I'm 50 in a few months time. I've never really celebrated my birthday and did nothing for my 40th at all.
I'm kind of feeling like I'd like to do something for my 50th.
The only issue is that I don't really have any friends. Well, not close ones. I know a few people but none of them are close to me and they're all the sort of level of friendship you'd invite once you've invited all your close friends and family if you had the capacity. Except that I don't have anyone else.
I've been in my work place for 4 years. There are probably up to half a dozen people I could invite from there but I think even some of them would be surprised to be invited. Probably only really two I'd describe as 'work friends'.
Two couples I know to chat to in the pub/go to gigs with. Not really friends. We're not in contact outside of these times but I like them.
Probably another two couples I rarely see. One i realise I'm not really sure I like all that much judging by their SM feeds...
My partner, my adult kids, my brother, his wife and preteen daughter.
My partner's sibling and partner.
Probably his adult children and their partners.
And one actual friend (and her partner.)
I can't really do it, can I?
To add to this, we're planning on getting married in a couple of years time and I'm delaying planning it because of this.
He had a huge party for his 50th with loads of friends he'd had for years. I'm just feeling like a bit of a loser I think!