I'm just a bit pissed off really.
I dont get political, I dont get involved with things above my grade, I do as I'm told. Sometimes I'll say "that's not the best way of doing x. Why not try this" but most of the time I'm told "no" so I just nod with most things now.
Last week, everyone had gone home apart from a newbie and me. The newbie was stuck on a peice of work so I suggested I different way of doing it. Most people do it that way so it was correct. All fine I thought. No big deal.
Their manager sent me an email the next day telling me not to interfere or undermine her again. Obviously she cc'd in all the senior managers and the rest of the team. Most of my team rolled their eyes and reminded me that she isnt a nice person and is on a power trip.
This is the latest in a series of of telling offs (from her in particular). I honestly dont know what Ive done wrong most of the time. I dont think Im overstepping or not "being corporate". It really is coming from the right place.
Anyway, next time I'm just going to say "sorry, I cant help" (I really mean that). I'm going to not have an opinion on anything. OK, I will but I'll keep it to myself.
I told a colleague that I trusted and she went straight to my manager who then expressed her "disappointment". I now know not to trust that colleague. In fairness I think he was trying to help by telling her I was upset bit still.
Just wholely pissed off about everything. I'm just going to become a yes man.
It's sad because up until maybe 6 months ago, I really liked this job.