We're taking the train...some now boarding, some delays, some still standing on the platform! TTC 'Waiters' IIT!

bebe I'll look after your DD - she looks very cute in your pics!

js hope you are feeling better after talking with your DH. I am always rubbish at talking to mine too, and I know it frustrates him although he tries to hide it!

strawberry yay for ttc after Xmas! I am veggie (no fish) and I don't plan to eat meat while pg. I try and eat relatively healthily with lots of protein, so I'll stick with that and see how things go.

sorry JS x-posted. Sorry to hear about your weekend, hope you do feel better after your heart to heart with DH ((((hug)))))

Haha bebe!

my DP said yesterday-

"lets go back to the original plan of TTC after Christmas"

I said "really?"

he said "yes, we would have 9 months to get things ready with the house and and save up"

"OK" I said

So off we go! Can I ask your opinion ladies? I am a fish eating vegetarian with no problems about people eating meat as long as it has not had any welfare issues etc. Should I consider eating some meat whilst pregnant to ensure enough protein and B vitamns etc? I know you can get the right nutrients via a totally vegetarian diet but it is much harder to do........so what do you think?

bebe - xpost. I'll have her for a few days!

Morning All!

(warning, long and vaguely self indulgent post coming up!!)

Hope that you have all had good weekends (obviously so as it's been very quiet on here!!) I had a complete shocker!! For some reason I had a complete meltdown on Friday night. I think it was a result of the crap 2 weeks at work, feeling ill, the total lack of sleep and the cancelled train home on Friday night but everything I had been trying to ignore crept up on me (well actually, it was more like it hit me with a sledgehammer!!) and I couldn't stop crying....... V embarassing when you are on a train!

I struggled to explain it to DH and so he got frustrated with me and it was a very miserable weekend.

We ended up talking about it all last night and I managed to explain to him that I was struggling. I told him that the TTC (or rather lack of it) thing was making me miserable and that when everything else is going well I can keep a handle on it and not think about it too much but that when everything else is going badly it all gets too much and All I can think about is starting a family.

I explained it to him as being like an ache inside of me. Like feeling permanently hungry (he is a man, he understands hunger!) and that when everything else in life is good, I can cope with the feeling of hunger and not think about it all the time. When things are bad, then it's impossible to think about anything else other than the hunger.

At the moment he is not ready to TTC and so we are focussing on improving my work situation so that I can cope with the unhappiness of not TTC. However he did say that he understood how unhappy it was making me and whilst he can't promise anything, we may be able to look at timings at some point. Which basically puts me back at the point where I have no idea when we will TTC but at least I know that October 2011 is the latest.

He did make the mistake of saying that if I did get pregnant now it wouldn't be a bad thing......... very silly thing to say to hormonal and broody woman who is in charge of the Persona monitor and about to enter her super fertile time. Will have to make sure I don't create an accident!

He also said that we should ditch the idea of a trip to Australia and focus on having time for us rather than traipsing across the world to see family and friends. I am kind of inclined to agree with him and so all plans to visit his Grandmother are on hold for the next year or so.

So a pretty emotional weekend but hopefully now I've talked to him about how unhappy I am (I am so useless at talking about things and it drives him insane!!!), we can start working on ways to improve it.

Hope that you all had significantly better weekends!

Mine read a bit of the article and then got bored and switched to facebook!

Ha, mine has just read that article.

Thought you all might be interested in our conversation:

Me: So do you think you feel ready to be a father?

DP: Yes. As ready as I'll ever be.

Me: Wow, what's brought about that change of heart?

DP: You banging on about it all the time?

So there we have it ladies, scientific proof that 'banging on about it' can actually lead to positive results!

The link didn't work!

www.guardian.co.uk/lifeandstyle/2010/oct/09/right-time-to-have-a-baby

Hi all! I just saw this article on the Guardian about men talking about different ages to have kids. There are lots of comments from men too - maybe some of your OHs would be interested?

www.guardian.co.uk/lifeandstyle/2010/oct/09/right-time-to-have-a-baby

Just a quickie from phone at work so can't reply to messages.

The dr was the nicest dr in the world and was almost as excited as me about it. Coz she was so nice I said I'd see her when I am pg. She seemed chuffed. Have to stop some but not all meds and she gave me flu jab and didn't seem worried about my weight. Yay.

Gettin ridiculously excited now.

Bebe your birthday is the day after mine!

At least with all this waiting everyone will be jealous of us still having our little babies to come when their DC are growing up!

Think I'm just fed up and unhappy and that is making me even more impatient. I think that if work and home life was good then i would be a lot better at dealing with this waiting but the job is making me miserable and I hate being in London and not at our "real home".

When DH and I 'agreed' to wait until June 2011 or even November 2011 (we'' he said to wait until then and I didn't really have much of a choice) there was a good chance of me getting another job. Now that there isn't anything on the horizon I am not sure I can wait.

I know that bringing it up again is going to irritate him. Particularly as he thinks that the issue is resolved and that we are waiting for a year. I think I am going to have to though as it's making me miserable.

Sorry to be such a downer on things on a Friday!!

bebe feel free not to answer questions if you don't want to. I know you were on meds for something, what was it? Did you have depression or PND? Last year I was really bad with depression but gradually came off the meds myself without seeing the Dr, I know it's the wrong way to go about it, but it happened naturally. There are days when I feel I still suffer from it and worry I will go back, and then the next day I am fine and dandy, my moods do go up and down, but I know what to look for and what to do, I think it's helped me realise a lot about my life and there are certain aspects of it that I am trying to change everyday. But I didn't want to be on meds or have them in my system when I knew we would be trying at some point, it's not the reason I came off them, but it is the reason I am keen to monitor things and not go back on them. I've waffled a bit there haven't I!!!

I don't know everyone's back stories so if I miss something when you talk about it then I am sorry. But you can also tell me to mind my own :o

Right I have to go get ready for the docs and then work. Catch you all after the weekend as I'm not sure how much chance I I will get to come on here.

I'll be 33 in December, obviously 1977 was a great year

No I must admit I don't like to think too much about the what ifs what if it doesn't work, what if is does and it goes wrong, what if this that and the other. I think the thing is to (quoting my OH) only worry about things you can do something about and not all the other stuff.

Decided to try singing "always look on the bright side of life" in my head now when I think gah it's not happening yet. It will happen, we will try, we will hopefully succeed, OH said ages ago if we didn't then there are other options available, I have a wonderful man who loves me unconditionally for who I am and takes all my flaws as they come, and he wants me to be the mother of his children and in time his wife. Now there is a lot to be happy about. Although I can't help the bloody hormones that hold me hostage I can think of the better things.

This post was sponsored by a positive moment, please be aware these moment may be few and far between and I am at liberty to go back to whinging at any time - because I am female and that's what I do :o

My heart goes out to the women on the other threads who have been ttc all this time. I can't even think what if that happens for me. The longer I leave it the more likely that is. Less than month now till my 33 birthday.

Thanks bebe, yeah I should be overjoyed he moved the date to November, instead I'm whittering on about the fact I'm still waiting, never bloody happy, that's my problem (this fact is not wholey true)