Feck off with your babydust - The hut of gl/doom, home of inadequate reproduction

Hello ladies, am back from my holiday. Looking a bit healthier and happier for having some quality time with Dh!
Anyone else read this month's Easy living? Interesting article on ttc when overweight (which I already was, let alone facing the scales in the mining!). Dh and I have pledged to give up the booze for lent (ok starting a little late!) and start a healthy diet and exercise regime to loose some weight while we have the time off from ttc. Was a good girl on holiday, did aqua fit three times and a pilates class. Free booze 24/7 didn't help!
Def not going to make a baby this month (Dh is giving his sample around the time I ovulate) but in a way it feels like the pressure is off for the first time in over a year!
Sorry to see no-one has had the joy of announcing bfps in the last week, hugs all round.

OMG glad I haven't found that thread, try only 2 read the one's with people as depressed as me on them... A friend dropped by this am & told me she was 15 wks PG which I'd suspected. Have spent rest of morning in tears. DH asked me what was wrong, told him & he said 'so'. Twat.

very true. poor baby boy no 3, i can't imagine ever being disappointed by the act of having a child of a certain sex. I guess its all relative if you've never had a problem with having them in the first place.

I'm off to surf for some possible shoes for a wedding that i don't want to go to. it involves 4 days with pretty much all of dp's side of the family (aunts, uncles, cousins etc) in ireland.

Enjoy the vino and head to aibu if you want a rant/ fight. Sometimes you have to scratch that itch!

Wine and active conversation thread on how sad I am to have baby boy no 3

Get a fucking grip woman- if you want devestation finding you are having another healthy pregnancy isnt it. Some perspective would be nice but again a reminder that fertility is not always compatible with compassion empathy or intelligence.

Agree one born every minute is to be avoided. I also agree that it's salt In wounds that you cut down on stuff that makes you miserable and yet still no bfp.

Also while I am on topic of rants here what's with baby on board badges on train? If you can't ask for a seat when pregnant then WTF is wrong with you. And if people won't give you a seat I doubt some smug badge will Change their mind.

Still not bothered to get last test but have booked more acupuncture. Looking forward to weekend tho

Its a fucker isn't it? All the people on this thread, especially those who have so many more problems than me - I just want to scoop them up and make it better.
I know what you mean about the whole being healthy thing, maybe if i develop a serious drug and booze problem I'll get a bfp in a couple of weeks?

Ninja - according to my blood tests all is good as well but like you still not PG - am sick of cutting out all the things I like eating/drinking to no avail - maybe I should restart my old lifestyle and then hey presto I'll get a BFP... My acupunc told me my progesterone levels were a bit low after I ov'd last month and then read that prog levels are hugely affected by stress - all a bit of a vicious circle then. Need to chill out but can't.

I can't watch one born every minute, its a bit like being continually slapped in the face. I don't wish to deny them their children in any way, it just shows up my own fertility inadequacies and quite frankly I can do without imposing any more hurt on myself.But yes, it is a positive way of looking at it. It HAS to be our turn soon, surely?
Speaking of inadequacies, I apparently have none according to my blood tests. Which is great, but if i'm so fucking healthy why aren't I pregnant? I now need to make another appointment to discuss being referred to the sub-fertility clinic. Hurrah. Not.

pink - yep even though I'd spent every day telling myself I wasn't PG I'd somehow managed to work out due date & various other significant dates in next 9 mths. Alas not to be so started the day off with a coffee, followed by a couple of diet cokes then chocolate and soon to start on booze. Haven't watched OBEM yet but good point re conceiving - need a positive thought.

Oh Pooch I hate the day or 2 before AF is due when every trip to the loo feels like a game of Russian roulette. I spend the whole time telling myself that of course I'm not pregnant, why would I be etc but then one little excited thought pops in that I might be, and before I know it I've worked out how I'll tell DH, how long I'll wait to tell family&friends and when I'll finish work for mat leave! It's truly awful - I hope AF stays away for you.

I know I shouldn't do it to myself but I watch One Born Every Minute every week and I always always think at the beginning when the voiceover says 'every minute of every day a baby is born' and I think, in that case one must be conceived every minute of every day - come on then, surely one of those minutes must be my turn!!!

Hope everyone's feeling ok today

It sounds like all our AF's are coming together in one foul red tide of misery - my temp dropped this morning, have cramps, back ache, sore boobs - still did a PG test as it hadnt' arrived - of course was a big fat BFN. Wish it would just start - its teasing my already stressed out head. At least tomorrow night I can consume huge amounts of a v.expensive bottle of wine with a few gin chasers to commiserate and then the whole god awful process starts again.

After my high progesterone on day 21 af came 2day so back on the clomid 2morrow

Hello ladies, apologies for my recent absence but I've been without internet for the past week (it was hellish obviously).

Then I just spent the weekend away with friends, one of which announced that she is (you guessed it) pregnant with her second (and of course her first is younger than DS)...fab! And I also suspect another close friend in RL is preg as she's suspiciously not drinking on our night out next weekend, so I'm bracing myself for that one too.

I'm feeling at the moment that I am never going to have another baby as it's just taking too long. Just made appointment for first set of blood tests at the docs and had letter through about hsg - has anyone had one? I had hoped to go on my own so that DH can look after DS, but it says to bring a 'companion' with you! Is it that bad?! Will I be able to drive myself home afterwards? My only other option would be to tell my parents, so that they could have DS and DH could come with me, but I'd much rather not tell them anything about it if possible.

Hey girls Im still here with no AF but 1 test BFN last Friday, wishing you all luck for the next round and hope to know one way or the other this week!!!

know the feeling ive ran out of things to say

Sometimes there just isn't anything anyone can say, is there? Thanks for your reply, hope you're doing ok :)

Ellangirl sorry to hear that- nothing much fo say. Nice restful weekend and marking spot as dropped off my threads

Af came this morning, I knew it all along, just holding onto shred of hope anyway! Must have ovulated a bit after my surge. Hey ho, onto the second year of trying...

So annoyed now. Cramps on thursday, got tiny bit of spotting friday morning, so thought it was af, but then nothing. Today did test and bfn. Af should come today at the latest as I had a smiley face on ovulation test 16 days ago. I'm so fed up of ttc, it makes my brain hurt!

hi ellangirl
yes it does

Hooray ladies! Am officially on holiday! Af swiftly kicked with a dose of cocodamol :)
Ninja let us how you get on.
I'll try to check in but may be off for the next week sipping my gin in the sunshine!

Hi bossy, hope the gyn will be able to solve some of your mysterious symptoms. I'm spotting today, so af just round the corner. So completely gutted, but not surprised. ninja have fun SWI! Bex give the witch a good kick- I will be!

Sill having 'symptoms' even though af here and low temps so not sure whats causing them, but have to wait until I see the gyn in 3 weeks. On the plus side I got a copy of the letter he sent my gp which indicates the polyps the gp thought I had is cervical erosion. What I read on that is its common, normal for women who have been on the pill/child birth etc and doesnt lead to cancer. Then I read somewhere else that you cant tell the difference between cervical erosion and the early onset of cancer and that you would need swabs. Luckily my smear last year was fine and the gp took swabs a few weeks ago and indicated nothing but thrush so hopefully the gps swabs were being tested for the same things as the gyns swabs. The letter also said no lumps or bumps could be felt.

So im hoping its just the cervical erosion thats causing the af disturbances and ttc problems.

morning, sorry to read of af's arriving Bex, ellan hope it stays away for you. Have a bloody large drink on me.
Well I went for follow up appt at docs on weds and have now had TSH, FSH, LH, Prolactin and immunity to rubella tested and should get results mid next week. am on day 8 of cycle and that means swi has to start happening this weekend.
How is everyone today? will try to pop on later. gin and sympathy to everyone who needs it.

Certainly is emmalou! Does clomid increase progesterone then? Fingers crossed for you!