PREGNANT MN CHILDMINDERS - come over here......

Mo - the nappy changes are done on the floor, yes, but not because of anything to do with Ofsted. I just can't think of anywhere else i can do them? I'd do them on the bed but that would mean carrying them upstairs and that's even worse iyswim.

I've been thinking about this asking a friend thing......my friend doesn't pass my door, she just passes the road off the main road that you use to get to my house. It would add about 10 mins to her journey each time by the time ds is in her car. Also, ds majorly stressed me out this morning and was being impossible to get ready on time. If my friend had been picking him up, I'd be really stressed about that as no way I'd want to hold her up. Not sure what to do

OO - if only. I do this in the afternoon at the pre-school but that's only because I park right outside the door and there is staff on the door watching out. I couldn't do this at ds's school as the car park is far too far away from the school and no one would be watching them. Anything could happen!! (I worry as I used to have a baby who was very sick quite a lot and I'd worry about them choking if I left them).

One thing I am doing today is giving toddler group a miss. The girls are a bit out of sorts atm anyway (both teething and yesterday would have been better just at home). Decided that I haven't felt well since waking up this morning and felt dizzy when got back from the school run so going to stay and have a chilled day in for a change

Sorry for delay, was so embarrassed I'd admitted I wasn't coping well, I didn't come back for a bit.

Thanks all for not making me feel like a whinging old bag! I'm feeling better already from just letting it all out, think I just needed to let it all out iykwim.

Dh isn't keen on having someone else doing the school run with ds regularly and I must admit I hate putting on people BUT he's now seen me in a state (blubbing at you all agreeing it's too much) and we've decided that there is one person I can ask to pick him up in the morning and POSSIBLY bring back after school as she drives past our house and her dd is joining his class after the 2 week break. So I'll see if she can help out for about 3 weeks, just doing 2 days a week.

Feel better about next 2 weeks as although all the babies are still coming every day, there are no school runs and only half the groups (2 of them not on in hols so will just go to the other 2 days) plus 1 mindee less as after schooler is term time only. After the school hols it's 3 weeks of being back to normal then the nearly 1 yr old is off for 2 weeks then it's half term again so week off, then it's my last week. What I think I'll do on those 3 weeks I do have the normal routine is miss the group in the middle of the week (most stressful for getting them in etc), all mindees still end up with groups during the week, just not every day. They are very happy at home and it's not like they are totally missing out full stop.

Now I've thought all that through, I'm feeling a lot better so thanks everyone IF my friend will take ds in the mornings (i HATE asking though), I can put the mindees down for a nap at 9am (well, definitely the one who needs it) instead of after school run about 9.30am. This will prevent the big rush I have to make sure we get enough time at group as atm, I put down about 9.20/9.30, they need to settle then sleep for about an hour, by the time I have them both down, nappy changed and ready for the car, we end up with only about 45 mins at group and it's all such a rush. This earlier nap time would make SUCH a difference

Now.....could just do with having a higher up place to change nappies and then everything is sorted

Off to make some dinner now, thanks again lovely people

Can I just come on here and moan? I'm sat here in tears wondering how the hell I'm going to get through the next 9+ weeks of work. I know we're all suffering so feel bad coming on here and moaning but I can't really moan to dh as he looks at me all blank as he hasn't got a clue! The groin pain I can tolerate now I've had work done on my pelvis but I'm feeling so so weak, lightheaded and now have swelling up to my knees and can feel it when I walk.

Sorry for the moan, just needed to vent!! Wed & Thurs are my worse days as I start earlier (that bit doesn't bother me so much) and it's lots more carrying (the other days I have new tiny baby so she's dead easy to carry). It's pick up 11 month old, put in car, pick up 13 month old (HEAVY!), put in car, park at school, get them out and in pram, walk ds to school. Get them back (ouot of breath pushing them!), lift both into car. Get home, nappy change for both, up the stairs twice with each one . About 45 mins later, get both up, possible nappy changes again, both dressed, shoes & coats on and both back in car. Both out of car and struggle to carry into group. Only there 45 mins - 1 hr due to naps (do snacks & bottle), back in car, out of car. Stuff off, rush to make lunch, lift into highchairs and give them lunch. Both chuck stuff on floor and tip cups upside down to see who can get the most water in highchair trays, do dessert, clean up, lift both out, change nappies (each change makes me feel sooo squished inside from bending), brace myself for picking them both up once in growbags and getting them back upstairs , one by one put them upstairs for nap, spend naptime trying to recover from lifting both upstairs + tidying up, spraying highchairs, picking food off floor, cleaning kitchen and making lunch. Scoff food then time to get them up again, nappy change x 2 then back in car for first school run....then 2nd school run. Get home, snacks for older ones, bottle for 13 month old then straight onto heating both 1 yr olds dinners. Spoonfeed both at same time, do dessert, clean up and rush to put ds's dinner on. Then once all gone, desperate to sit down but so much to clear up. Once that's done I do what I'm doing now, collapse in heap and wonder how on earth I'll get through tomorrow!!!

God, what a right old moan. I'm so so grateful for my little bubba and wouldn't change it for the world, just happy he's ok after all the scares at the beginning. It's just this job isn't agreeing with me right now

Now shoot me, I know full well I'm not the only one and I feel like I'm just wallowing right now, don't know what's wrong with me!!

Oh Ellie, I'm so so sorry I know what you're going through and it really is the pits. Sending you lots and lots of {{{hugs}}} and best of luck with the ERPC tomorrow. Will be thinking of you xxx

yes she is, appointment was at 9.30. I use same hospital and with my threatened miscarriage before xmas, I was there for 2 hours! I'm off to toddlers now but will check back when I get home xxx

Ellie....you are in my thoughts and I hope everything goes ok at the hospital, keeping everything crossed hun xxx {{{hugs}}}