Hi all. I’ve posted here before under different usernames about my childhood and my upbringing and got a lot of good advice, thank you all for that. I’ve recently learned something else that may or may not be true, but is significant and I honestly don’t know what to do with this information.
Im going to try and ‘nutshell’ this -
my mum was very young when she had me. She told me very often that she deliberately got pregnant with me so my dad would marry her and she could move out. Religious family background (her, not me) abortion was never an option, if you got pregnant you married the father and that was that. I was told, often, that my mum got pregnant intentionally so that my dad would marry her and she could leave her childhood home. That childhood home consisted of a lot of sexual abuse from her father, he regularly raped her and some of her siblings (not all of them)
Ive recently learned from an older relative that apparently my mum was already pregnant by her own father at the time and he made her marry my dad to cover his own tracks.
I’m at a complete loss tbh. I don’t know what to think, how to feel and I can’t stop throwing up.