aibu to despair— life is hopeless

Sorry I missed your post grad qualification was teaching rather than a masters.

I live in north Scotland where getting seasonal workers is extremely hard. Many places offer live in because it's hard to get accommodation or to travel. Lots of hotels, caravan parks, fruit picking etc.

Or private schools require many levels of staff and working in a school environment would help you in future applications even if it isn't a teaching post.
Something like this for example. Free accommodation and earn £13k https://uk.indeed.com/m/viewjob?jk=bc9d63bca5ddd0a3&from=serp&mclk=default&xpse=SoCr67I3wzdxo-gx4j0LbzkdCdPP&xfps=7f632021-863c-42be-8c91-db6c5e85e6b0&xkcb=SoD_67M3wzd30b23VB0GbzkdCdPP

You may also want to consider where you move in terms of future affordability. Where I live you could buy a two bed flat in a nice village or small town for 80k. That's achievable as a secure home even on a single salary.

Hopefully you can get something that gets you out and allows you to save something so your choices are less limited but I don't underestimate how hard it is with nothing behind you.

Have you considered applying for a PhD with a stipend? Competitive but you've shown what you can achieve.

Get away and try and build a life wherever you go to.

It might be worth including your circumstances in your application. Widening access is mostly focused on undergrad but it's still a big part of the overall agenda for universities.

My heart goes out to you. So impressed with all you have done to set yourself up in these circumstances. What about a set up where you live with an elderly person and provide some care in exchange for your bed and board: https://www.shareandcare.co.uk/homeowners-homeshare/#

If you’re comfortable sharing your location (roughly) you might find Mumsnetters locally who can refer you to things near youX

@Iwanttoliveonamountain

She also has no supportive family, stable home base and presumably little or no money to get herself started.
I'm not sure many really would envy her

You are a young woman with a degree and no dependents.

There are many who would envy you.

Dont reject Teaching supply work. It will give you a glimpse into the many different education set-ups -its amazing how different schools can be. I worked in lots of different schools and learnt a lot then one day, after a month in a school, I was offered a permanent job there. I do not think I would ever have got it if I had gone to an interview.

@SaraCreweIRL

At the moment you are tired to the bone, emotionally and physically. You have been doing your best to protect your siblings whilst doing your degree.
You really are an amazing person, I hope one day you can realise that.

I wonder if Womens Aid could give you some advice about somewhere to live and benefits you can access? You have been abused and you need some support.
I agree with suggestions about looking abroad and teaching English. My God daughter went to Madrid to teach English for a year. There are lots of opportunities.

Im an adoptive parent and have lots of friends with young adult children who have overcome very difficult backgrounds.
At the moment your exhaustion is speaking most loudly to you. But honestly it's not hopeless. You have great qualifications and amazing resilience. You have been and are still an incredibly strong person. Your siblings are safe, it's your turn now.
Best of luck to you

What level and subject for teaching?
im always seeing recruitment drives for teaching so surely there must be jobs?

Could you go and be an au pair/ nanny for the summer? There must be people desperate for child care who’s snap up teacher . It’s not a long term plan but it gets you through the summer away from home.

So well done, very impressed at what you've achieved so far, and it's only the beginning. Neighbours son moved to New Zealand to teach 2 years ago, after a homesick few weeks he is absolutely loving it. You might look at international schools in Europe if you don't want to go so far.
You will get a job, and in time, the job you want. Supply meanwhile will be useful for references and experience.
No one with as much gumption as you have shown is going to do anything but succeed.

Have you thought about independent/private schools? They are often looking for live in staff to look after boarding pupils out of school hours. May be a problem in the holidays but might be worth pursuing. Good luck with whatever ever you decide, but you do need to move on.

You sound amazingly resilient but I can understand why you're at the end of your tether. You will be fine - just hang in there. One foot in front of the other.

Definity try international schools. You can now do your NQT year abroad. ECT Induction - Council of British International Schools. International schools often provide accommodation and help with moving overseas.

You may not have been told this much and I know it doesn’t mean much coming from a stranger but my god, I am SO proud of you. And in awe of what you’ve achieved considering the start you were handed from day one. You are amazing. Please don’t underestimate what difference someone like you can make in the world.

A live in volunteer role could be fantastic for you, please do take a look at some online.

Forces. My son is in the RAF and he is saving so much money as his rent is £10. That includes bills. There are lots of different trades. He does cyber but you could pick whatever suits you.
If you did that for a few years you could buy a house. They have schemes to help you buy a house as well.

Or do the supply teaching. It’s well paid.
Look on spare room. Com and rent a room.

You would also be great in the police. Very understanding of difficult family backgrounds and a good negotiator/ good at keeping the peace. I could go on but you would have the relevant skills.

Dont stay in that house.

Supply can often lead to permanent roles. I do think that overseas may be a good move though, a totally fresh start? I have friends who have done it and still doing it 20 years later!
Well done for all you’ve achieved in very difficult circumstances.

This. My friend’s daughter has just taken a job teaching at an international school in Thailand. She gets flights, accommodation, decent salary and a buddy to help her settle.

in your position, I’d seriously consider it. Good luck - sounds so tough for you but things can only get better 💐

Have you completed your probation year (in Scotland I don’t know the English term for your first qualified year)? If so can you look at teaching abroad for a couple of years to get yourself established? I know a few newly qualified teachers who have done this - the job situation for primary teachers particularly here is pretty dire.

Teaching posts abroad :-) https://www.tes.com/jobs/search?siteCountry=gb&locations=International&keywords=teacher&displayLocation=International

Hi OP,
My heart goes out to you. You sound like an amazing woman who has already achieved a lot in very difficult circumstances.

You’ve already been given some great advice on this thread. I’m sure that with enough persistence you’ll be able to find a good job in teaching. I know how hard it feels when you’re being constantly knocked back though.

But I want to agree with the person who suggested the military. I’m not military myself but I’ve known some absolutely amazing people who have served. Some of them have been women. Tough women, yes, but it sounds like you’re pretty tough yourself. You must be to have succeeded like you already have.

My impression is that military jobs can work really well for people with insecure family backgrounds. Obviously you live at work, at least for the first year or two, so it gets you away from your home town. It teaches you a lot of structure and discipline, which can be helpful if your parents didn’t model that themselves. Most importantly, everyone I have known who was in the military has forged their strongest friendships there. I know they would take a bullet for each other, men and women. Those friendships often last long after they leave the forces. They’re often more like a new family, a chosen family. Sometimes I’m a little envious of that.

As a graduate you might be able to enter as an Officer. Give it some thought.

I just wanted to tell you you are an amazing person, op. To have achieved what you have in your education with all that you have lived through is outstanding. Definitely begin by doing sub work, you'll get a feel for the schools you'd like to work in and you will get yourself and your work noticed, as well as building your experience and CV.

Get on as many supply agency lists as you can OP.

You could perhaps be a live-in Nanny?

Also though, even though you can’t afford to rent a place of your own, you could rent a room in a houseshare on a low salary (while you keep trying for teaching jobs).

The Youth Hostels Association have many live-in roles - most are seasonal but if you're a good worker and willing to move around there are winter jobs too. It's not brilliant pay but food and bills are all included, and you'd get to live in some beautiful places and meet interesting people. Many young people do this before launching their "proper" career so it won't hold you back.

I know you said you weren’t keen on supply work, but it’s something to put on your CV to show a school that you are keen and have experience. It would give you the chance to save a bit of cash for when you have a permanent role and are able to move out.

Could you get some seasonal work over the summer - just to give yourself a break from your Mum and her boyfriend? Camp America or something similar?

Move abroad. Start fresh.