Broke up with my partner last month, we were together for 11 months.
I am 51 he is 49.
The problem is, I had some of the most exciting times with him day in and day out, I was quite deeply in love.
Something happened, he forced my hand such that I had to end the relationship.
The only problem was that I had never ever in my whole life experienced anything even remotely close to the sexual chemistry I experienced with him.
Frankly, up until then, I hadn’t even imagined such heights were possible.
My problem now is I am finding it difficult to forget that, my body got used to him. I find myself in a state of semi arousal day in day out, I can’t help it, it’s upsetting me, and actually it’s making me angry. Why did he have to force my hand like that? Now I feel deprived, I don’t know if I’ll experience something like that ever again, yet a crave that experience daily.
Please help me sort this out and work through it, I’m really struggling, very frustrated, and I don’t even know where all this anger is coming from. I feel so totally messed up.
Talk to me, help me, advise me. TIA