I’ve been wanting to post this for a couple of months but haven’t been able to know how to word things. Going to try not to drop feed!
I’ve always had a smaller circle of 5 friends who I have known now for at least 20 years. I have made friends here and there across the years but none who I would call close.
I love these friends dearly. I really do. But I’ve been feeling a bit… hurt? Over the last couple of years.
We are all in our 30’s and have kids and partners.
I just feel like I bend over backwards for these friends and have definitely prioritised their feelings too much (that’s a me problem) but I always show up for them and feel disappointed in what I get back.
I’m talking ignoring messages, cancelling on me for reasons like the dogs sick, Childs sick, I’m sick (multiple times in a row last minute then clearly well enough to go out same day with others) forgetting my events but I always prioritise, remember and am there for theirs “oh did you say Friday for your birthday meal? I thought it was Saturday so can’t go now”. Use me for emotional support and either not there for me or send me short replies back. Things like expect me to be at events for them / birthdays and helping out but when it’s mine or children’s birthdays I’m lucky to get a text.
I know I probably should take a step back, but I’m just getting upset really. Am I expecting too much?