Freak out room for those newly updiffed after mc - Part V

Hooray for the good scans today!! and a slight for collie at jumping ahead - lovely when that happens!!!

cep best of luck for tomorrow!

mummya how are you? Is the spotting continuing to keep away? Hope the sickness has settled down a bit too - the new job sounds like a fabulous distraction (do not worry about housework, our house is permanent carnage since I've been working nearly every day and feeling too tired/nauseous in the evenings to clean!)

yrmotb how're you doing? Mentalling is par for the course, trust me, as is panicking about symptoms, lack of, and variation in. There is no inner calm with pg after mc!! Anyway I hope you're managing to cope and keep the mentalling manageable

velvet I have tried to remember about bras but I'm drawing a blank, the only thing I recall is my normal bras suddenly becoming v v uncomfortable and having to jump up a size or five but no idea how long this went on...sorry... [useless emoticon]

Thanks to all for being duly on my behalf yesterday (especially mummya who really did seem as angry as I felt! ). Phone call today from hospital ante natal clinic manager to say I could have a consultant appt. After my 20 week scan . So looks as though we're on our own until then . I think I'm going to see how the NT goes on the 16th and then decide what scans etc I think I need and whether we can pay for them. I don't know. I do feel a bit abandoned tbh, like after the mc when we heard from and spoke to no medical professionals at all...it feels like no one's bothered about this baby except me. It's a strange and lonely time, and I'm glad I've got mn to vent on and know at least the ladies on here know where I'm coming from!

Small confession though - I did get a bargain Doppler on eBay which should arrive this week . Clearly as I'm only 10+4 it would be madness to use it just yet so I will endeavour to hold off a bit longer. Actually part of me is terrified and not sure I'll ever dare but we'll see how long that lasts! . (btw it was cheap as missing the instructions - go on, tell me I'm really adding to the mentalling by trying to find a hb pre-12 weeks with no instructions, aren't I?!)

good luck for tomorrow cep

thanks katherine have to admit i'm feeling rather nervous, ds is well aware of baby now, so am worried something may have gone wrong, sods law and all that. Plus we have to take him as no childcare, so the plan is for dh to wait outside with him and then when all ok they get brought in, am hoping the staff will do that anyway.

battery that sounds like a nice figure, fx it's increased tomorrow.

great news collie glad you got to fast forward some days too :)

whoop for the hcg levels battery now breathe!

thanks daisy for the response re bras

hooray for collie how brilliant! And how brilliant to get your nuchal results so quickly - I have a bit of a wait...

cep good luck tomorrow hun.

just amending the list with my new EDD. sending positive sticky vibes to everyone..

WEDNESDAY'S LIST

Nickster 26+4 EDD 7/8/11
Orange 22+4 EDD 4/9/11
Wombat33 21+4 EDD 10/09/11 next scan 25/5/11
Daisybell 20+6 EDD 14/09/11
Pinkfondantfancy 19+3 EDD 25/09/11
Tiggersreturn (TTT) 19+1 EDD 26/09/11 next scan 13/5/11
mamapower 19 EDD 28/9/11
DoubleDiffedDachs 18 EDD 5/10/11 next scan 18/5/11
Emoo 17+5 EDD 7/10/11 next scan 19/5/11
Lovemysleep 17+1 EDD 11/10/11
Tunnocksteacake 15+3 EDD 24/10/11
Onions 15+3 EDD 24/10/11 Next Scan 07/06/11
IreneHeron 15+3 EDD 23/10/11 next scan 3/6/11
Velvetcu 15+1 EDD 25/10/11 next scan 22/06/11
MummyAbroad 13+5 EDD 4/11/11
CEP 13+4 EDD 5/11/11 nuchal scan 5/5/11
Hils74 13 EDD 8/11/11
Katherine2008 12+6 EDD 10/11/11 next scan 23/6/11
Haffertee 12+4 EDD 14/11/11
delilahbelle 11+6 EDD 22/11/11
Mattsmama 11+6 EDD 17/11/11
Collie 11+3 EDD 20/11/11
Ninunina: 11+2 EDD 21/11/11 next scan 12/5/2011
wombatinwaiting: 10+6 EDD 24/11/11
IzzyWizzyletsgetbusy 10+4 EDD 26/11/11 NT scan 16/5/2011
Banana87 10+1 EDD 29/11/11
LaraMi 9+5 EDD 2/12/11 Next scan - 18/05/11

Thinking of.... hairy; ladybee; digi; A&R; barbie; harassed; MumTum; Knitter, Kat2504

WEDNESDAY'S LIST

Nickster 26+4 EDD 7/8/11
Orange 22+4 EDD 4/9/11
Wombat33 21+4 EDD 10/09/11 next scan 25/5/11
Daisybell 20+6 EDD 14/09/11
Pinkfondantfancy 19+3 EDD 25/09/11
Tiggersreturn (TTT) 19+1 EDD 26/09/11 next scan 13/5/11
mamapower 19 EDD 28/9/11
DoubleDiffedDachs 18 EDD 5/10/11 next scan 18/5/11
Emoo 17+5 EDD 7/10/11 next scan 19/5/11
Lovemysleep 17+1 EDD 11/10/11
Tunnocksteacake 15+3 EDD 24/10/11
Onions 15+3 EDD 24/10/11 Next Scan 07/06/11
IreneHeron 15+3 EDD 23/10/11 next scan 3/6/11
Velvetcu 15+1 EDD 25/10/11 next scan 22/06/11
MummyAbroad 13+5 EDD 4/11/11
CEP 13+4 EDD 5/11/11 nuchal scan 5/5/11
Hils74 13 EDD 8/11/11
Katherine2008 12+5 EDD 11/11/11 nuchal scan 3/5/11
Haffertee 12+4 EDD 14/11/11
delilahbelle 11+6 EDD 22/11/11
Mattsmama 11+6 EDD 17/11/11
Collie 11+3 EDD 20/11/11
Ninunina: 11+2 EDD 21/11/11 next scan 12/5/2011
wombatinwaiting: 10+6 EDD 24/11/11
IzzyWizzyletsgetbusy 10+4 EDD 26/11/11 NT scan 16/5/2011
Banana87 10+1 EDD 29/11/11
LaraMi 9+5 EDD 2/12/11 Next scan - 18/05/11

Thinking of.... hairy; ladybee; digi; A&R; barbie; harassed; MumTum; Knitter, Kat2504

Yey collie fab news!!

yrmotb everyone else has beaten me to it but I can assume you that we're all faking the calmness!! (except maybe Irene who seems to be the exception who proves the rule!).

Hooray for collie :) great great news xxx

welcome jiggle :)

mummyA Just wanted to say thank you for the hcg link, you really are very thoughtful :)

My hcg came back as 14778 yesterday and I am having a repeat tomorrow, so fingers crossed they are rising nicely :)

Yeyyy Collie - so very excited and happy for you. Enjoy your break - it will be all the more enjoyable now!!

yey collie! Great news.

Oh Collie I am soooo pleased for you !!!

I'm 6 weeks today I think. Well 6 weeks since last mc anyway! Mw said to use that as my date as long as I ov'd at a normal time, which I did. Both mw and epu said symptoms can come and go, but my ms is still alive and kicking. Smelly kitten has just made ill, flaming thing....

yay collie so pleased for you. now go and have a nice break away.

Had scan, colliepup just perfect!!!! It was AMAZING thank you everyone for encouraging me to go!! Little pup all wriggly rubbing it's eyes and kicking it's legs!!! I somehow managed to again 5 days (a whole week in fact on last scan) so I'm 11+3 edd. 20th nov! Also ended up having nt scan and odds are 1:10098 so couldn't be happier about that either. Nice healthy heartbeat of 177bpm!! I'm on cloud 9 soooo happy! Thanks everyone for getting me this far.

... I'm off to mamas and papas on the way home to look at ickle baby things!! xxxxxx

Welcome Jiggle - this is the bestest place to hang out IMHO...

Had my booking in appt this morning. What a load of bollox.... Maybe I am just being a cynic after my previous MCs but it just didn't feel real - felt like we were going through the motions and when I left I felt like I wouldn't be seeing any of them again as I will probs MC. .

She said I could go for another early scan if it makes me feel more reassured but for some reason I feel too scared to have another one.

Hey Blackkat - must I bully you EVERY DAY?! Where is your name on the list?!!

ok good, as long as we're all faking it I feel a bit better! Thanks dachs

HI everyone, decided I just don't feel brave enough to join the due Dec 2011 thread yet so will hang out here for a bit longer! I am 9 weeks today. Mc at 11 weeks last time so still not feeling confident about it all yet. Saw the MW yesterday for my booking appointment though and she was lovely. They come to your house here for a good hour or so, which was a novel experience for me. Hoping for a scan in about 3 weeks.

Told the first person yesterday (apart from DH obviously) - a good friend who had been very supportive during the mc. Still haven't told my mum but probably will soon.

Sorry to hear about all the stresses with symptoms or lack of them, or less than conclusive scans.

Got offered a great part time job yesterday. It is just the sort of thing I have been looking for since moving house over a year ago but as a teacher it would not start until Sep and then (if things go to plan) I could only work one term before leaving. I don't know whether to tell them up front now, even though have not had a scan or anything. It would be a great job to have in the long term but would feel morally wrong taking it , although legally I know i can. What would you guys do? Obviously in the back of my mind I know it could all go wrong again anyway.

Oh God. You shouldn't have told me that about that poor woman.

Ok, thanks. I guess I will just have to become better at hiding my emotions outwardly! I can manage that, surely, and reserve the wrath for DP. I rang my dp earlier and told him I was angry, and he told me that shagging is a good release of tension. I was looking forward to a few months off

yrmotb who's calm? I don't think any of us are. I'm certainly not!

yrmotb I'm supposedly 7 weeks today but haven't managed to keep calm at all - in fact I asked everyone the same thing a couple of weeks ago and they all said that they didn't really, the days just eventually ticked by and that people on here were here to listen and support in the meantime. I wish we all had a fast forward button!

I'm also v irritable, and v. emotional - cried my eyes out yesterday when watching 'This Morning' and a story about a woman who had recently died of breast cancer but had managed to live long enough to see her son's first day at school (turns out she also had 4 m/c before having her son - life just isn't fair is it!).

I know why it's called the freak out room.

I am 5 weeks tomorrow, my boobs were sore, but seem less so today and yesterday, but maybe I'm just getting used to it. I am irritable though. I am struggling to keep my temper, which is not like me. I hate everything and i'm fucking terrified. So far, though, for no reason. I did another 2 cheapys, one Sunday and one Monday, and Monday's was very definately darker that Sundays, which was in turn MUCH darker than the first one I did. I know you are all going to tell me the symptoms will come and go, but just tell me HOW you keep being nice and calm. That's all. Sorry for mememe.

cep my friend's daughter has had the grommet op, it was totally fine, it's very low risk, and the results were miraculous.

collie good luck for today, and hihp good luck for tomorrow.

collie hon you really are as bad as me. i'm sure you'll be fine, i know what you mean about the cramps though. am keeping fx for you.

took ds to see his ent consultant this morning, and it turns out he has had some hearing loss due to the constant glue ear he's had for at leats a year and half. So looks like he may have to have the grommet op, the consultant even mentioned possibly giving him hearing aids temporarily, but he didn't go into that. Waiting now for a letter from the surgery team. Wonderful, something else to worry about.

Good luck with the scan today collie. I hate the late ones, yesterday I was the same and after doing all the ironing (I figured better to do something I hate whilst stressing, rather than just stressing!), I put on the tv and found I fell asleep! Think the stressing and the full on weekend had just worn me out.
Anyway, fingers crossed for you x

Minnie yay on the great scan that's super news. Why do you have to wait till 18wks? No 12 wk scan?

izzy I too am v for you. I hope you get it sorted and agree you should push hard to get what you want, you shouldn't have to go private for the standard of care you need.

blackkat thanks for the mat rights advice. To be fair I don't really know where I stand so it's helpful to hear that and once I've annouced my pg at work I plan to neet with our HR director to discuss my options. One thing that reassurces me is that noone will want to get rid of the pg lady- way to risky, but it gets complicated bcs by April 2013 my organisation will be abolished so anyone left that hasn't been slotted into new organisations will be made redundant, and I'll be off until about jan '13. But it's really too long off and so uncertain at the mo that I've given up worrying about it.

daisy life in the public sector is a tough call at the mo isn't it- apparently we're the devil... Or so it sometimes feels!
How was your first day back?

harassed after all you've been through it's completely understandable that your worried, but your symptoms fading is not necc all doom. Glad you've got a scan tomorrow - how far are you? X

Ok, I'm sat at home petrified!!!! Scan not till 4.20!!! I should be working from home but dh took the my laptop charger to work and the battery is dead so I'm sat with nothing to do but stress, waiting for him to come back!!! So scared. I've been getting cramps today- first time in weeks!! Talk about shit timing! It's so scary thinking about the scan, knowing that today my world could come tumbling down all over again!!

minnie so pleased your scan went well.

hihp symptoms come and go, fx for tomorrow, please try not to worry too much.