I tried to go to a girls run club tonight because I want to make friends and socialise. But I’m so socially awkward I may as well have not bothered.
I got there (everyone meets outside a cafe) and everyone is already in little clicks chatting away of course but I am not the type of person who feels comfortable approaching a group of girls I don’t know because I just feel annoying and they’re already having conversations.
Anyway everyone does a stretch and then we set out for a 5k jog. I stay with a group of 3 girls so I don’t run on my own in the dark, and they’re chatting away about things and I just don’t have the confidence to butt in. Anyway we get to a traffic light and I’m slightly behind and they run quick to avoid a car and I wait at the lights. So I run about 1.5k on my own in the dark (they told everyone to make sure no one is alone).
I’m now at home just thinking about what a loser I am and how I can’t make friends, and how nice it would be to be in one of these groups. If I just socialised like normal I wouldn’t have ran on my own. I’m just so mute and annoying :(