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Bereavement

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wispysunsetsunday · 03/06/2025 00:42

Is anyone awake and not able to sleep?

I was on annual leave last week for half term when I found out a very close friend of mine had died. I've been an emotional wreck. I came back to work today after leave and cried all day. I can't sleep at all. I seem to be flitting between feelings of emptiness and disassociation and then complete meltdown and tears.

Her family have asked me to write her funeral eulogy which I want to do but I'm terrified.

Work have asked me if I want to take time off and I said no today but I'm still awake at nearly 1am with 8.30am meetings tomorrow. My brain just won't shut down.

Not sure what this post is really after - advice or just to talk.

God, I loved her so much.

OP posts:
Ted27 · 03/06/2025 00:57

@wispysunsetsunday
So sad for you.
As your work has offered I'd take the time.
You are clearly in shock, you don't have to think about the eulogy for a while.
But I think its a lovely thing for the family to ask, a real testament to your friendship.
You obviously had a very special friendship, something to treasure.
When the time comes you will find the right words to honour your relationship.

Do you have a favourite memory you would like to share?

SnowFrogJelly · 03/06/2025 00:48

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