesn't think it ectopic (thank god) but thinks I have a disk problem in my lower back - have some stuff to put on it and drugs to take. hopefully is just inflamed and not a more serious problem but have to go to GP if not better in 3 days!!! Oh dear - well how is everyone else doing tonight then?

Welcome mrsnesbit - obviously not for a great reason but I have found this a fantastic thread full of supportive women......but yes things tend to move quickly here - you will get used to the pace!!!

Xxx

IQ hope you get some answers and an end to the pain v soon! Really hoping not ectopic too! Take good care...

Welcome Mrsnesbit also so sorry to hear of your losses, hopefully we can be good listening ears as you move forward.

I'm so so tired tonight...could just be the late night last night or for another reason?! I could barely keep my eyes open this afternoon at work! DH is fast asleep on the sofa so think bed might be calling us both v soon but seriously no energy for any SWI action!

IQ - so sorry to hear that - when are you going to the minor injuries unit?

Mrsnesbit - welcome aboard although so sorry for all your losses. Fingers (though definitely not legs) crossed that better luck is heading your way.

I've been popping by for a month or so and I don't know what I'd have done without this lot.

Hi all.
Wondered if i could join (If i can keep up as you are a fast moving bunch)

MC for the 6th time last week. Bleeding now stopped. Wanted to try again as soon as possible so we have begun, obviously very very nercous and frightened.

Any tips or hints would be great at this moment in time. Thanks x

Right ladies back pain has become increasingly worse - spoken to the out of hours GP and he has booked me in at the local minor injuries. Possibly cyatica (spelling ?) but small concern of ectopic pg.....genuinely feeling very worried now...wish hubby was home he would know the right thing to say!!!

Will update on my return - hoping all is ok!!!

Xxxx

Positive vibes and cyber hugs to so many of you, seems like today is a hard day all round for many thread-mates (is that a term? Didn't know what to call us all).

Passing round chocolate hobnobs, which I have taken way too much of a liking too in recent days.

No real news for me. Got some SWI in last night and now hubby away until Thursday night. Not sure where I am with my cycle but if it is 30 days, as I was (mostly) pre MMC, my next AF will be due next Monday. Don't think we got enough SWI in this month, especially with the extra long AF and nothing resembling pregnancy symptoms so far. I didn't expect to get lucky though so no real feelings of disappointment.

Ha ha metalling! I did it deliberately to make you all laugh, obviously.

Sending big hugs to Manda, I would definitely see a counsellor if you can. I had counselling once and it was so good for working things through.

YY i preferred the metalling too. Wanted to swing my non existent greasy locks in front of my face whilst in a mosh pit, waving a CB digital

Thank you all so much for such lovely words - particularly summer for sharing her woes too that made me feel a bit more normal like I wasn't a complete loon.

Can I just completely push my stuff aside for a moment (classic 'me' coping strategy - pretend it's not happening ) and say for all of you who are mentalling... can we go back to you metalling? It was such a fun mental image to think of you all with black and white face make up, leather jackets, tour t-shirts, grimey denims, headbanging with 'horn' fists punchin the air.

Yes...mentalling but trying not too! Heavy feeling in uterus, stuffy nose when I wake up, hormonal, just had sharp stabbing pain around left ovary, no EWCM, not sleeping well... first AF after MC would almost be as welcome as a BFP at the moment just so that I know where I am with everything!

Thanks for all your thoughts ladies!!!!

As for Manda don't worry about being 'me' we all have them at time....there is so much more to all of us on this thread than TTC. Were all here for that reason but we are whole people, with lives and laughs, good times, problems to share. We are here to support each other in very difficult circumstances and build each other up after being knocked so far left its hard to think of ever getting back onto the path that your life used to be on.

If you feel depressed - don't blame yourself - being depressed is not in anyway a crime, you have nothing to be ashamed of and this is the perfect place to express yourself. Sometimes you don't feel confident telling your family or even close friends how you feel but sitting behind a screen name allows us all to feel that we can be 100% honest.

TTC is stressful to say the least - don't put pressure on yourself to feel fine or be fine - you have lost something so precious and all of us here to a degree understand how dark that makes life. But only you know how you feel inside, no matter what happens you have a DP and DC who love you and you have all of us here. And being honest you couldn't ask for a better group of ladies behind you - so here is a massive hug from all of us to you.
Xxxx

pie my DH has that mug! he wanted me to buy it but i encouraged his work mates to buy it for him when he left his old job! i said he could have one but only if he took it to work

IQ massive fingers crossed/hugs/chocolate and PMA heading your way. If this continues then give your local MW a call or go see your GP. It sounds like general new pregnancy symptoms but you have every right to get checked out. Anyway - do let us know what crap TV you are watching today (i do miss my mat leave TV shite i used to watch!)

blue thanks for the choc chip cookie - v nice you mentalling too then? i am convinced i have sore boobies (i dont) i put on 2lb at slimming world last night (obviously a baby) and have been v weepy (see above post) so all in all i too am mentalling but need to hold my nerve. just like pie I was also doing POAS at 8DPO but really need to wait for 13DPO to get some real perspective

waves to everyone else - hope you are all having a good day - marathon how is rainy center parcs, you in the pub yet?

manda i hope this is some consolation but i am in exactly the same place as you. i have been in floods of tears since Saturday (but a bit to say on here but thank you manda for sharing - see we are not alone ) my ishoos are the MC, my grandads death and my friend's recent diagnosis.

I too dont want to see a GP as i also dont want to go on ADs. My sister got too dependent on them and i dont want to take them whilst TTC. My company give 7 free counselling sessions through AXA and i phoned them last night, i am getting a psychological assessment tomos then hopefully the sessions from next week. Is there any way you can get some kind of free/cheap counselling? i am so sorry you are going through this and if you want to talk/share then feel free to PM me. I know exactly how you are feeling (i think). This is why i have dropped my days at work as i need to spend time with DS (when i am with him i am in my 'happy place' ) It is hard trying to work out the things you can control which may make you feel better.

I dont know your MC story, were you quite far on? (i say that as you mention DS3 - did you know it was a boy?). Sorry if i have misunderstood.