Just MC and ready to try again? Pack your cake wine and tightie whities and join us for more ranting weeping and most of all laughing! All welcome! (Part 9)

Oh A&R that's pants! I'm also going to keep everything corssed along with Izzy that you go on and get a miracle bfp. You and Orange.

Nix look after yourself lovely and get DH to do the bathrooms too!!

((( aandrmum ))) . I hope you're ok sweetie and that you get a miracle bfp later this week. I'm so sorry that you're going through it too. Rest up and look after yourself xxx

Fx Nix beans can be very tough and survive all sorts of things thrown at them.

izzy hope you are feeling ok. A big day to get through.

Orange if you usual cycle length is 35 days then it may just be a matter of waiting. Always frustrating

Hi all. I am going to have to join Pink with a chemical preg. I poas yesterday and after a lot of thinking it gave me a bfp but by lunchtime I started to bleed heavily. I am in bed and dh has taken the girls to work. I feel incredibly rubbish - I'm not sure if it is related or not

orange thats rubbish, so sorry! i thought it was def your month :(. Going to say something a bit contraversial. Are you certain you OV on those days? Sometimes it spossible to think you are oving or have ov'd but it actually be delayed... or happened a few days after your +ve sticks. certainly happened to me. Could this have had a knock on delaying your cycle? The only way i could truly identify the exact day of OV was temping. Its really rubbish you had a bfn...gutted for you... x

pink try not to get too despondant. You are being really proactive getting tested which will at least give you some answers or rule certain things out. Try not to get too down with it lovely, although i know thats easier said than done :( Hope your DH buys you a very expensive piece of jewellery or something equally as nice for christmas to cheer you up xx

izzy glad you marked the occasion wiht something as fab as lanterns in the snow x i hope it brought you some peace xx

I am ok. Still struggling with lurgy. can you believe my deputy md emailed me last night and asked me to work today?! 11th hour with a new customer before christmas - witch!
No further CM, some cramping/aching but just have to sit tight, dont want a scan before christmas day in case its bad news tbh would rather wait until after! Lets face it after 3 days of high fevers, 3 days of paracetamol, and pennicillin it would have to be a very strong bean to cling on!!

Feeling too ill to be christmassy, DH has done the food shop, just need to get the house cleaned now! am not allowed to hoover so thats not down to me!! Well, maybe the bathrooms... when i have the energy i suppose!!

ps orange still keeping my fingers crossed for you, it ain't over until the ole bitch arrives.

also, as it's Christmas, thought you might all enjoy this, made me

Pink I have also had a CP this year after my mc. I don't even think about it, I won't let myself... I didn't work out any due date and I don't even talk about it, you will torment yourself... trust me sweets, this isn't your body screwing up, sadly, there was something very wrong with that little bean and your body, in this instance, did the right thing, it's waiting for the perfect bean to arrive and then it'll get it's shit together and do what it's supposed to do! Stop beating yourself up chick! Lots of hugs hon, we'll get there xx

izzy I also have lanterns ready to send up on Jan 17th...I am going to say a special little prayer for my 'Tiny' on that day! I hope you found comfort in doing that special thing xx

Waves to everyone else

Pink I know how you feel. Having mc in June, I am sure I had a cp in September this year - but something felt wrong about it and because of that I didn't dare test so I'll never know for sure. Then lovely AF rocked up a day early and super-heavy so that was the end of that. It is shit, there's no two ways about it. I made up for it by booking a last-minute holiday to spend some nice time with DH and drinking my own bodyweight in wine before getting back to TTC proper. I think that's all you can do, really. Hope you are feeling less crappy soon - it will happen; honest.

thanks wombat We're heading off on Friday.

I'm also working all the way up to Xmas Eve so I understand how Pink feels!

Mummyb have a FAB holiday!!! I'm very of warm weather and pool! Merry Christmas to you too xxx

Izz the sky lanterns sound totally beautiful. What a lovely idea. Hugs xxx

Orange big squeezes for you my lovely. I really feel for you - so frustrating! I'm still keeping everything crossed that there's a BFP waiting for you at the end of this. Well done on the weight loss too! Last day at work - whoo hoo! Mine's tomorrow - yey!

Hello to HKbaby for when you wake up!

Pink will they at least let you leave a bit early on Christmas Eve? Do you have far to travel or are you staying at home this Christmas? I'm sending you huge waves of optimism for the next cycle :) Totally know what you mean though on losing faith in your body. After all our SWI effort this month it looks like it may have been for nothing - temps STILL didn't go up convincingly this morning (and TMI allert, but I think I still have some EWCM - only if I go looking for it mind you, and given I don't normally do that, I have no idea if it's normal for me or not - arggggggghhhhhhh b£$%y F!%#* body!)

Hello to Kat and also looks around for A&R are you out there?!?

Also Dachs if you're around, I don't know when you and DH are due to head off on your quiet Christmas break, but I hope you have a lovely, stress-free and relaxing time xxx

Oh pink that is very crap. I haven't been here much in the last few days and hadn't realized you had a chem preg. You are right, it takes so much to come together just to conceive at all. Twice in one year is awful really. Have no sensible advice except to look after yourself and rant if you want, it can only be good for you.

big ((((hugs)))) to orange and pink

orange I'm sorry about the bfn and keeping my fx it's just too early for you...until af arrives there's still hope. Have you tried one of the more sensitive tests eg FR? Might be worth trying in a couple of days if you can bear the wait x

pink . It is crap, I know. Sometimes I want to kick my body which doesn't seem to realise that well-timed shagging ought at some point to end in a fertilised egg - ds and dd took 9 months to conceive (fair enough) but it took 3 years of "not being careful" to get pg last time - why?!! There is nothing more annoying or frustrating than your own body not playing ball. I think the really hard part is the lack of control - you can do everything "right" and things still might not work out.

The chem pg must have been devastating for you, and probably reignited your feelings of loss about your other mc . I don't really have any words of wisdom other than to keep hoping and feel free to rant here as much as you like - we're all here for you. At least you're taking some positive steps in getting the tests done, so try to focus on that xx

Hi ladies, sorry for thread hog, just need to rant. I feel so angry and let down by my body. I've worked really hard these last 6 months to relax and trust that my body knows what to do. Now I feel like I have absolutely nothing to base this random blind faith on, seeing as I've been pregnant twice in 7 months and neither of them have worked out, so my body clearly has absolutely not the first clue what to do with a fertilised egg. I wish this bloody stupid chem preg had happened a couple of days earlier, then I wouldn't have ever known as my period wouldn't have been late, and I could have carried along happily in blind optimism for a bit longer. Where the hell am I supposed to summon up any zen from now?? So many thing have to come right to even get a chem preg, let alone a convincing line and I can't even imagine getting to a 12 week scan stage, let alone full term. Sorry for misery, I know it's probably not very helpful here where everyone is trying to cling onto their zen as hard as they can, but if anyone has any advice on how I get some optimism back I'd be grateful....

Ps izz your lanterns sound beautiful, almost made me cry so I have no idea how you held it together. Such a nice thing to do xx

Have a good day everyone, keep everything crossed for me that the trains are actually doing their thing both going to and BACK FROM work!!!

Hey orange so so sorry for the stupid digital telling you the wrong answer.... It's always so bloody smug as well, don't you think?? If no AF it's still possible though and I think weird pulling feeling is a good thing. I reckon maybe carry on with Christmas as normal and try to forget about it as much as you can (yeah, right.....) and test again in a few days' time? Try not to get down tho hun, like you said, last time it took a long time to show up. So so hope for good news. Enjoy your last day - I'm working all the way to chrimbo eve! RUBBISH!

aandr what did you decide to do? Did you test again? Gaaaaaah between the three of us, one of us must get a convincing BFP, surely?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Thanks HKBaby Dh just given me loads of hugs so feel better

There are times when I actually feel pregnant, but try to dismiss it. Not really sore boobs but didn't last time, but have loads of CM. I actually thought AF was coming as had bad pains CD 27+28, and have occasional mild cramps since, with a weird pulling feeling. My pre-MC cycle length was 35 which is why I feel silly, but the OPK said I'd OV earlier this month so have gone by that. I lost 3 pounds tho despite all the crap I've eaten

Off to work, last day - Woohoo! Hope everyone has an awesome day

Good morning Orange. I'm sorry about your result, bless you, I really feel for you.

What are your instincts telling you? Do you still have the sore boobs/lots of CM? How regular are you? Would it be really strange for you for a cycle to be this long?

Oh I really hope it works out with good news for you. What are you thinking you'll do next? What a nightmare of uncertainty just before Christmas for you.

Sending you a big hug from Hong Kong until everyone else wakes up.

Look after yourself today.

Morning everyone - or just about

So, ClearBlue Digital says not pregnant :( and no AF. CD12 and 13 (am) I got OPK+ and I'm now on CD36 and not temping. Last time I got a positive when I was 12 days late but I don't want false hope. All suggestions or ideas will be gratefully received [trying to smile]

I want to cry but I feel too defeated :(

Sorry for selfish post, I'll come back later and be more sociable

Thanks for all the support, sorry not been more social I've been knackered last 2 days, think I have bug and dh ill in bed already :(

Tigger sorry I mis-read, and now I'm doubly sorry she got you :(

Oh and orange MASSIVE good luck for your digital test tomorrow, have everything crossed for you matey x

My, the witch has been busily zooming round the country these last few days hasn't she!

Thanks for being so lovely everyone, I really appreciate the moral support - it has been one of the shitter days of this year..... Special shoutout to caribou, hope you and bump are doing well!

izz I'm glad the weather was good enough to let off your sky lanterns, hope you're ok. Maybe DH did remember but didn't want to say anything to set you off if you were being strong IYSWIM

tigger good luck for your appointment tomorrow x

loola sorry your cycles are being so mental - good work getting the referral. Fingers crossed it'll get sorted and a BFP will come your way soon.

mummybells at you being in the sun grrrrrrr hope DS feels better v. soon

mamac will gladly be your cycle buddy Thanks for having a chat with the stork for me!! It's nice to have you back, we missed you while you were on your lurker break!

Sorry if I missed anyone or messed up the list below, I've got a headache from eating half a giant toblerone..... Who was it that was detoxing next year - sign me up onto that list too!! (once I've finished munching my way through all the brie I bought today in rage that I'm not preg....)

TUESDAY'S LIST

Inbetweener TTC#3 Cycle 3 UCL 29 CD35 BFP!!
PrettyQuichey TTC#1,(round 7)Cycle 6 UCL 28-30 CD 59
Getawiggleon TTC#2, cycle 1, UCL26, CD59
Nickstermum TTC#2 cycle 2 post MC UCL 30-40 BFP!!!
GetDownYouWillFall TTC#2 Cycle 1 (post MC#1) UCL 27 - 44 CD54
RunForTheHills TTC#1, cycle 2 UCL28 CD50
Freezingmyarseoff TTC#2 cycle 6 UCL28 CD35
Orangetoenails TTC#1, cycle 1 (MC#2), UCL 35, CD35
Tamashii TTC#2, Cycle 1 (post MC), UCL 33-35, CD 34
AandRmum TTC3 cycle 2 UCL29 CD32 BFP!!
Hairytriangle TTC#1, cycle WTF (Post MC#2) UCL ?28, CD?28
Tigger15 TTC#2 cycle 21 UCL24-9 CD27
Choccybick TTC#1 (post mc1) cycle 5 UCL 27 CD25
DachshundsRule TTC#1 cycle 4 UCL28 CD23
IzzyWizzyletsgetbusy TTC#3 cycle 5 UCL26-30 CD20
Sunchild77 TTC#3 cycle 7, UCL 22-28, CD20
kat2504 TTC#1 cycle 3 UCL 30, CD19
Wombat33 TTC#1 Cycle 3 (post MC) UCL 31 CD18
LadyBee TTC#2, cycle 5 (round 3) UCL27 CD13
HidingInTheBackRow TTC1, cycle 2, UCL 26, CD10
Tunnocksteacake TTC #2, cycle 3, UCL30 CD9
youremindmeofthebabe TTC#2, Cycle 5 UCL33 CD8
knitterNotTwitter TTC#2, (round 3) cycle 5 UCL 25-30 CD8
Velvetcu TTC #1 Cycle 5 UCL 35, CD3
HongKongBaby#2, cycle 5 (post mc1), UCL 37, CD3
MamaPower TTC#1, cycle 5 (post MC#2) UCL 25- 27 CD28
Pinkfondantfancy TTC#1, cycle 5, UCL 28-35 CD1
Tigger15 TTC#2 cycle 22 UCL24-9 CD1
Loola2shu TTC#3 Cycle 4 UCL 40, CD1

WTTC

Sarahmia TTC#2, MC2
MummyAbroad TTC #2,(MMC#1 31 Mar, ERPC 7 Jul), Ashermans Op 16 Nov
Mousebacon TTC#2 MC#1 4th Oct WTF cycle BFP!!!
Barrenbrook TTC#1, MC#4 Oct 2010
Lemonsherbet TTC #1, ERPC 15 Oct 2010, WTF cycle
Batteryhen MC conf Oct 2010
Digitalgirl TTC#2, MC#3 Oct 2010
Nurse47 TTC#2, UCL28, WTF cycle ERPC 9 Nov
Emoo TTC#2, MC#1 18 Nov 2010, WTF cycle
Mamafoof TTC#2, MC#1 Nov 2010, WTF cycle

MIA
Jamface TTC#2 post MC#2), UCL 27
Shitforbrains
Sillyness TTC#1 post MC1 WTF cycle
Lottiecrump UCL 27/30
Cheepz TTC#2 (round 4) UCL30
BackOnceAgain TTC#3, MC 17th Aug

RECENT GRADUATES
BUnderthebonnet BFP 20 June
Muser BFP 22 June
northerngoldilocks - BFP 12 July
Magic8ballhastheanswers BFP 14 July
Hopefully BFP 22 July
IvySedai BFP 1 August
PenguinsMummy BFP 15th August
VivClicquot BFP 25 August
Loopymumsy BFP 29 August
CaribouMoo BFP 7 September
StarflowerGirl BFP 24 Sep
Appleblossoms BFP 9 Oct
Littlemiss72
Urbanlolly BFP 1 Nov

Donteatorangesnow were you referring to the bug or AF? If the latter you're prophetic as she got me later today. So
Tigger15 TTC#2 cycle 22 UCL24-9 CD1
here we go.

Oh well, appointment tomorrow.