I'm 50 and probably menopausal. Today I feel sad, tired, annoyed, overwhelmed, disappointed, the whole shebang!
I wonder if anyone can relate to what I am about to say.
There was a thread on here yesterday - I can't seem to find it now - along the lines of 'would you have kids if you could have your time again?' It has really made me think and I concluded that my reply was a yes AND no.
You see, my feeling on life is that some phases simply last far too long. I have teenage daughters at home and I am just ready to get my life back. I want to come home to an empty house. Does that sound awful? They are lovely and I adore them but my God, the selfishness. This leads me to feel disappointed and resentful, and I just don't like it. My 18 year old has just told me that I'm always in victim mode. Well, I really, really try not to be.
The ex husband phase: again, just too long. I can't wait for a day where I never have to clap eyes on the man again.
The work phase: actually, it's not too bad. Sometimes it even feels like a break from home! It will be a long phase out of financial necessity though, like most of us.
The pet phase: I LOVE my dog so much and he has a great life. He's nearly 10 years old now and again, I just feel over it. I'm quite looking forward to a day where I won't have to walk him, feed him, pay for the groomer and insurance, etc etc etc. I shall be inconsolable when he passes though, so I don't even know why I'm having these thoughts. I just know that I don't want to own any more pets.
I fucking just don't want to adult anymore. 'Responsibility to me is a tragedy' 
The different stages all last too long. My parents left the nest at 17, me at 21, but it feels like I'm going to be leant on forever. I kinda know that parenting is like that, but still.
I'm sitting here crying like a weirdo, so please be kind.
Thanks for reading. I have no idea if anyone will be able to understand or relate!