and ANOTHER one of my friends is pregnant, bringing the total up to everyone I have ever met in my entire life except for me.

It's really tough.

I left my job back in May as I traveeled a lot, but our head office where I had to be 40% of the time was 225 miles from where I live. We can't relocate cos DH is training as a GP and is on a 3-year training contract with a local PCT (they're not easily transferable) and as I had a middle managment level marketing job I thought I could find something locally quite easily and then that would mean we could SWI more frequently. 7 months later I am still unemployed. Have got through to final round three times for interviews, but as the secotr that I work in doesn't operate where we live I haven't had appropriate experience. Every time I've been pipped to the post by somebody (who's already got a job) who has done that job before. Employers are so conservative. At one interview I was the highest scoring candidate at final interview, but then they awarded points for having previously worked in that sector. After being turned down three times at final interview my confidence is at an all time low.

All friends have great jobs and babies or are pregnant. I have no career, we've got two mortgages (when DH and I got married I moved into his but we've been unable to sell my house). Another sale fell through last week as buyer's mortgage company withdrew offer. And I am STILL NOT pregnant.

I feel absolutely useless. GP has diagnosed me with depression but is reluctant to treat and put stress on my medical notes as fertility services where I live don't treat if you are currently being treated for depression. I feel so trapped and miserable. Also have 2 high-flying SIL with 2 children each who can't understand why I can't get a job and FIL who thinks I am lazy. Have worked all my life. HAd part-time job whilst doing A-levels and worked every university holiday and had part-time job in second year of uni. Didn't even have a break after graduating but went straight into work.

I cry most days and feel completely envious of most of my friends. Two are undergoing fertility treatment so I do feel for them.

Feel awful and selfish for finding it so hard to be over the moon that my friends are all pregnant.

Sorry for mega whinge but your post really struck a chord.

Hey Yuleno. I could have written that post myself! Last week three of my mates announced their pregnancies, including the only other two who have been having difficulties like me. I feel like the last one left without baby or bump...and it's not a good feeling. I manage to keep a brave face on in front of them but sob when alone with my DH and feel like the worst and most selfish person in the world. I've since talked to other friends about it who reassure me that my feelings are absolutely normal - so try not to be too hard on yourself either!

Pretty much losing hope right now, even though the fertilty clinic says that taking up to two years can be 'normal' (TTC #1 for 15 months, no diagnosis, seems like there may be a few less than ideal factors that stack up rather than any one thing). How long have you been at it?

Poor you. I used to feel like this. I'd been trying for ages, then friends tried for one month and got pregnant straight away. This kept happening! But it was my turn eventually, so hopefully it will be yours soon.

I feel for you. You're not alone. I am in the same situation too.