This is what it feels like, anyway. I’ve got rock bottom self-esteem so I don’t really trust myself anymore.
I’ve just started a short (6 months ish) college course. Just trying to build my confidence a bit, really. It involves a lot of small group work and this woman just looks at me like I’m stuck to her shoe the whole time. She talks over me, and if I get a word in she seems to feel compelled to argue with or one-up me; I could say grass is green and she’d argue. She is very nitpicky and critical of everything I do.
I feel like I could live with it if I knew she was like it with everyone, but if anything she seems to really suck up to the others.
It’s the second week of the course and I’m sitting here biting my nails about class tomorrow, going over everything I’ve said to her, wondering if I could have inadvertently said or done something to antagonise her, but I’m coming up with nothing.
I KNOW this is an overreaction, but it’s left me wanting to quit. I just could have done with this being a confidence boost and something I could look forward to, but instead it’s now yet another thing to dread. There’s nothing I can do about it, really; it’s not an ‘ask to be moved’ sort of situation. Maybe this is less an AIBU (I think I probably am!) and more a ‘have you experienced this and how did you handle it?’.
I feel so sad about it. I just needed something to work out for once.