If you were told your life ended tomorrow

@LadyMacbethWasFierce I'm sorry to hear about your daughter.

For me, I feel like I am done. I did many things and I'm happy with that, I would only worry about how my young adult DC would cope. Otherwise, I'm fulfilled.

OP, I left a career I was done with at 34 and had a whole other career in the last 12 years. It's not too late.

I’d eat all the Christmas chocolate I’ve been holding off from !

I'm so sorry, @LadyMacbethWasFierce .

LadyMacbethWasFierce I'm so sorry to hear about your daughter.

I'd be very sad to leave, plenty of love in my life. Loved my rewarding job and did it for 34 years. 2 grown kids and my youngest still needs me.

@LadyMacbethWasFierce I do think when people suffer the kind of shock and grief that you describe, they keep going only for the other people (especially their children, grown-up or not) around them.
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Yes, to a large extent. I'm married to a wonderful man who I am deeply, profoundly in love with and we have had such happy years together. I have two children whom I adore more than could ever be expressed, and I have had such joy with them. I enjoy and am good at my job, I've helped others because of it, I have a loving family, I've travelled widely.

But my children are young, one is just a baby. The thought of not being there for their childhoods and them missing out on having their mum around would be devastating. I couldn't bear to leave them at this time.

@LadyMacbethWasFierce I’m so sorry for your loss. Incomprehensible and utterly devastating.

Fulfilled? Well, there’s stuff that I would have liked to have done, but haven’t. Happy? I’m very happy and content. I love my life. Would be devastated to leave my husband who is my best friend.

I guess so, but it wouldn't matter once I'd kicked the bucket.

@LadyMacbethWasFierce I'm so so sorry about your daughter x

@LadyMacbethWasFierceI am very sorry. I got a shock when I came to your news. Your shock must be unimaginable.
I’m so sorry.

I would not cry. I've felt I'm done for a long time now

I’d be raging to not see my ds grow up. But no regrets about anything.

I would be vexed about the things I didn't do (turning down a chance to study in Ireland, not asking that particular person out) - I don't particularly like my job, but have tried to be a kind boss and have done things which have made a difference to the community, so don't think I have wasted my time.

I have been loved greatly and loved greatly in return by grandparents, parents, a husband (my only serious partner), 3 children and some good friends.

I have had a fulfilling and interesting career that has provided a degree of financial security and the ability to do some fun stuff.

I had enjoyed my life immensely and done some good along the way (a rewarding, socially useful job and a long term commitment to volunteering).

Until 7 weeks ago I lived a fulfilling and maybe even enviable life. Then my DD1 died, aged 24, entirely unexpectedly. I am demented with grief and death tomorrow would be welcome. Every day I spend on this earth henceforth is a day that will further diminish my fulfillment. I would like to think I might be reunited with DD after death. But oblivion would be preferable to this torment. The only thing that keeps me from taking my life is the presence of my other children for whom such an act would be devastating.

No, but I don’t know how to change that! I have to work and make tea every single day and that’s all there seems to be in this life.

I would be very relieved too.

I would resent having spent the last few months in full time work, when if I'd known my time would be up tomorrow, I would have quit, lived off my savings and done my best to complete a few things that I mean to complete before I die in the short time I had left.

Ha! @mellongooseyou must have been writing your post as I was writing mine - giving the lie to what I said. I wish I felt the way you do. I try hard to bury the feelings I have ..

I think I'd actually feel relieved

I would feel guilt and worry that I wasn’t going to be there to advocate for my children. But for myself, I am tired and would love to just go to sleep.

A lot of us on this thread feel the same way - I wonder whether the people who have clicked on it aren’t phased by bowing out? And those who fear death have scrolled on.

How do you feel, OP?

I’ve enjoyed my life so far and think I’ve been a good person and done some amazing things. I have DD who I want to be there for (she’s only 11) and a DH who would struggle to raise her by himself although he would do better than he thinks.

At the end of the day, I just love being alive. Even when it’s hard and I’m struggling I am amazed by life itself. I cannot imagine not being alive. I don’t want to not live.

On Christmas eve id be pissed off at least wait until I've got my Christmas presents

I've had an incredible life. And I know more good things will come. But if it really were to end tomorrow, it would be a relief right now.

I'd enjoy eating a lot of crap for my last 24 hours!

But yes, I'd go quietly...