Freak out room for those newly updiffed after MC to hold hands and support each other...

Did you have a scan? whats going on?

OMG Yeyeyeyeyeyey!

Hi all -
Well another Wednesday rolls up - DS is happily perched in front of Cbeebies while I catch up a bit.
I'm 10weeks tomorrow, which will be the furthest I've got and today is the due date of my last pg/mc. I've had a few teary sessions with DH this week and pretty much feel that I've got passed the anticipation of it, although it may still surface tonight.
I've also given notice at work and things are starting to gather momentum with the big move.

I'm pretty zen at the moment - I think now having a couple of weeks go by since the scan, still a week to wait unless I choose to go before my next consultant appt, means I've had a chance to just try to chill out and accept there isn't much I can do except hold on for the ride. Symptoms are variable - one day completely ravenous, others fairly normal, hugely tired some days, others waking at 3AM. Thankfully no spotting etc, and I suspect with the clexane if there was any bleeding etc it would appear fairly promptly because of the anti-clotting meds.
Anyway I suppose the zen will evaporate as the scan gets closer - I sort of hoped that if something had gone wrong I'd find out by starting naturally, just hate the prospect of being told 'out of the blue' by a sonographer.

All you other wibbling ladies - I do sympathise, it's awful just WANTING to know, and trying to read your body. Especially when you've been let down by signals before. Tough situation for everyone.

orange I missed your birthday but I was reading and hummed a little happy birthday with ukulele accompaniment in my head on the train home yesterday.

hairy I was thinking of you recently too - hope you're doing ok in the circumstances.

Love to everyone else sorry I can't do more individual name checks but got make a start on DS's tea.

D'oh!!! Dachs you're totally right Can I blame preg brain please??

6+5 today - wow! Time seems to fly when I think about the rest of you - funny when it seems to be going so slowly for me! I'm keeping everything crossed xxx Make sure you come back and update us

Welcome onions , pull up a beanbag & make yourself at home :)

I highly recommend lime and soda. Looks very like gin and tonic.

Hello Onions and congratulations! Wishing you a very sticky bean this time around. My best 'non-drinking drinking' tips are G&T (without the 'T' obviously), purple grape juice in a wine glass - looks indistinguishable from red wine, diluted apple or white grape juice for white wine (though the last two are easieir to pull off if you're entertaining at home rather than in a bar), virgin mojitos (seriously yummy!) or 'virgin' versions of any other cocktail (as long as the normal version isn't pure spirits). Hope that helps!

Hi all (Lots of waving to everyone here from the slightly nervous newcomer!) :)
I POAS last night after coming in from work and wandering if I should stuff the bag of Pork Scratchins that had snuck their way onto my person on leaving the pub. Any got the faintest line after a few minutes (had to put big light on to see properly), then shared the Pork Scratchins with DP in cautious celebration. Didn't have another test so went to Asda at lunchtime and bought CB digi, came home POAS and got a BFP 1-2 weeks!
Am both excited and bricking it at the same time (as I'm sure you have all been through) as MC'd in November without knowing I was PG. So I know the circumstances are very different this time and am trying to stay positive but needed to tell all. It's not gonna be easy keeping it a secret, my social life is based around alcohol, I have several birthday's coming up including a night away in London, that I'm gonna have to not drink on. And for me that will be so unusual. Any secrecy tips anyone?!?!?

HK I love your attitude! Why can't I think like that? After tomorrow I'm definately going to try and adopt an 'everything's still fine unless proven otherwise' attitude!

Good luck this afternoon dachs.

Still here lurking, all going fine as far as I know. Waves to everyone.

Dachs good luck for the scan this afternoon!!!! FX that the potential blood clots is resolving itself (and that pup2 is showing good progress too - how far along are you today??) xxx

Digi yey for the crampimg stopping. Not so yey about the 15 x 4-5 year olds for three hours

good luck with scan later dachs and you tomorrow wombat

Cramping stopped. Lunch eaten. I now have to go and jump around with 15 x 4-5 year olds for three hours.

Thanks wombat you are a wise and sensible woman (and give lovely hugs :) )

Just hunted out you AIBU thread Knitter. For what it's worth I think YA totally NBU!!!

Knitter I'm glad someone is getting some use out of it!!!

Sorry about your DH not giving you the support you need. Here's a big hug from me (((((HUG)))))

wombat big hug

I think that I may have found some of your zen BTW - feel perkier again today (if not particularly pregnant...) Did the CB Digital test last night and it very quickly came up with 'Pregnant 3+' which was very nice of it.

Told DH of my worries and he was about as supportive as a jelly bra. Asked me why I was thinking that... I told him and he shrugged his sholders and wandered off. A cuddle would have been nice. Then he had a grump about the 'would you invite your boss to stay the night' post I did on AIBU - acused me of living in a fantasy world and humphed himself off to bed.

orange glad you had a lovely birthday

digi does sound like one of those things that you'll just have to file away under 'means well'.

Dachs thank you. How are you doing today?

Digi, Owl, big hugs re the unsupportive mothers. I'm sure they try to do their best [benefit of doubt emoticon] but just don't understand what we're feeling. I haven't even told my mother, about the MC or about this pg. Hope to get away with not doing so until 16-20 wks or whenever I get confirmation that bean is alive and has all its limbs...

Love I don't know how you and others coped with 4 either. I can't imagine I would have any sanity left. Huge hugs to you.

digi I've had lots of cramping on and off thoughout this pg... tmi but it always seems to turn out to be bowel-related rather than bean-related (although obv without bean my bowels are far better behaved! ).

Orange I'm with you on the wanting to be back in bed asap!! Still, the sun's just come out here so I should make the most of that.

Scan is booked for 3pm tomorrow.

Ooooh loving the hot chocolate

hugs for wombat

and thanks for messages about me snapping at my mum. feel a bit bad about it as I know she was only trying to offer some advice but she has no idea that you can't just tell someone who's had 3 mc's 'not to worry as worrying is bad for the baby'.

Currently cramping in a worrying way. But it's all in the front, so at least I'm feeling something.

Digi I don't think people realise how much what they are saying affects us really. When I told my mum that I was feeling sick quite early on, she said "that's probably the steroids" - and I got mad about that. I want it to be the baby, not the steroids! But I don't think people who've not been through what we all have realise exactly how much you go through and what it does to your head. I had one friend who after having one mc, said that she just cannot understand how I have managed to cope with 4. By going slightly mental, I think.

Wombat my zen left me for a while too. Talking to my therapist yesterday about how I was cacking my pants about my scan - she said that I had nothing to worry about, as I still have symptoms. She said I should see the scans as my friends and as something to help me through this. By the evening, my boobs weren't sore anymore, and I was thinking that I haven't felt that sick lately either. Woke up early flapping, then realised boobs are sore, but am still not feeling sick. In the end, thought *Fuck it", I can't stop another mc happening, can I? I am gonna be tapping like crazy today to try and not go mental. Big hugs to you, and if another scan helps, go for it.

Nix it's so lovely to hear that you are 15+2 - makes me smile..

Orange your bday sounds lovely.

Digi acupuncture sounds great too - had it once before, not for pg, and just remember how relaxed it made me. Feel like I need a treat soon - maybe that or I fancy trying a Dr.Haushka facial, mmmmmmm.

Right ladies, here's to a calm and uneventful Wednesday - I'll try no to eat an entire large bag of Tyrells crisps today xx

I think zen is like symptoms. Some days it's there, some days it just buggers right off and leaves you in the lurch.

Bloody evil zen!!!

Orange 33? You youngster, you.

Digi My normally very understanding mother has completely failed to comprehend why I am so wary about just skipping about sprinkling babydust and buying cots despite me explaining it numerous times. This is because she managed to have 3 kids with no mishaps and I think she just can't understand - as people generally can't - the complete lack of faith it gives you in your body. She seems to think that because I am now up the duff again I can just forget about the mc. Er...no.

I am like a sleepwalking zombie full of rage this morning. It is not a pretty sight.