Feck off with your babydust - The hut of gl/doom, home of inadequate reproduction

Hmm hope he is better for picnic! I've been sick every day for 3 days and no af so going to sit on hands and test Tuesday when af would be due on a normal cycle!

Am good thanks bex, how are you? Sorry for your bfn.
Just waiting to see if ds is going to throw up his breakfast at the mo. Got home from work yesterday to be greeted by a pile of sick on the doorstep. Nice.

Otherwise we'll meet some friends for a picnic. What a gorgeous day!

Morning all, how are we all today?

Morning all, how are we all today?

BFN :(

Hmm FF has changed it mind and decided af is due tomorrow. No temp drop below cover line today though. So my big decision is: when do I poas?!

aw love i know! I veer between being overly positive about it to being a weeping mess. wish i could have a blokes point of view about it sometimes. Would make life much easier.

I know, just can't get hopes up after so many times of it not happening. Makes ne want to cry at the thought! :s

but af might not arrive bex, its got to happen for one of us sooner rather than later!

I suggested it half joking and was amazed when he agreed! Not true it yet, waiting for next month. Need to shop online for equipment!
I'll be quite annoyed when.af arrives (as she always does!) Having felt so rough!

have been reading your other thread bex, you sound right poorly! Am really feeling you!
How's the syringe working out for you? I haven't managed to get dp to agree to that yet. But I do like the idea on nights when I'm knackered and trying to get myself in the mood, that would be sooooo much easier.

Lol ninja! Dh had agreed to.similar, swi every other day and using what shall be termed 'the alternative method' or AM with his producing the goods and using a syringe! We never have sex that often and the pressure hasn't helped matters. Still holding out a tiny.flicker of hope for this cycle, evil witch due in 7 days. Feel like crap, nausea for last 3 days and have been sick. Also been told I look tired. I feel shattered! Resisting urge to poas early! Hmm just tried to spell early with a u...like 'urly', can't be good!

sleazy, never say never. You sound very down on yourself, how are you today?

Have decided to really spend a few months totally going for it in the ttc stakes as last few months it was getting to be a bit like we couldn't be bothered. I have now decided to shag from day 8 to day 18 if I can manage it, although prob every other night unless its really fertile time. Poor dp, it must be like living with a slightly demented person.

Af started so ninja I sympathise. Drinking wine as giving up after Easter although don't know why. Am 38 clearly unlikely to get pregnant again and certainly not keep it.

The panic attacks sound awful- I hadnt realised they had a cycle but peob no less terrifying for that.

Work review today- went ok, like my boss who couldn't have kids- was sympathetic without being ott re mcs etc . Went up a lot in my estimation as not a lot of people know what to say but I guess that comes of habit been through it. Shame as is often the way she would have made a fantastic mum

Times like these you imagine melting chocolate into a bath and just wallowing in it. Sorry ninja that sucks on multiple levels.

Oh Ninja how utterly crap! You'll just have to drink LOTS at the wedding to get you through. I hope you had a lovely big fry-up this morning to cheer yourself up.

well af got me well and truly first thing this morning. great. another month out and next months fertile period is exactly the same days we're off to ireland for this bloody fucking wedding that i don't want to go to. So not only will we have to share a room with ds from thursday to monday night but we'll also be spending all our time with sil and her new baby. which everyone will coo over and ask us when we're planning to have more. and we'll be car sharing with fil and mil. good god i may as well top myself now, its going to be awful. i need to find something unhealthy to have for breakfast to cheer me up.

It's more like the anxiety escalates for up to 45 mins, that fight or flight instinct. Then the body can get on.top of that and bring things back in to normal like heart rate. The more you are exposed to it the quicker you can get things back to normal.

bex thats really interesting about it takking 45 minutes - is that what it takes for your body to process and make sense of the feelings?

Sounds like a sensible plan, dealing with feelings as they arise. My counsellor told me anxiety lasts a total of 45 minutes. This helped me on Sat when I had a panic attack in a swimming pool! on Saturday. I was like 'ok, well I'm hyperventilating and freaking out but I can ride this out'. I guess you just have to live day by day.
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hairy you have my every sympathy, it must be terribly hard.

bex poor you, I've also been feeling really tired this week and my boobs are tingly which although may well be due to af due on weds, doesn't usually happen.

well, we've got our referral and now am just waiting for an appointment. gp said waiting list is about 3-4 months and while all our tests can be done on the nhs, if it gets as far as ivf then we will have to pay for it (which is what i expected since we already have ds). If anyone knows anything about the sub/ assisted fertility unit at Roehampton let me know!

On another note I nearly had a heart attack yesterday. I took ds to london zoo and we met up with some friends and their kids. We'd just come off a carousel and ds was stood next to me, i took my bag off my back, got a drink out, stood up and he was gone. I mean completely out of eyesight not in the vicinity gone. I was running around screaming his name and eventually found him by the bouncy castle. After yelling and hugging him simultaneously he burst into tears and told me he only wanted to see the bouncy castle and thats why he went. I honestly thought my heart was going to explode, I kept waking up last night after having horrible dreams about it. it was awful.

We're off too a wedding in ireland the weekend after easter, I think i might tie ds to me so he can't do it again.

Am ok. Working through things. Deciding to just go with the panic attacks/crying attacks rather than fighting them. So locked
My door at work, cried, got on with work.

I'm feeling pretty rough!! Trying to assume it's pms so I won't be too disappointed when AF arrives on Friday.
Symptoms are BAD including vvv bad nausea - was quite amusing at work - I'm a nurse and I was on ward round with the junior doc who's a few weeks pregnant, both of us struggling with the nausea and exhaustion. I slept for 8 hours last night but still feel shattered. If it IS Pms, it's like, the worst ever!
ninjahow are YOU?

hello, how's everyone today?

Day did improve but am v glad it's over now.ad