How? I am almost 40. Two stone overweight. Really poor physical fitness. I have a bad diet and hate the way I look. I feel like I’ve aged a lot in the past few years and I don’t like shopping or really going anywhere that requires wearing more than leggings or baggy tops because I’m so self conscious about my figure.
But it’s all my own fault. I eat crap. I drink too much. I don’t exercise (other than a short walk everyday). Every week I promise myself this is the week I’ll make changes but by Wednesday I’ve slipped back into my usual habits. I just have no willpower. If I’m hungry I just forget all of the promises I’ve made to myself and binge on whatever is available. If I tell myself I won’t drink during the week I get to Thursday and think oh fuck it. It’s just an endless cycle of the same old habits and I have no idea how to break them.
I work and have two dc and by the time they are in bed I have no energy to do anything than fall on the sofa.
I just need a total overhaul of my mindset and habits. Has anyone else managed to get themselves out of this kind of rut? Does it get easier as dc grow up and you get a little more time and independence back? I know my health isn’t great and I need to start looking after myself but even the small goals I set for myself feel so hard to work towards right now.
I know that healthy eating and daily exercise is the complete norm for some people. For me it’s an effort and one that I don’t seem to be able to maintain for more than a few days. I’m really starting to hate myself not just because of how I look but how pathetic my willpower is.