“The sun shone for me once more when Pamela fell pregnant. This was not by design, as we hadn't even discussed children yet, but I was thrilled by the news.
I had long ago reconciled myself to the thought that I would never have children, which clearly wasn't an option with Billie. The idea of becoming a father at my age was an unexpected surprise, but one that I relished.
I was adamant that Pamela and I should be married before the baby arrived. With the annulment of my marriage taking far longer than I'd hoped because of Billie's resistance, I agreed to admit adultery and be the guilty party in the eyes of the law.
My lawyer told me that this would be achieved by the tried and tested practice of sending us to spend the night together in a hotel, so that our names on the register would confirm our night of mortal sin to her lawyers.
I thought we'd find a suitable and not too expensive hotel close to home, but Pamela had other ideas. 'Let's go into London and make a night of it,' she said, excitedly, and I hadn't the heart to refuse.”
He shares intimate private details of Billie, who had died before his book deal, so unable to defend herself or provide her version of the marriage.