Page 15 | To have to do an ‘Emma Thompson’ this Christmas?

Changes26 · 2025-12-23T19:13:06+00:00

We all know the scene from ‘Love Actually’. AIBU to think I’m not the only one who is doing an Emma Thompson this Christmas? I.e. putting a brave face on whilst everything else crumbles around you? You can share why you’re Emma Thompsoning your way through the festive period or just give a knowing nod whilst you scream inside. Me? I’ve split up with my partner as I’ve realised it’s a toxic relationship after an incident last week. I’ve told no one and he’s back home after 4 night away. I am just smiling through it all so our daughter doesn’t have a shit Christmas and more difficult memories to work through in future therapy. Separation, divorce, grief, bereavement, complicated family, homelessness or financial ruin? Here’s to getting through the next few days and a brighter 2026!

Sorrynotsorry2 · 23/12/2025 22:15

We lost my DFIL suddenly and unexpectedly. I registered his death yesterday and have planned his funeral today.

Tillymint1234 · 23/12/2025 22:13

FacingTheEnd · 23/12/2025 21:52

Not quite the same but I've completely fucked up at work, like life ending (as in mine, I haven't harmed anyone else) I have to own up when we go back in January. It will be the end of my marriage, my kids will never see me the same and at best I'm going to walk away with nothing.

I've just got this last Christmas as a family before our world implodes and it is all my fault.

I am so sorry . Take heart , people make mistakes and do things that are out of character . It will pass . Things end up working out one way or another in the end .

KnittedMam · 23/12/2025 22:12

my wonderful dad died suddenly in August, I’ve finally got to the point in my marriage where I know I need to leave (secretly known this for ages but now just can’t take anymore), and I’m about to lose my job if I don’t quit first - massively struggled coming back from mat leave, made some mistakes (eventually diagnosed with ADHD) and had a breakdown. I have a 3 yr old and about to upturn her life in the new year.

lifeonmars100 · 23/12/2025 22:10

AgentBalls · 23/12/2025 21:19

God, my problem seems so silly compared to the heartbreaking circumstances on this thread. Sending love to each and every one of you💐

Mine, is that it’s another year single. I would love children and a family of my own one day. But feel at 32, time is running out. I’m the only one in my friendship group who is single and has no kids. I’ll be seeing my parents, siblings and SIL’s, aunts, and my lovely elderly grandparents on Christmas Day. So I’m very very lucky. But somehow, still feel so incredibly isolated, lonely and unloveable.

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It is not silly to feel that the things you are going through are trivial. Your feelings are as valid and real. When life doesn't seem to be working out as we had hoped it hits hard especially at this time of year. 32 is young and it sounds as if you are surrounded by love so hopefully love in its other forms will come your way, Wishing you every good thing

thesecondmrsdewinter20 · 23/12/2025 22:09

AgentBalls · 23/12/2025 21:19

God, my problem seems so silly compared to the heartbreaking circumstances on this thread. Sending love to each and every one of you💐

Mine, is that it’s another year single. I would love children and a family of my own one day. But feel at 32, time is running out. I’m the only one in my friendship group who is single and has no kids. I’ll be seeing my parents, siblings and SIL’s, aunts, and my lovely elderly grandparents on Christmas Day. So I’m very very lucky. But somehow, still feel so incredibly isolated, lonely and unloveable.

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I met my now fiance at 32. You’re still so young! There is time ♥️

sending love to everyone on this thread x

R459 · 23/12/2025 22:08

Similar situation here, my partner left 2 weeks ago, came back but is constantly telling me he wants to leave again. I’m trying to put on a brave face for the kids for Christmas but im struggling.

R459 · 23/12/2025 22:08

Similar situation here, my partner left 2 weeks ago, came back but is constantly telling me he wants to leave again. I’m trying to put on a brave face for the kids for Christmas but im struggling.

HildegardP · 23/12/2025 22:07

Endeavour1971 · 23/12/2025 20:08

Divorce and losing my 33 year old son to suicide this year.
Drinking Baileys and watching 80s Xmas hits on TV hoping I'll feel better.
I dont 😥

Oh, Endeavour, my heart. Baileys, snowballs, a mountain of pigs in blankets -whatever gets you through.
Please accept awkward ASD hugs.

treesandsun · 23/12/2025 22:05

tanstaafl · 23/12/2025 19:46

I’m sure ET would prefer you to use her characters name.

I really think you're missing the point of the thread Anyway, What makes you so sure? ET had a ET moments herself when she had to carry on producing a film following finding out that Kenneth Branagh had been cheating on her

ChocolateCinderToffee · 23/12/2025 22:05

A lovely friend died yesterday and the first week of January will be the anniversary of two more. Have just been let down by a friend and upset about that but it's more a final straw. Keep wandering around grizzling and I know my problems are slight compared with what a lot of people have posted on here, but I really don't have anyone I can talk to about them.

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Changes26 · 23/12/2025 22:04

lifeonmars100 · 23/12/2025 21:44

So many heartbreaking stories on here and so many awe inspiring women who somehow find the strength to put one foot in front of another literally and metaphorically. My heart goes out to anyone who is feeling low and out of kilter at this "merry and bright" time of year. The darkness, the emphasis on togetherness can make feelings of loss, isolation, fear or just feeling less than connected to how we are told we should be living and feeling much more intense. Virtual big mugs of hot tea to all (or whatever drink comforts you) and hugs too

So beautifully put.

I always try and remind myself that in the darkest of times, there’s always a glimmer of light that leads you on.

Sending glimmers of light to you all. It’s so sad to read these stories but I’m glad it’s a place to share collective loss, grief and hardship. I hope it can bring a moment’s relief for anyone going through it at the moment. It has certainly made me feel less alone during a very dark time.

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babbi · 23/12/2025 22:04

AgentBalls · 23/12/2025 21:19

God, my problem seems so silly compared to the heartbreaking circumstances on this thread. Sending love to each and every one of you💐

Mine, is that it’s another year single. I would love children and a family of my own one day. But feel at 32, time is running out. I’m the only one in my friendship group who is single and has no kids. I’ll be seeing my parents, siblings and SIL’s, aunts, and my lovely elderly grandparents on Christmas Day. So I’m very very lucky. But somehow, still feel so incredibly isolated, lonely and unloveable.

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@AgentBalls
met my ( now ex ) DH ,,at 33 had my DD ( the absolute JOY of my life ) at 37 .. so you never know ..and I wish you well .
Im eternally single now though which hurts so I do understand but please don’t give up hope

Mistletoemiss · 23/12/2025 22:02

bobbadee · 23/12/2025 20:40

18 months ago I got told my cancer had returned, it had spread, and I had 18 months to live.

I’ve fallen out with my DH this year. We’ve spent hours talking and crying. It’s not going well.
my 2 young children don’t know anything is wrong.

once again, I’ll be plastering on a smile and making the most of every minute with my children. I look at them and my heart shatters with grief for them.

im sorry the women here are having their own troubles. One problem doesn’t trump another.

You are all seen. merry Christmas to you all.

I’m so sorry to read this. You sound like an amazing Mother and my heart breaks for you and your beautiful children. I hope you reach a resolution with your DH 💐

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Changes26 · 23/12/2025 22:01

@Wishingforwhatshouldhavebeen sending you so much love xx

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Changes26 · 23/12/2025 21:59

@FlorenceAndTheSewingMachine Sending you so much strength and love to you and your son xx

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Tillymint1234 · 23/12/2025 21:57

Stuckinthepaststill · 23/12/2025 20:33

Am massively in debt, just had a row with DH because he always puts his needs above mine, and am feeling really lonely. It’s not as awful a story as many on here, so will try to get over myself — but sending love to you all. Xx

Its not nothing , debt is very stressful .hope things get better for you in the New Year x

Mistletoemiss · 23/12/2025 21:54

daffodilandtulip · 23/12/2025 21:01

My mum died in Oct. She hated me, now I'll never hear otherwise.
Single parent to old teens with their own life worries and study stresses.
It's a lot to carry alone.

Sending hugs. I’d bet my house you’re lovely IRL. Sometimes some of us don’t get allocated the Mothers we deserve. Mine had Narcissistic Personality Disorder (not that she would’ve recognised it) and I feel absolute relief now she’s dead and so is the inevitable drama. She was single-handedly responsible for all of my shittiest Christmas’s and in the main tried to ruin the others she wasn’t even at/invited to. That said, having her as my mother has made me the woman I am today - I am successful and I am a great mother myself (I literally just think “what would my mother do in this situation?” And do the reverse) and her cruelty did not break me. Someone said on the radio yesterday ‘Success is having children that want to spend time with you’ which is lovely. I have that. My mother didn’t. I bet you do/will. Don’t waste time over the fact your mother won’t ever say sorry to you. Believe in yourself. You are good enough. 💐

To everyone else on this thread, sending solidarity. And 💐. And raising a glass to those of us who lift each other up when things are tough. 🍷

Marmite27 · 23/12/2025 21:53

MIL died last week, DH has pneumonia, the car battery died and the washer went on the blink.

After some antibiotics DH is feeling physically better, a new battery sorted the car and BIL gave the washer a stern talking to (and probably a good kicking if I’m honest) any it lurched back to life.

Thank fuck the car passed its MOT yesterday or I’d have gone off the deep end.

The kids are oblivious to all, except the odd bout of grief.

babbi · 23/12/2025 21:52

bobbadee · 23/12/2025 20:40

18 months ago I got told my cancer had returned, it had spread, and I had 18 months to live.

I’ve fallen out with my DH this year. We’ve spent hours talking and crying. It’s not going well.
my 2 young children don’t know anything is wrong.

once again, I’ll be plastering on a smile and making the most of every minute with my children. I look at them and my heart shatters with grief for them.

im sorry the women here are having their own troubles. One problem doesn’t trump another.

You are all seen. merry Christmas to you all.

God bless you , sending you my very best wishes x

LemograssLollipop · 23/12/2025 21:52

Nothing like on the scale of what others are enduring but I'm so sad. I lost my job a few months ago and DH and I are so far apart we are less than housemates at this point. We've separated before and I think we will again next year. Things are not improving. I have no one close who I feel cares about me. My rage is coming out at my poor beautiful children and my relationship with my DD is really suffering. I think at this point everyone would be better if I just left this house.

FacingTheEnd · 23/12/2025 21:52

Not quite the same but I've completely fucked up at work, like life ending (as in mine, I haven't harmed anyone else) I have to own up when we go back in January. It will be the end of my marriage, my kids will never see me the same and at best I'm going to walk away with nothing.

I've just got this last Christmas as a family before our world implodes and it is all my fault.

heartsinvisiblefury · 23/12/2025 21:50

tanstaafl · 23/12/2025 19:46

I’m sure ET would prefer you to use her characters name.

And I’m sure if you’d have thought about how ridiculous your post sounds you may well have decided not to be so lacking in compassion and empathy and decided against actually pressing send.

FlorencenotRatchet · 23/12/2025 21:49

Last year my life imploded when I discovered the most horrific secret. I’m now living in an alternate reality where I look like I’m living my life but inside I feel hollow and there is no joy in anything I do.

EmeraldDreams73 · 23/12/2025 21:49

What a moving thread. I am so sorry for everything you are all going through.💔
You are heard, and so you should be. It's a particularly brutal time of year for anyone suffering. 💐💐💐

silverwrath · 23/12/2025 21:49

tanstaafl · 23/12/2025 19:46

I’m sure ET would prefer you to use her characters name.

Jfc you're cold.