We have a small family party tonight for one of DHs nephews birthdays. Just family tea/cake etc
I really don't want to go. It's not comparable but DH never and I mean never comes to my family events, it is a 2hr drive to mine though, this is about 20 minutes away. But I always take our two DC (3 &1) alone on round trips to my family events. DH even missed a family wedding of mine last year because our babysitter hurt herself and couldn't mind our DC even though I had found alternatives. He has barely ever came to mine even before DC.
Anyway I don't want to go. I am exhausted. I had a super tough therapy session today. I've posted on here before about my childhood trauma/ abuse/ abandonment/ neglect etc. My mother has been in rehab for the last month and is going home on Monday so I'm feeling very mixed.
I would love nothing more than to spend the few hours they are at the party alone on the couch. Maybe watch a movie. Maybe have a bath.
Not go and make small talk and pretend I am happy bubbly me that I usually am. I feel very flat, low, down, and tired. Being the good mummy to DC all day has been enough
WIBU to cancel? Send DH alone?