Active discussions

Please or to access all these features

Talk
AIBU?

Share your dilemmas and get honest opinions from other Mumsnetters.

Original poster

To think that I need a MH assessment *TW*

30 replies

Wantthistoend · 17/01/2025 22:29

I've suffered with self harm, suicidal tendencies, depression, chaotic behaviour essentially my whole life. I also have an eating disorder and what seems like OCD.

I get these spells where I believe thing slike people are building cases against me, I've committed fraud, people are recording me, I've quit my job and moved house because of this, empty my bank accounts, delete all my social media etc.

When I'm not in this frame of mind it's easy to shrug it off even though the thoughts are always there, but when I'm in it it feels so real.

I've asked for a mental health assessment but been told because I'm 'ok' just now I won't be referred. I've been offered SSRIs but to be honest I'd like to speak to a psychiatric professional before I start taking meds.

I was diagnosed with bpd in the past but I didn't feel that they spent very long with me to form that diagnosis.

I'm really suffering and I use drugs and alcohol to cope. I hate being in my own head. I got clean for two months because I thought they would then take me seriously but they just gave me a list of websites.

I'm in a toxic relationship and my job is suffering too - I hate it and it causes me a great deal of anxiety but I live on my own so I can't quit. There's a good chance I'll be fired because of all the time I've had off 😔

I feel like ending it all at times and I don't really know what to do.

OP posts:
Original poster
Wantthistoend · 17/01/2025 22:40

Plastictrees · 17/01/2025 22:34

A mental health assessment sounds absolutely appropriate- your GP should not be refusing this, I would advise making another appointment and asking to be referred to your local mental health team for the reasons outlined in your post. Please advocate for yourself, you deserve support.

It wasn't my GP, whenever I ask to speak to them about mental health they tell me to make an appointment with the psychiatric nurse at the practice. I've done so twice. I've told her that I'm scared of these spells and I wanted to see if they can be prevented. She just told me because I wasn't having one then, that she could see no reason for referral.

It's so hard 😕

OP posts:
Huwipulotu · 17/01/2025 22:36

Agree with first poster. You absolutely need to push for intervention.

Scutterbug · 17/01/2025 22:35

That’s really tough. It’s very hard to get MH support at the moment.

Can I ask why you won’t try medication?

Have you spent much time with your GP? They can refer you to the Community Mental Health Team who can arrange a psychiatrist appointment for you.

I have psychotic spells. I believe I am being watched, that people are evil. That the government are out to get me. That I’ve been microchipped and I need to kill people.

Last spell it took 3 weeks before they decided I needed to go into hospital. I was a real danger to those around me.

What do you hope to get from a psychiatrist appointment? I’m wondering if there are other ways to get you the treatment you need.

Plastictrees · 17/01/2025 22:34

A mental health assessment sounds absolutely appropriate- your GP should not be refusing this, I would advise making another appointment and asking to be referred to your local mental health team for the reasons outlined in your post. Please advocate for yourself, you deserve support.

Original poster
Wantthistoend · 17/01/2025 22:30

I also had a miscarriage recently and have experienced a lot of trauma. I keep messing up and I feel like I've done irreparable damage to my life. And that people will use information against me. I'm scared even posting this.

OP posts:
Swipe left for the next trending thread