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Dad’s death and not sure what to do

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samplesalequeen · 01/07/2025 20:36

Hi all

My dad died in January. He’d been unwell but he collapsed at home and I performed CPR on him. I broke his ribs with the force of it and I can remember pleading with him to stay while I was doing it. I only did CPR for probably 5 or so minutes before the paramedics showed up but I’m haunted by the whole experience - I find myself thinking about his poor ribs and I can
see his face as I kneeled above him. I was ok for a while after it. I think it was probably shock but as the months have passed I feel so upset that this is how it ended. There was no peace - just trauma and chaos.

i would give anything to tell him that I love him and I tried my hardest to keep him alive.

I suppose my AIBU is to ask if anyone has been in this position before?

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spoonbillstretford · 01/07/2025 20:41

Not in that exact position but it's common to feel guilt in the early stages of grief whatever the circumstances. Kindly, OP, you couldn't have done more or better for your dad and I'm sure he was proud of you. He knew that you loved him and were doing your best. 💐

OhHellolittleone · 01/07/2025 20:39

He will have known how much you love him as you fought for him. It’s hard to see the positives but he was not alone, he was with you, which would have been a real comfort. Xxx

FieldInWhichFucksAreGrownIsBarren · 01/07/2025 20:38

I have, it's a horrible thing to have to experience. I'd advise seeking help to cope with the trauma.

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