Page 6 | to ask you to tell us something you’d never admit IRL Thread 2

GooseAndSandals · 2025-09-17T22:24:47+00:00

Continuation of previous thread.

Downplayit · 20/09/2025 23:22

That i judge everyone, everywhere all of the time. Mainly weight and success - it says more about me than them seeing as I'm not exactly young and thin. I feel like people can see my judgyness from a mile off even when I try to hide it. Its just become a habit but I hate myself for it.

BrisPerm · 20/09/2025 23:12

I developed a crush on a guy in a band when I was 14. It never went away and now 30 years later I have built up a parallel universe in my head where we’re together. Things aren’t good at the minute, we’re not talking but I dare say we’ll kiss and make up 🙄😂

AmberFrost · 20/09/2025 23:07

Bogeyes · 20/09/2025 22:36

AP?

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Affair Partner

BrisPerm · 20/09/2025 23:01

I have a friend who is lovely but my god she goes on and on about boring shit. For example she’ll tell me every detail about an episode of a series I don’t even watch and have no interest in - so I often interrupt with weird and random questions - example she’ll be mid way through telling me about Dave having an affair with Sophie’s school teacher on some shitty tv program and I’ll randomly ask her if she’s ever fancied watching a live autopsy. Her sudden confusion amuses me.

Bogeyes · 20/09/2025 22:36

Mynameissomething · 19/09/2025 16:32

Yesterday at 7.30am I discovered my long term AP had died suddenly

Thought he was messing about not getting my usual morning texts so checked his FB

I still can’t believe it and can’t speak about it to anybody

AP?

Justastupidgirl · 20/09/2025 22:28

I really thought he'd leave his wife for me. I feel so stupid, heartbroken and unlovable.

Goodideaornot · 20/09/2025 22:25

sashh · 20/09/2025 08:04

I wish I had never been born.

I didn't feel anything when my mum died.

Once my dad passes away I will kill myself.

Oh no, I’m so sorry 😢

Goodideaornot · 20/09/2025 22:23

Mynameissomething · 19/09/2025 16:32

Yesterday at 7.30am I discovered my long term AP had died suddenly

Thought he was messing about not getting my usual morning texts so checked his FB

I still can’t believe it and can’t speak about it to anybody

Oh shit. I’m sorry for your loss

Goodideaornot · 20/09/2025 22:19

TempName444567 · 18/09/2025 08:59

I told everyone I gave up drinking because I just went off it.

What really happened was, one evening during the Xmas holidays I drank too much vodka too quickly so became very, very drunk. I was going to be sick so got up to go to the toilet but staggered and fell over onto the TV. Managed to make it to the toilet where I was sick and also filled my pants with diarrhoea. I remember sitting on the toilet shitting myself and throwing up into my cupped hands and onto the floor, thinking I was going to pass out and die.
I must have had a shower and gone to bed.
It was fucking terrifying.
I live alone so nobody will ever know the truth.

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Well done you for giving up. That’s brilliant . Keep looking after yourself

AmberFrost · 20/09/2025 22:10

TempName444567 · 18/09/2025 08:59

I told everyone I gave up drinking because I just went off it.

What really happened was, one evening during the Xmas holidays I drank too much vodka too quickly so became very, very drunk. I was going to be sick so got up to go to the toilet but staggered and fell over onto the TV. Managed to make it to the toilet where I was sick and also filled my pants with diarrhoea. I remember sitting on the toilet shitting myself and throwing up into my cupped hands and onto the floor, thinking I was going to pass out and die.
I must have had a shower and gone to bed.
It was fucking terrifying.
I live alone so nobody will ever know the truth.

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I did something similar , and I have no memory of it . Felt so ashamed . It scared me . I still drink but in moderation. Two glasses of wine and thats it .

AmberFrost · 20/09/2025 22:05

OneCrabbyPattyPlease · 18/09/2025 00:32

That I am happy with my life on benefits.

I am disabled, and every attempt to work has left me facing a series of capability hearings, strings of meetings about reasonable adjustments that get nowhere, targets that seem to be unachievable and designed to catch you out if you're disabled, dealing with shithead customers or uncooperative departments, or fucking obnoxious colleagues that seem to get away with doing fuck all and acting like the class clown and avoiding disciplinary action by charming the pants off (sometimes literally) the management while I gave 110% of my effort and time to end up underperforming anyway. It left me feeling so depressed that I wanted to do a backflip off a motorway bridge. I'd even planned go get a full Toby carvery and a plate full of Yorkshire puddings first.

People tell me working gives your life purpose and it's proven to aid depression recovery but I've never felt more free or happy.

Can't say that to anybody though otherwise I'd get the whole "I'm not paying my taxes so you can be happy" bollocks.

I don’t blame you . I stopped working at 60
because I was made redundant and we can manage on my husbands wage and I’ve never been happier. I’m spending time with my GC and it helps because my DS and DIL don’t have to struggle to pay for childcare. I’m much much happier because I don’t have to deal with workplace politics anymore. I’ve hated work . I did 45 years and I’ve done enough.

AmberFrost · 20/09/2025 21:54

PollyValente · 18/09/2025 00:31

I am not loved, and it's me. I'm just not lovable.

I'm quite useful, though, so that's something.

Neither am I . I’m a marmite . If people don’t like me without getting to know me then they can fuck off and do one and if they treat me like shit they get ghosted . I rely on no one . In fact a lot of smiley bubbly people are self centered underneath and put them selves first . Just my observation.

Mynameissomething · 20/09/2025 12:56

designateddriverforfun · 20/09/2025 00:35

Oh wow
is there someone you can talk to about this in RL ?

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Not really and I don’t even know what happened to him

MNHQ

ImaniMumsnet · 20/09/2025 11:37

Hi @sashh
We're just bobbing on here to say that we're so sorry to hear you feel this way.
We hope you don't mind, but when these posts are flagged to us we like to link to our web-guides, which we hope may be helpful. If you'd like to, please do feel free to take a look at our Mental Health page.
Very best wishes from all at MNHQ

AliceMaforethought · 20/09/2025 08:50

piaofsicily · 19/09/2025 20:19

My 3rd child is a girl after 2 boys. It wasn't luck alone! Nobody will ever know exactly how far I went to ensure I had a girl.
I do not regret anything.

Nor should you. Nobody should feel guilty about wanting the family they want.

GoldWhiteandBlue · 20/09/2025 08:13

I married my ex as I felt sorry for him. Hes an utter twat and I cringe when I think I've been with him.

Im getting on now but when I was young i was stunning. I didn't know how good looking I was.

Im married to a lovely man with money and people are jealous of me.

sashh · 20/09/2025 08:04

I wish I had never been born.

I didn't feel anything when my mum died.

Once my dad passes away I will kill myself.

HumphreyCushionintheHouse · 20/09/2025 06:23

DervlaGlass · 20/09/2025 03:37

I'm guessing sex selective termination?

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I wondered if they’d used something like Microsort. www.microsort.com

Notagoodthing · 20/09/2025 03:53

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DervlaGlass · 20/09/2025 03:43

Mine is that I don't really believe anyone likes the human experience but we all feel compelled to pretend so we don't upset the people we love.

I prefer the pretence.

DervlaGlass · 20/09/2025 03:37

Ooopsyididit · 20/09/2025 03:19

How did you do it?!

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I'm guessing sex selective termination?

Ooopsyididit · 20/09/2025 03:19

piaofsicily · 19/09/2025 20:19

My 3rd child is a girl after 2 boys. It wasn't luck alone! Nobody will ever know exactly how far I went to ensure I had a girl.
I do not regret anything.

How did you do it?!

SeenAtHarrods · 20/09/2025 02:09

I am capable of way, way more than I achieve. To the point that I’m ashamed of how many opportunities I’ve missed.

I can’t tell anyone in real life because they’d either mock but me or give me a long list diet J shouldn’t v it.

MischievousBiscuits · 20/09/2025 01:30

I'm a cheerful happy person and very feminine but I absolutely love true crime and dark content like about murders, mysteries, strange camera footage, the paranormal, etc. When I relax it's my go to.

PocketBattleship · 20/09/2025 01:06

Belladog1 · 19/09/2025 13:41

I really love a good world disaster. I get totally hooked on reading everything there is about it. Tsunami, earthquakes ........ I'm in.

Fist bump @Belladog1
It's plane crash footage for me. 9/11 was simultaneously horrifying and fascinating and I will never tire of watching it.