No, you keep misinterpreting what people are saying in a deeply passive-aggressive way, on all these threads. You seem to post in a similar pattern -- you start off with an innocent-sounding question, and then, when people tell you that phoning someone who doesn't want any more to do with you from a withheld number is harassment, or, as in one of your other threads, that texting someone to tell them it's mean of them to 'ghost' you when they haven't been in touch in a few weeks is not going to make anyone want to be around you, you start doing this performative self-abasement about how you should have never spoken a single word to anyone from your 'big gob', you should have lain down and let her walk all over you in silence etc etc.
You seem unable to understand how friendships work. Like others on here who struggle with friendships, you see it as some kind of chain of mutual obligation ( you need her, therefore she should do x, or owes you an explanation), rather than a pair of people who fundamentally enjoy one another's company.
To have other people want to be in your company, you have to be bringing something to the table other than need and loneliness.
I'm sure you have positive qualities, but your lack of ease and happiness with yourself, and the huge, all-encompassing need for things from others, are probably covering them over and making them difficult to perceive.
I think you need to take responsibility for at least some of the reasons this friendship ended, never contact her again, and try to understand and come to terms with yourself and your attitude to relationships, in therapy. I'd go so far as to say I'd skip meals in your case to try to afford regular sessions. You can't pour from an empty cup. Someone at ease with themselves is a far more attractive prospect as a friend.