Hi guys, I posted a while ago about my husband looking at my mentally ill sisters patreon (posting 18+ content.)
I've been unable to leave as I'm not financially stable, I've now gotten a job for 25hrs a week, but that obviously isn't enough to support myself and my two children on my own. (2 and 3yo- almost 3+4.).
He has been trying to drill it into me that he was only going on there to look at her subscriber count, I know that he's a nosy fucker but I cannot believe or trust him. It has now been 9 months since I found this out and it still hurts just as much as the day I found out.
Our tenancy is up in July and his parents want to put a deposit down on a house for us, I feel like I'm stuck and as though I just have to go along with it. I'm worried that If I don't, he would then go through with it on his own and I'd be at risk of him having full custody as I would be homeless.. could this happen?
I'm 29 years old and feel stuck. I can't be intimate with him because everything above just starts running through my head, I don't want to stick around and wait it out for however many years and regret wasting my 30s in a dead relationship. I also know that the longer it takes to split, the harder it would be on the kids.
What would you do?! Would you try to work through it? Am I being unreasonable for feeling this way?