So near, yet so far! Holiday villa for those waiting TTC#1 having suffered mc

Fecking PCTs. This is one of the many reasons I stopped working for the NHS. Postcode lotteries are unfair and completely unethical.

GRRRRR.

Good that you are getting the pooches back today though; you must have missed them loads. And yes, all builders are this useless.

Hello BrownB :) I either a: drive or b: drink lime and soda which looks a bit like it might be booze.

I have a question for you all...

I miscarried my first over a year ago, and was off the booze for a good six months when we started ttc afterward. After this time, I thought "fuck it" and started drinking again. I now want to stop - it's really not helping my cause and I'm aware of that, but don't want my friends and colleagues to notice as I can't do with that sort of pressure. Any ideas on how to clutch a glass of wine and not drink it at social occasions? Especially given that I really like a nice glass of wine at social occasions..?

Hello to you all...

I've just fallen foul of the NHS age thing too. I created a whole link to have a moan about it, and even got my PCT to send me a link to the guidelines. What a slap in the face. dachs - I seriously hope you don't need it.

dachs that NHS rule change is absolutely ridiculous. Any way of challenging it and complaining. I hate all this postcode lotterly. But FX you won't need it and will have some better luck the good old fashioned way. Sorry about your bfn. It's very disheartening isn't it.

sorry I've been crap at posting lately everyone. Will try to be a bit better but might be a bit quiet for a few days.

Also, have just discovered that the rules in the area have changed, so previously I couldn't get IVF on the NHS as I was too young (they only gave it to people 36 or older), but now I wouldn't be able to get IVF on the NHS because I'm too old (they only give it to people under 35) and I'll be 35 in November.

Feeling quite grumpy.

Def won't be posting on Tuesday as we have a 'team day' at work, followed by dinner, so don't be surprised not to hear from me then.

Will dutifully POAS on Wednesday anyway, as per my instructions, but I've no hope now that it will be positive. I'll let you all know the outcome though.

owl the builders were much keener on knocking holes in the walls than actually fixing any of the doorways afterwards, so we are still doorless and heatless, and I am still dogless (although we are getting them back from kennels this morning)

Fed up with the dust and the lack of progress.

Are all builders this useless?

mama have been lurking rather than posting as I'm finding the 2WW very hard this time. I have (no fish please!) POAS yesterday and today and they were both negative. I know it's still a little early but they were 10 miu tests so should be showing by now. Feeling quite low.

Wombat too early for SWI - but will probably follow your lead (even if that isn't advisable!) Am pleased you are happy to selflessly eat my cake! Have just made a tea-bread for picnics on holiday :)

MamaP my PhD is in nineteenth-century poetry. Once it's done, I am retreating to the eighteenth century and staying there.

Will be away for nearly a week so will catch up with everyone's news then, have a good weekend xx

Aurora, I am prepared to very selflessly offer myself up for consumption of the products of your stress-relieving baking episodes. Chocolate cake will be devoured over here, anytime you like. But only for your own benefit you understand! Humph, 13 days post MC for testing or for SWI? I'm a bad influence and you shouldn't listen to me, but if it's the latter, we started SWI again 7 days afterwards

Owl I'm 31 and have size 5 1/2 feet, so I fail on both counts. Sorry about that. I've brought more booze though

Owlshoes sorry your comedy symptoms have gone. Here's to next month. One of my friends told me her best "symptom" was green poo...turned out to be the vitamin tablets...
I have never seen the "Pimp my Snack" website before - just had a look at it - it's brill! Am def going to attempt a giant jammy dodger at some point soon!!
Too early is only 13 days after MC started. Am being silly - suppose I ought to wait until I have had at least one period... I am a very impatient person, and for various reasons everything in my life seems to be on hold (trying to sell our house so we can move; waiting for a date for my father to have a triple heart bypass; waiting for my viva so I can finish my PhD...etc)and it's driving me NUTS (hence endless baking for stress relief!)

I am fully appreciating the volume of cake and booze this group provides, esp. delightful Vicky sponge mmmmmmmmmm.

I am planning on making a 'Pimp My Snack' sized object over the weekend - if you haven't looked at that website you really must, if only to see the foot long twix. Tis like a vision of heaven on earth (if you are a greedy chocolate-troughing bugger like me).

Hoorah for the more big feet! Okay; so is there anyone in here who is not 35/35 with massive shoes? Wombat33 I'm looking at you here based on your username. Ah and Velvet is a spring chicken too I seem to recall :)

How early is far too early, Aurora? If it's 5 days or less beforehand then surely it's worth a bash.

You will all be disappointed I'm sure to hear that my comedy eye twitch and dribbling have gone. Clearly I am not upduffed this month. Boo. People are no longer avoiding me in the corridors though which is a plus.

Where is Dachs ? I hope her house is still in one piece.

Have a fun weekend Aurora and thankks for the lovely cake. Ooh a glass of wine for me too please.

Group hugs for all. Also a Victoria Sponge with whipped cream (I like to bake). Dachs, I have nothing helpful to say, but am offering you cake and hoping you feel better soon.
Wombat, hope the SWI is fun and productive :)
owlshoes loving the comedy symptoms!
mamap def need more drinking. Mine's a merlot. I'll bring the cake...

Ok, off to OPK now to see if the weekend away (actually Friday - Wednesday) can involve some SWI... Even though I know it's far too early. Sigh.

PS I too have big feet, and will be 35 in December, so I feel I fit the general demographic here!

Also, check out my comedy symptoms:

1. Too much saliva
2. Twitchy eye
3. Random aches
4. Felt sicky this morning
5. Cried at Stevie Wonder song in the car

Of course none of these are to do with hideous amount of swimming pool water I swallowed last night whilst trying to Do Exercise.

Or indeed the total lack of sleep due to the aching from the exercise.

Or the slightly vintage paella I ate last night.

Or the fact I am getting PMT as normal.

The twitchy eye and the dribbling is particularly disturbing, especially for my work colleagues.

Velvet big congrats on the 10 year wedding anniversary, that fair warms the cockles, so it does

Hoorah for all the people with massive feet!

30 in November and it's our 10yr wedding anniversary too!

I had size 8 white sandels too but not til around 91 i dont think.

Keep positive Dachs - we all know its too early for symptoms and that stress doesnt do it any good either. I know how you feel about the age thing - I keep getting told I need to hurry up and have kids and thats by my 15yr old students!

Dachs lovely, there are a bunch of us about to hit the big 35 and I am absolutely adamant that we shall hit it with style and BFPs all round, oh yes. I know you're feeling shite about this and it is shite, and you've been through enough already without having to worry about age too.

BUT. Turning 35 does not mean that our ovaries instantly shrivel and our follicles crumble to dust despite what the newspapers like to tell us. Shedloads of women have babies in their mid/late thirties and forties and we will be among them.

Also, 'tis far too early for symptoms. Do not lose hope. I got no symptoms whatsoever until I was well overdue last time around. You might be the same.

MamaP Thankfully there are no sticks in the house and it's staying that way. And no, I am not tall. Damnit.

Nicks fab boots

Oh Dachs. Don't give up hope. You wouldn't necessarily (or even probably) have symptoms yet even if it has worked!!

hello people. feeling a bit miserable this evening - like it's never ever going to happen. Even madly symptom spotting I've got nothing. At all. Convinced this month's treatment has failed, and am reaching the milestone of 35 in two months and the closer it gets to that date the more depressed I'm feeling about ever being a mum.

I know it's daft, but I'm feeling like sobbing about the futility of all of it again, and I thought I was over that ages ago. Just feeling really really low.

Sorry to moan