I've always been a tomboy and almost all my friends were lads. They'd accepted me into their group like I was one of them, and it was because of them my teenage years were the best in my life (I'm 22 now). They never failed to make me laugh and both my parents are autistic and whenever I open up to show any emotion other than 100% happiness they lose it and tell me to grow up or get on with it. This clique was always there for me, whenever I was crying they'd all come up to me and ask me "what's wrong?" and talk to me for ages to make sure I'm okay. They always made sure I was safe. It was them who talked me out of a huge depressive episode I had once and I won't forget that. It's because of them I've went out of my way to protect people just like they did to me
Now they've moved on in their lives. I feel happy for them but it's bittersweet too. They still dress the same but they've all left Facebook and I have no idea where they went so I feel sort of empty. I miss that sense of belonging and I miss those friends. I still dress like how they did because it feels so sentimental to me
I didn't really think anything of it until an old woman in a shop told me that I dress like a "gangster". Me and my friends were not like that, we were really friendly people but I can kind of see where she's coming from without context. The cap, the gold rings and bracelet, 110s, Hoodrich. Yeah I've seen videos of American gangsters dressing similarly. I just feel way more confident when I dress this way but I'm wondering if most people who saw me would get the wrong idea?