Am currently living with the kids dad my step kids all boys 16 30 and 31 this was my first love we had a son together who’s now 19 and he wasn’t part of his life till the age of 13 he had an affair behind his wife’s back he was 34 I was 18 I adored him I still do in my own way I’ve been back with him 6 years and had another 2 miracles now 3 and ten months but do I stay for there sakes I left for 2 months in homeless accommodation it was horrendous so I told him am coming back which he wasn’t tv happy with but let me my daughter turned 3 25th July f last month and a started nursery hence why I wanted to come home so she was settled but no e that am I hes like jecel and hide still wasn’t a to sleep with me also I just feel lost and dont know what to do I struggled with the kids on my own and he just worships his 16 year old with his ex wife he is great with my daughter and the bond is there with my son but he does nothing with him unless asked