Not completely sure where to post this but need some advice because I really don't know what to do.
I have bipolar - it was very well managed until August of this year, and then out of the blue my meds stopped working as effectively, so far it's been nothing to crazy, some slight elevated mood and some low mood but not suicidally low. I've had my meds reviewed and they've changed them a little. It's to early to know if they working but it's a start.
Now the issue - over the last 2 weeks I've started having panic attacks - this is something I'm working with my team around. But work is a major trigger point, I actually work in the mental health field now and I'm finding it really difficult to manage my anxiety while talking about suicide and hard topics like that with clients - I'm fine in front of clients and manage to just about hold it together - but as soon as they leave I'm a mess.
Work aren't being the most supportive - I've said several times that I'm really stressed but not alot has been done, they're also aware of the panic attacks and med changes. We are insanely busy right now - and it's all hands on deck.
3 weeks ago my GP suggested I get signed off for a week or 2, and at the time I thought I could push through so turned this down, he mentioned again last week and then again today strongly suggested that I need to look at giving myself a chance to just stop and try and regulate more.
But at what point do you accept that being signed off is for the best? I feel like I can't see the wood for the trees anymore and I really don't know what I'm meant to do