Hi. I think it’s because I always think people will change .
It is very, very rare for people to change.
He won't change.
I used to be horrible and send texts to him saying how he’s making me feel.
Stating to someone how you feel is not "being horrible" to them. Where did you learn that you have no right to tell people when they upset you?
But he will always make me feel bad saying all I do is put him down . But to me Im not . All I do I state what he does . I dont lie and add anything else in . Just what he does .
He can't take the truth about himself, so blames you for stating the truth.
He won't change - the first step is being truthful and he can't do it.
I loved him so much for so long .
Irrelevant. this may be news to you, but love is not enough. It is not even the main ingredient. Respect, honesty, caring - these are all far more important.
Love with him felt special .
That's just hormones. Being in love always feels special. Humans have hormones to make them "fall in love" otherwise no one would ever have babies.
he always goes on about Im going to cheat on him because I’m sad. Then he will throw it in my face that I said that which I did .
Nasty manipulative abusive behaviour.
He does not love you. He might say he does but it is not true.
He said all women are slags . That’s why they cheat they just want dick.
Is is a misogynist - which means that deep down he hates and despises all women. ALL women, including you.
So I said actually women dont cheat because they are slags and want dick women chest mostly because they are sad . Worst thing I could of ever said
Stop blaming yourself for "saying the wrong thing". He will always find something you said to get angry about or blame you for - because he is a nasty misogynist and he wants to get angry and blame women.
You can't win.
You can't change him.
It won't get better.
End it.