Hi!
I suppose I’m just looking for a bit of advice and support! My ex ended our relationship in July last year, and so I moved out of his home and moved in with a friend. I thought I would marry this man and I was absolutely heartbroken, but I picked myself up and began to be okay again, and I am due to move into my own place by myself in a few weeks time. I should mention that this was the second time he ended our relationship - he also broke up with me in 2022 which was a 6 month split, in which I also moved out of the home.
My ex blocked me after we split, but sporadically over the last several months he would reach out and we would chat a little bit. A couple of weeks ago he told me that he’s still in love with me, that I’m the one, and that he wants to go for a drink and a chat and see if we can work things out. We had some big, open conversations where ultimately I told him that while I still love him and miss him, I can’t go back to him. The time to work things out was before he left me and flipped my world on its head. I was so desperate to work things out at the time, and he wouldn’t talk to me.
Anyway, all of a sudden it has hit me tonight! I feel so bad for saying no to going out for a drink, I feel so bad for hurting him by not wanting to be with him. But at the same time, I do really miss him and love him and I’m wondering if I’m making a mistake by not seeing if we could try again?
Am I crazy here? It’s the guilt that’s hurting me the most, but should I feel guilty when he’s the one who left me?
(I feel like I sound crazy)