I’m really really struggling. I’m just feeling really overwhelmed by life, normal bog standard life.
This evening I’ve tried twice to explain to DH how overwhelmed I’m feeling. The first time he walked off as he’d seen something more interesting, the second he’s got mega cross with me for not seeing it from his perspective.
Backstory is we have four children. He is away at sea for long periods of time and comes home (current ‘visit’ is four days) so apart from financial burden everything else is on me. We’re currently living in one room due to work being done and outside area is yet to be landscaped (so is rough as). I’m just exhausted. Tbh it’s not physical it’s the mental juggle of everything all of the time, plus lack of sleep because it’s me that’s up in the night and then 6am the day starts again. I love looking after the kids it’s just draining and largely I don’t have anyone to discuss anything with never mind just the random crap in my head.
He’s upset because I’m not thinking how he feels not being here ever and missing everything.
I think he’s being a selfish shit for not realising I’m carrying everyone else and I just don’t have the mental capacity to carry his crap too. He is his only responsibility.
Sorry for the rant I know I just have to pull the big girl pants up and get on with it but it’s hard.