Feck off with your babydust - The hut of gl/doom, home of inadequate reproduction

I know you can't just delete your posts can you?! Yeah I think we're getting there slowly. Will be easier when house is not like a bomb site (had kitchen in living room, now spare room in study/hall). Kitchen is almost finished and spare room won't take too long. Will be less stressed once it's finished. Started with rewire in February so it's been a while coming together!

oops sorry Bex, just read your last posts, good luck hope that you have a BFP too , should teach me to read posts before posting duh

Thanks Bex actually I am not sure, I only found out this week so must be about a month. I have one healthy dd and have had two subsequant MC so I am trying not to get too excited until I make it to 12 and have a scan. That is good news Bex congratulations too, is this your first. Good luck hope that it all works out well

I'm ok thanks bex I'm very up and down it's just a waiting game.

Congrats piglet that's great news! When are you due then, February?
Dh and I have started decorating the nursery spare room. Have also cleared the air and patched things up ;). He even missed the end of the fa cup final, I do feel cherished!
hairy how are you feeling?

Thanks hairy its true though, I know that it seems like you should give up, but don't whilst you still have your periods and not gone through menopause imo, there is still hope

Thank you piglet what a sweet post. And congratulations!

hairy that is fantastic news, I had a BFP too this week, but not getting my hopes up high. Keep knicker checking and thinking daily is this the day that I will MC. Every little twinge thinking is this the start of MC. Don't worry about morning sickness it can come later on in the 1st trimester, mine morning sickness, cravings etc kicked in with dd at about 7 weeks, up until then I did not really have any symptoms. The Dr told me that not having morning sickness is no indication that you will MC, some of my friends did not have morning sickness at all with pg. Fingers crossed for you.

Btw my mum had me, her first child at 42, and my friend is 49, with a 4 year old and a six year old, and there are plenty of ladies in their 40's with babies so try not to loose heart.

Good to hear things are moving.forward and the test results are (relatively) good. You waiting for a start date?

Hi all, well I've been for my HSG today to check everything's clear, which it is. Day 3 blood tests ok too, so it's good news to go ahead with ICSI in the summer. There is no point in me wasting any more money on tests! Good luck to you though queenrollo and bex. How are you feeling Hairy?

Ok, you're on! I'm going to do everything wrong! Last cycle I was so convinced I didn't even drink in the last two weeks. That is restrained not buying tests. I have a couple in stock but there's no way I'm testing early.Cheers!

Bex come and sit with me and drink virtual gin. I have none of my usual pre-af signs.....my boobs are tender but only round the outside edges, I felt really nauseous for about an hour this morning. I have told myself that my boobs hurt because of the gardening i did yesterday and that i felt nauseous because I didn't sleep well last night.
I refuse to believe that we succeeded this month, i fully expect to get AF sometime between now and monday. I even walked round two shops this afternoon and didn't buy a 'just in case' pregnancy test. I don't want to let myself believe it may have happened because I know how crushed I will feel when AF arrives......and this weekend I am on my own with DS as DH gone away for the weekend.
Going to bed shortly (yes, very early!) but DS wants us to share the spare bed, watch a DVD and eat popcorn, so we're having a lovely night in together. I really do cherish these moments so much.....

Thanks bex

hairy sorry only just got to post.
I wish I could say Congrats but I know it's not very helpful atm. Just to say I really hope and will pray it's bean that sticks. Keep us posted.
I am playing mind games with my body. Boobs are tender and felt a bit sick. Only 7 dpo and have had it all before so I'm telling myself all that! Refuse to believe this will be the month. Maybe it'll be ironic?!

Ellangirl I think egg sharing is one of the most amazing things a person can do. I also think it's a huge, huge thing to ask someone to do. And I think you are fab for wanting to help others. Heres wishing you all the best.

Oh Hairy, I'm so sorry you can't be happy. I know you don't want to hear that it could still be ok, so I won't say it! I will just say just get through each hour and day however you can, and please never wish you weren't here any more. There is always hope- you have to believe that. I was wondering whether or not to do egg sharing for our ICSI cycle, and I do believe you have just made my mind up. If I can help people like you have the baby they always wanted, then it had to be the right thing to do doesn't it!

absolutely Hairy - you rant away. This place is a little refuge where you can do just that.

I will keep my fingers crossed for you x

I need to have a bit of a wallow/rant.

I;m pregnant at 43 for the fourth time in a year. 4 + 3.

I don't get to do the being excited bit

I have refused a six week scan but will go for a 7 or 8 week one. I can't face the EPU ever again - I am truly traumatised by it, and I really cannot ever set foot in that waiting room or scan room ever, ever again. so it will be a private one.

I had very strong symptoms until Wednesday - but nothing now. Glands don't feel swollen, no sickness, and most importantly breasts no longer tender/sore.

It's fucked up again hasn't it. :(

And what's more on Tuesday we had our test results which show no causes (ie: I don't have clotting disorders, and neither of us carries genetic problems).

Which most people think is good news, but it's the worst possible news because it means my eggs are basically too old and fucked.

So she said an option might be donor eggs, but there is probably no way we'll ever get to do that. I just can't imagne putting myself through it, and there is a massive egg shortage.

Fuck it all, I feel like fucking dying.

I know it'll get better and whatever is going to happen with this pregnancy will happen, and I will feel stronger again, but fuck me, this is tough.y.

Sorry for self-indulgent rant, but I thought this was the place to do it, probably.

I have a lot on at the moment, but one major stress point was resolved yesterday so that's a weight off my mind! I'm in that limbo right now of waiting for AF. Last cycle was 30 days which takes me to today, but no AF yet (usually a first thing in the morning girl), previous cycles 33 so it's a waiting game for the next few days and resisting the urge to test.

Well if its a new gp then I guess is certainly worth a try. But then again, if you manage to up the calories and that affects your weight then maybe that will help with the dry skin and hair etc. Good luck with the weight gain, I really hope it helps. Hope you are feeling a bit more positive today.

i have always been tiny, and my weight doesn't generally fluctuate. Only went up after DS was born. Family on both sides the same so think it's probably just genetics.

I do wonder if my weight has some bearing though because after DS when i went up to 8st my periods were regular.
I'm currently watching my diet closely and trying to up my calorie intake, as I have always had a very small appetite and so getting enough calories per day is actually hard work.

Had my thyroid tested years ago to see if it was behind me not gaining weight and all was fine but maybe i should ask again. I've just read the symptoms for both types of thyroid problem and I seem to have quite a few of them brain fog, feeling cold, dry skin, lifeless hair.......my GP over the years has just told me I am run down. They seem to say weight gain is a problem more than weight loss. I'm not losing weight though, just never putting it on! Different GP practice now though - maybe they'll be more interested?

Just a thought but have you had your thyroid tested? I could be wrong but that can really affect weight gain/ loss can't it?

Are the irregular cycles linked to your weight? Would it help mentally if between now and your referral appt you researched ways of increasing it in a healthy way? It might take your mind off ttc if you are concentrating on something else?

yes Ninja i have a 5 year old ds with my ex. I was just about to start investigation for extremely irregular cycles when I got my BFP. I was taking agnus castus at the time and was never sure if that was responsible for DS or not. Wondering now whether it did do something? my herbalist has offered to consult me again and prescribe something to boost ovulation but has encouraged me to have the medical tests first.

sounds like you are at the same place as me. From previous reading you have a dc with an ex? I have ds with dp, we are now also a statistic waiting for our first appt which is in july. tis shit but at least you are now on a list and will hopefully get some answers. Or a bfp in the meantime!