Is this too much to eat in a day?

You dont think a BMI of 16 is low for an adult woman, particularly a mother?

No we don’t. DH works very late and DS is very profoundly autistic and spends all evening naked on his trampoline in the garden. So no, no family dinner here.

We are actually a UPF free house which is the ironic thing. I made the cupcakes, bread and fishcakes myself … I bought the Kit Kat and twirl bites from the petrol station and ate them in the car… because I’m disgusting!

OP, I feel like you need a hug. Do you have friends and/or family you could talk to about this at all?

Five years ago, I was so similar to how you're talking about and acting with food - I was trying to control my anxiety through controlling food. I also had physical issues that changed how I reacted to food and ended up completely skewing how I thought about it. And I didn't even have the added difficulties of children at the time, never mind one with severe SEND.

It is so easy, when life is challenging, to look to the aspects of life you can change, to try to regain a sense of control. But you've lost sense of your body as something to be nourished rather than just one component of life that you can keep in line.

You need some specialist advice. This is an eating disorder.

It's just not very healthy. Low on protein, vitamins, fibre, etc.

You've got a lot of sugar as you say.

You have had 2 portions of fruit and veg and both are 'starchy' carb ones - the banana and the peas.

You're also desperately short of calcium which will affect your bones long term.

And barely any fibre, other than the porridge , peas and banana.

So you're also deficient in Vit C.

You could drop the spuds with the fish cakes and have a portion of carrots and broccoli.

You could add blueberries and seeds to the porridge.

Your snacks could be an apple of a small portion of full fat plain yoghurt.

Do you seriously think this is a good diet?

It's not a particularly large volume of food for an entire day at all. A lot of it consists of sugar, though. Maybe that's why you're feeling sick.

However, I think it's more likely that you just feel sick because you've got psychological issues around food and are panicking because you've eaten something you think is 'bad' and feel guilty.

I wouldn't feel sick after eating that in a day myself, but I'm extremely laid back about food and don't stress about it. You sound quite overwrought about what's essentially a day where you ate a bit of chocolate and a single biscuit, which makes me wonder if this is more of a mental thing than anything else.

EDIT: Just seen your update where you call yourself disgusting over a KitKat and some Twirl bites. Your issue is definitely a psychological one and sounds more about your own self-image than the food really.

You clearly have an eating disorder or it's just a stealth boast about how little you eat apart from crap and still stay slim

You clearly have an eating disorder or it's just a stealth boast about how little you eat apart from crap and still stay slim

@SENSummer Overall, not too much, but too many sugary empty calories and not enough protein, veggies, fruit, or fibre.

A really nice but healthier snack would be peanut butter spread on crackers or rice/corn cakes and topped with thinly sliced apple... it's really nice, filling, and should satisfy your sweet tooth, whilst being better for you than chocolate.

We are actually a UPF free house which is the ironic thing. I made the cupcakes, bread and fishcakes myself … I bought the Kit Kat and twirl bites from the petrol station and ate them in the car… because I’m disgusting!

I have porridge every day. I have it with berries or bananas. I make it with water, not milk. I don't get any sugar spikes or dips and in fact it keeps me satisfied all morning till lunchtime, no cravings for snacks or anything. I have heard that very ripe bananas contain more sugar but I can't stand very ripe bananas anyway.

No-one in the UK is going to have steak and eggs for breakfast. Eggs are a good call at breakfast though.

We are actually a UPF free house which is the ironic thing. I made the cupcakes, bread and fishcakes myself … I bought the Kit Kat and twirl bites from the petrol station and ate them in the car… because I’m disgusting!

You could download the My Fitness Pal which is free ( although they have a premium version) Its very easy to scan the labels and it tells you exactly what all of that adds up to...how many carbs/protein/fat etc. They've got various types of diet plans... although it doesnt sound like you need to restrict calories at all. But perhaps get more nutrients and fiber out of the calories you do have.

I'd say that there doesn't seem to be a lot on the veggie front... Greens etc..
You could chuck in an avocado, some salad.. Peas aren't bad but they are are considered to be a starchy veg, if you have toast, try to have wholegrain/wholemeal.
Nothing wrong with the odd bit of choc,,, but you could try veering towards dark choc as Kit Kats choc is much higher in Sugar. or replace one of the snacks with fruit... ( maybe keep a stash of frozen fruit to have with greek yog and sprinkle with some nuts that would be very filling)

You could get a blood test to check for vitamin deficiency... and boost that with some supplements. I discovered i had really low Vit D and B12 for example and that is despite having food which is supposed to be high in them. And now take daily supplements and eating more protein, oily fish, tofu etc.
I make a breakfast shake or overnight oats with it. (Wellwoman) recently I noticed that my dry skin, thinning hair and brittle nails have really improved but it took at least six months. ( and I used to believe you could get all your vitamins from food)

It's good that you are looking into it. I hadn't tweaked my diet for years and info about this is getting better all the time.